Dorothy Day: a saint for today’s world

DD-MilwaukeeBy Jim Forest

Who was Dorothy Day?

First of all, she was not Doris Day, though Dorothy sometimes got letters addressed to the film star. But Dorothy did have, if only for a few months, a little Hollywood in her past. Just at the time of the Wall Street crash that inaugurated the Great Depression, she was working for a Hollywood studio as a script writer. With Wall Street in ruins, she was among the millions who was soon out of a job.

Dorothy was born in Brooklyn on the 8th of November 1897. She lived an exceptionally colorful life, every part of which, from early adulthood on, would be scandalous to one group of people or another, including the life she led following her conversion to Catholic Christianity when she was thirty. As a university student she had been a member of the Socialist Party — and soon afterward, very briefly, a member of the IWW: the Industrial Workers of the World. Though never a Marxist, she maintained friendships with a number of Communists and other radicals until the end of her life — giving rise during the Cold War to sharp criticism from many of her fellow Catholics. After her reception into the Catholic Church in 1927, she described herself a Christian anarchist, by which she meant a person whose obedience is to Christ rather than to Caesar.

A journalist, editor and writer, she made her main mark on history as founder of the Catholic Worker, originally a newspaper of that name but one that quickly grew into a movement best known for its many houses of hospitality — small communities scattered across the United States and a number of other countries that center on actions that in various ways are a response to Christ’s declaration that “What you have done to the least person you have done to me.”

The result is not just what might be called charitable activities, such works of mercy as hospitality to the homeless and other forms of practical assistance to people who have been pretty much abandoned by society. Dorothy pointed out that the works of war are the polar opposite of the works of mercy. Most people are willing to appreciate people who feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, clothe the naked, provide hospitality to the homeless, care for the sick and visit those in prison, but you quickly get in real trouble if you challenge the social structures that cause hunger, thirst, destitution, homelessness, illness and imprisonment.

Dorothy raised the question: Why undo with one hand the good you did with the other? Clothing the naked one day — and burning people alive the next? Giving drink to the thirsty on Monday only to destroy the water works on Tuesday? Housing the homeless, then bombing towns? The Catholic Worker way, Dorothy said again and again, was the way of the Cross, not the way of the crucifers. “War is the continuing passion of Christ,” she wrote, “and Christ did not come down from the Cross to defend Himself.”

So, on the one hand, you have in Dorothy Day someone who inspired the founding of a great many houses of hospitality and, on the other, someone who got in trouble over and over again for protesting a wide range of injustices.

She was arrested quite a number of times in her life for acts of civil disobedience. The first, in 1917, when she was only nineteen, was for being part of a group of women who stood in front of the White House protesting the exclusion of women from the voters’ lists — and the last was in 1973, when she was seventy-five, for taking part with farm workers in a banned picket line in California.

Dorothy came from a very conservative family. Her journalist father was an unabashed racist who also hated Jews and Catholics and probably would have had no moral objection to slavery had it not been abolished, but her voracious reading as a young woman drew her in the opposite direction. Reading Upton Sinclair’s novel, The Jungle, set in very poor immigrant neighborhoods in Chicago’s South Side made her leave her quite comfortable house and walk, pushing a pram with her baby brother in it, into those South Side neighborhoods near the stock yards. Those long walks in areas most people avoid marked the beginning of her vocation.

One of Dorothy’s major gifts was a talent for finding beauty in the midst of urban desolation as well as in the human face. Drab streets were transformed by pungent odors: geranium and tomato plants, garlic, olive oil, roasting coffee, bread and rolls in bakery ovens. “Here,” she said, “was enough beauty to satisfy me.”

Dorothy was a bright student but a reluctant scholar. When she was seventeen, having gotten a full-tuition scholarship, she started her studies to the University of Illinois in Urbana but — eager to get on with the adventure of life — dropped out when she was eighteen, went to New York and got a job reporting for one of America’s few socialist newspapers, The Call. She covered rallies and demonstrations and interviewed people ranging from butlers and to labor organizers and revolutionaries. She next worked for The Masses, a radical magazine edited by socialists who opposed American involvement in World War I. In September 1917, the journal’s mailing permit was cancelled. Federal officers seized back issues, manuscripts, subscriber lists and correspondence. Five editors were charged with sedition, a major felony, but as her name had only recently been put the masthead, Dorothy wasn’t arrested and managed to get out the last issue.

Her closest friends included many of the literary figures one thinks of from that period, including the playwright Eugene O’Neill. She often put him to bed but seems to have declined his offers to join him there. She was part of a circle of artists and writers who frequented a bar in Greenwich Village officially named The Golden Swan but more often called the “Hell Hole.”

Though she had been baptized in the Episcopal Church — the Church of Our Saviour in Chicago — as a child, she wasn’t a religious person in this period of her life but, like Eugene O’Neill, someone haunted by God. Across the table from Dorothy, O’Neill sometimes recited Francis Thompspn’s poem, “The Hound of Heaven.” There was a Catholic church — Saint Joseph’s — in the neighborhood whose doors were open late into the night. Dorothy would sometimes drop in to sit in the quiet while others prayed. There was something about being with people quietly at prayer which she needed even if she didn’t understand or share their faith. Sometimes she would find someone sitting in the winter cold on the church steps and bring him back with her to The Golden Swan for a drink and to thaw out.

Dorothy didn’t know much about the Catholic Church and was well aware of the anti-Catholic views of many of her friends, yet she was inspired by Catholics who were serious about their faith. It was clear to her that “worship, adoration, thanksgiving, supplication … were the noblest acts of which we are capable in this life.” When an atheist friend, noting Dorothy’s’ tendency to slip into churches, gave her a rosary, Dorothy was very touched. She had no clear idea how to use it but it was a very significant gift.

During World War I, she decided being a journalist was not an adequate response to the wholesale suffering going in the world — not only was the most destructive war ever fought going on at the time but there was a world-wide influenza epidemic that took fifty-million lives between March 1918 and June 1920. Dorothy became a student nurse working twelve-hour shifts at a Brooklyn hospital.

Despite having lived a “bohemian” life, it wasn’t until she fell in love with Lionel Moise, an orderly she met at the hospital that she fell very incautiously in love and became, as we now put it, “sexually active.” Unfortunately the man was the sort who isn’t interested either in marriage or children; he was a Lone Ranger/Marlboro Man type who enjoys sex minus consequences and resists marriage because it would impede his freedom. When Dorothy became pregnant, he urged an abortion. There was no way, he said, that he would take on fatherhood. With desperate sorrow she had an abortion, but, as so often is the case, he left her anyway.

She had lost both her child and the man she wanted to live with. It was a hard time in her life. Not long afterward she attempted suicide but luckily a neighbor smelled the gas in her apartment and saved her life.

The turning point in her life came several years later when she became pregnant once again. As before, the man — Forster Batterham — wanted sex without children, but this time Dorothy was determined that the young life in her womb was not going to die before birth if she could help it. Her pregnancy seemed to her nothing less than an experience of God’s mercy and forgiveness — a true miracle.

Her daughter, Tamar Theresa, was born on the 4th of March 1926. Given the gratitude that overwhelmed her, Dorothy decided that she wanted for her daughter something she had hardly dared want for herself, baptism in the Catholic Church. “I did not want my child to flounder as I had often floundered,” she wrote her autobiography, The Long Loneliness. “I wanted to believe, and I wanted my child to believe, and if belonging to the Church would give her so inestimable a grace as faith in God, and the companionable love of the Saints, then the thing to do was to have her baptized a Catholic.”

She was very much in love with her partner, though Forster Batterham was the kind of man who saw the world as too destructive a place for children. Even so, to his credit, he fell in love with his daughter once she was born. The problem now was that Dorothy was powerfully drawn to the Catholic Church, an institution he utterly despised. In his view, if you were going to make a list of things wrong with the world, the Catholic Church would be high on the list. He was also a convinced atheist. Dorothy’s response — “How can there be no God when there are all these beautiful things” — cut no ice with him. Their discussions tended to become heated arguments. One night he stormed out of Dorothy’s little beach house on Staten Island. This had happened before, but, when he came back this time, Dorothy wouldn’t open the door.

It was a very hard time for her. She still loved Forster, but she had reached a point of clarification in her life that it was time to become a Catholic. Tamar had been baptized soon after her birth. Dorothy’s own entrance into the church occurred on the 29th of December 1927. No friends were present except her godparent, Sister Aloysia Mary Mulhearn, the nun who had helped Dorothy understand the catechism.

The long-awaited, costly event gave Dorothy no consolation. As she wrote later on, “I had no sense of peace, no joy, no conviction that what I was doing was right. It was just something that I had to do, a task to be gotten through.” At Mass the next day, she felt wooden, like someone going through the motions. “I … shuddered at the thought of anyone seeing me,” she wrote. Was she not betraying the oppressed and the radical movement? “Here I was, going over to the opposition, because the Church was lined up with property, with the wealthy, with capitalism, with all the forces of reaction.”

She knew, as a human institution, that the Catholic Church was no paradise on earth. It pained Dorothy to see “businesslike priests” who seemed, as she put it, “more like Cain than Abel,” most of whom ignored the poor and never said a word about social injustice. She would have been disgusted but not amazed had she learned there were priests sexually molesting children and bishops who did little or nothing about it while shifting such priests from parish to parish. What was most important to Dorothy was her access, via the Church, to the Eucharist. She took comfort in knowing that there were other priests who lived poorly and “who gave their lives daily for their fellows.”

If only, Dorothy thought, it was less a Church of charities, fine as they were, and more a Church of social justice. As she wrote in The Long Loneliness, “I felt that charity was a word to choke over. Who wanted charity? And it was not just human pride but a strong sense of man’s dignity and worth, and what was due to him in justice, that made me resent rather than feel proud of so mighty a sum of Catholic institutions…. How I longed to make a synthesis reconciling body and soul, this world and the next.”

The five years following Dorothy’s entrance into the Catholic Church centered on her search to find something that didn’t yet exist: a way of supporting herself and Tamar through work which linked her religious faith, her commitment to more just, less violent social order, and her vocation as a writer. It was a journey in the dark.

Late in 1932, Dorothy was commissioned by Commonweal and America magazines to report on an event called the Hunger March. On November 30, six hundred jobless men and women departed from New York’s Union Square heading for Washington. For most of the way, it was a march only in a figurative sense — the participants traveled in vans plus several three old cars while Dorothy followed by public bus. The popular press treated the event as evidence of Red revolution. Little attention was given to the marchers’ proposals: jobs, unemployment insurance, old age pensions, relief for mothers and children, health care and housing for those who had lost everything. Hostility along the way reached a crescendo in Wilmington, Delaware where police hurled tear gas canisters through the windows of a Protestant church which had bravely opened its doors to the marchers. Those escaping the gas were clubbed down and the suspected leaders were thrown into police vans and taken to jail. Despite delays and injuries, the Hunger March pressed on.

When the swelling assembly reached the edge of Washington, they found barricades had been put across the highway. The demonstrators had been barred from entering the capital. Refusing to disband, the marchers camped out for three days and nights, despite bitter weather and encirclement by heavily-armed police.

Dorothy was struck by the contrast between what she witnessed and newspaper reports. Headlines warned of a Communist menace bearing no resemblance to the actual unarmed people who had endured insults and violence to dramatize the hardships and needs of the unemployed. “If there was not a story, the newspapers would make a story,” Dorothy recalled. “The newspaper reporters were infected by their own journalism and began to beg editors to give them gas masks before they went out to interview the leaders of the unemployed marchers.”

Such alarmist press reports shaped the response of the guardians of Washington. In one of her reports, Dorothy described the preparations that had occurred within the city — Marine riot drills, special guards at the White House, Capitol and Treasury. Protecting the city from the Hunger Marchers were the police force, the National Guard, 370 firemen, even American Legion volunteers. Weapons at hand included machine guns, tear gas, nauseating gas, revolvers, shot guns, night sticks and lengths of rubber hose.

On December 8, after a Washington federal court ruled in the marchers’ favor, the police reluctantly removed the barricades and stood aside. In The Long Loneliness, Dorothy described the last leg of the march:

“On a bright sunny day the ragged horde triumphantly with banners flying, with lettered slogans mounted on sticks, paraded three thousand strong through the tree-flanked streets of Washington. I stood on the curb and watched them, joy and pride in the courage of this band of men and women mounting in my heart.”

She felt bitterness as well. She knew the Hunger March had been organized not by Christians but by Communists and that the differences between the two groups were such that as yet she had no deep friendships with Catholics and was regarded as a traitor by many radicals she had once been close to. She had a religious faith and a social conscience, but no community. She could only watch and admire those campaigning for social justice — “I could not be out there with them.”

Dorothy felt useless. “How little, how puny my work had been since becoming a Catholic, I thought. How self-centered, how ingrown, how lacking in a sense of community! My summer of quiet reading and prayer, my self-absorption seemed sinful as I watched my brothers in their struggle, not for themselves but for others. How our dear Lord must love them, I kept thinking to myself. They were His friends, His comrades, and who knows how close to His heart in their attempt to work for justice. I remembered our Lord overthrowing the money-changers’ tables in the temple…. [What] divine courage on the part of this obscure Jew, going into the temple and with bold scorn for all the riches of this world, scattering the coins…”

The banners passed, and the marchers who had ignited such hysteria disbanded peaceably, no doubt wondering who was changed or what structures of life might be improved by their appeal and the hardship they endured along the way.

December 8 is a “holy day of obligation” for Catholics, the feast of the Immaculate Conception. Following the march, Dorothy went to the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception at Catholic University in northeast Washington. As the upper church was still under construction, she went into the crypt beneath, with its low vaulted ceilings, mosaics and dark chapels lit with the flickering of vigil candles. “There I offered up a special prayer, a prayer which came with tears and anguish, that some way would open up for me to use what talents I possessed for my fellow workers, for the poor.” This hidden event, Dorothy’s prayer of tears, marks the real beginning of the Catholic Worker.

Dorothy returned to New York the next day, December 9, eager to be with Tamar and to share news of the Hunger March with John and Tessa. They were all at home, but there was a stranger waiting for her as well, a man who had arrived earlier and whom Tessa had invited to stay for supper. His unpressed suit bore the wrinkles of having been slept in. He could easily have been among the marchers Dorothy had admired in Washington. His face seemed as weather-beaten as his clothing. However, the visitor wasn’t down-and-out in his welcoming smile. His whole manner communicated gentleness, vitality and intellectual energy. When he spoke, his calloused hands were as lively as his thought. “I am Peter Maurin,” he said

Peter Maurin was a French immigrant and former Christian Brother twenty years her senior. It was no love affair this time — in fact she was still in love with Tamar’s father, sending him love letters in which she practically begged him to marry her. Maurin — a man who had much in common with St. Francis of Assisi — was in search of someone who could help him launch a movement and had some very definite ideas about what Dorothy could do with her talents, one of which was to found a radical Catholic newspaper. It was an idea that Dorothy took to with enthusiasm — if there was one thing she knew about it was journalism and newspapers. It was in her blood. The first issue of The Catholic Worker was published five months later.

By now the Great Depression was in its fourth year. Industrial production in America was barely half what it had been in 1929. In a population of 123-million, more than 13-million workers were unemployed. The majority of America’s banks — ten thousand of them — had collapsed, while those which survived were busily repossessing houses, shops and farms whose owners couldn’t make mortgage and loan payments. Hoovervilles — shanty towns built by the homeless made of tin, cardboard, canvas and scrap wood — had sprung up in vacant lots all over the country. No Social Security program yet existed. There was, practically speaking, no social net. “Brother, Can You Spare a Dime” was being played on every radio. When people talked about “hard times,” it was an understatement.

On May 1, 1933, when the first copies of The Catholic Worker were handed out at a rally on Union Square in New York, it was a paper that met a pressing real need. Few publishing ventures meet with such immediate success. Only 2,500 copies had been printed of the first issue. By December, the number had risen to 100,000. Readers found a unique voice in The Catholic Worker. It expressed dissatisfaction with the social order and took the side of labor unions, but its vision of the ideal future, neither marxist or capitalist, challenged both urbanization and industrialism. It wasn’t only radical but religious. Its revolution was green rather than red. The paper didn’t merely complain but called on its readers to make personal responses.

For the first eight months it was only a newspaper, but on December 11, 1933, a young woman knocked on the door of Dorothy’s apartment — also the editorial offices of the paper — and told Dorothy that she had heard “you have a house of hospitality.” Dorothy responded that the little group of people involved in the paper had been writing about it but had not yet actually started one. The visitor explained that she and a friend had been sleeping in subways, but that her companion had, in desperation, thrown herself in front of a train. “That very afternoon,” Dorothy recalled, “we rented our first apartment and named it the Teresa-Joseph Cooperative — Teresa for St. Teresa of Avila, Joseph after the foster father of Jesus.” They moved in some beds and began a work that continues to this day. God only knows how many men and women have been housed or helped in some way by Catholic Worker houses of hospitality in years since then. In 2013, the movement will be 80 years old.

If the Catholic Worker were just a movement providing hospitality to the down-and-out, it would be much admired and excite very little controversy, though some would still be annoyed. The Ayn Rand types, among others, would regard help to the poor as a major waste of time.

Ultimately what got Dorothy into the most trouble was her refusal to endorse war. For Dorothy war was simply murder wrapped in flags. A nonviolent way of life, as she saw it, was at the heart of the Gospel. The total number of people killed by Jesus and the Apostles is zero. She took as seriously as had Christians in the early Church the command of Jesus to St. Peter: “Put away your sword, for whoever lives by the sword shall perish by the sword.” But by the twentieth century, it was rare for Catholics to take such a position.

The Catholic Worker’s first expression of pacifism, published in 1935, was a dialogue between a patriot and Christ, the patriot dismissing Christ’s teachings on conflict as a noble but impractical doctrine. Few readers were troubled by such articles until the Spanish Civil War in 1936. The fascist side, led by Franco, presented itself as defender of the Catholic faith. Nearly every Catholic bishop and publication rallied behind Franco. The Catholic Worker, refusing to support either side in the war, lost two-thirds of its readers. Those backing Franco, Dorothy warned early in the war, ought to “take another look at recent events in [Hitler’s] Germany.”

Despite Dorothy’s disgust with fascism and Nazism, following the attack on Pearl Harbor and America’s declaration of war, Dorothy announced that the paper would maintain its pacifist stand. “We will print the words of Christ who is with us always,” Dorothy wrote. “Our manifesto is the Sermon on the Mount.” Opposition to the war, she added, had nothing to do with sympathy for America’s enemies. “We love our country…. We have been the only country in the world where men and women of all nations have taken refuge from oppression.” But the means of action the Catholic Worker movement supported were the works of mercy rather than the works of war. She urged “our friends and associates to care for the sick and the wounded, to the growing of food for the hungry, to the continuance of all our works of mercy in our houses and on our farms.”

Not all members of Catholic Worker communities agreed, but Dorothy’s view prevailed. The young men who identified with the Catholic Worker movement during the war generally spent much of the war years either in prison or in rural work camps while others did unarmed military service as medics.

The world war ended in 1945, but out of it emerged the Cold War, the nuclear-armed “warfare state” with its military-industrial complex, and a series of smaller wars in which America was often involved.

One of the rituals of life for the New York Catholic Worker community beginning in the 1950s was the refusal to participate in the state’s annual civil defense drill. Such preparation for attack seemed to Dorothy part of an attempt to promote nuclear war as survivable and winnable and to justify spending billions on the military. When the sirens sounded June 15, 1955, Dorothy was among a small group of people sitting in front of City Hall. Refusing to go down into the subways “In the name of Jesus, who is God, who is Love, we will not obey this order to pretend, to evacuate, to hide. We will not be drilled into fear. We do not have faith in God if we depend upon the Atom Bomb,” a Catholic Worker leaflet explained. Dorothy described her civil disobedience as an act of penance for America’s use of nuclear weapons on Japanese cities.

The first year the dissidents were reprimanded. The next year Dorothy and others were sent to jail for five days. Arrested again the next year, the judge jailed her for thirty days. In 1958, a different judge suspended sentence. In 1959, Dorothy was back in prison, but only for five days. Then came 1960, when instead of a handful of people coming to City Hall Park, 500 turned up. The police arrested only a few, Dorothy conspicuously not among those singled out. In 1961, the year I joined the community, the crowd swelled to 2,000. This time forty were arrested, but again Dorothy was exempted. It proved to be the last year of dress rehearsals for nuclear war in New York.

Another Catholic Worker emphasis was the civil rights movement. As usual Dorothy wanted to visit people who were setting an example and therefore went to Koinonia, a Christian agricultural community in rural Georgia where blacks and whites lived together. The community was under attack when Dorothy visited. One of the community houses had been hit by machine-gun fire and Ku Klux Klan members had burned crosses on community land. Dorothy insisted on taking a turn at the sentry post. Noticing an approaching car had reduced its speed, she ducked, not an instant too soon, just missing being shot. It was as close as she ever came to a martyr’s death.

Concern with the Church’s response to war led Dorothy to Rome during the Second Vatican Council, an event Pope John XXIII hoped would, as he said, restore “the simple and pure lines that the face of the Church of Jesus had at its birth.” In 1963 Dorothy was one of 50 “Mothers for Peace” who went to Rome to thank Pope John for his encyclical Pacem in Terris. As he was dying of cancer at the time, the pope couldn’t meet with them privately, but at one of his last public audiences blessed the “peace pilgrims,” asking them to continue their labors.

In 1965, Dorothy returned to Rome to take part in a fast expressing “our prayer and our hope” that the Council would issue “a clear statement, ‘Put away your sword.’” Dorothy saw the fast as a “widow’s mite” in support of the bishops’ efforts to speak with a pure voice to the modern world.

The fasters had reason to rejoice in December when the Constitution on the Church in the Modern World, Guadium et Spes, was approved by the bishops. The Council described as “a crime against God and humanity” any act of war “directed to the indiscriminate destruction of whole cities or vast areas with their inhabitants.” It was the Council’s one and only condemnation. The bishops called on states to make legal provision for conscientious objectors while describing as “criminal” those who obey commands which condemn the innocent and defenseless.

Acts of war causing “the indiscriminate destruction of … vast areas with their inhabitants” were the order of the day in regions of Vietnam under intense U.S. bombardment in 1965 and the years following. Many young Catholic Workers went to prison for refusing to cooperate with conscription, while others did alternative service. Nearly everyone in Catholic Worker communities took part in protests. Probably there has never been a newspaper so many of whose editors have been jailed for acts of conscience.

Dorothy lived long enough to see her achievements honored. In 1967, when she made her last visit to Rome to take part in the International Congress of the Laity, she found she was one of two Americans — the other an astronaut, Neil Armstrong — invited to receive communion from the hands of Pope Paul VI. On her 75th birthday the Jesuit magazine America devoted a special issue to her, finding in her the individual who best exemplified “the aspiration and action of the American Catholic community during the past forty years.”

Among those who came to visit her when she was no longer able to travel was Mother Teresa of Calcutta, who pinned on Dorothy’s dress the crucifix worn only by fully professed members of her order, the Missionary Sisters of Charity.

On the 29th of November, 1980, Dorothy died, a quiet death with her daughter Tamar at her side. She is buried at Resurrection Cemetery on Staten Island. The small grave stone bears her name, the dates of her birth and death, and two Latin words, Deo gratias — thanks be to God.

“If I have achieved anything in my life,” Dorothy once remarked, “it is because I have not been embarrassed to talk about God.”

She also said, “Those who cannot see Christ in the poor are atheists indeed.”

Now the question: Should Dorothy Day be officially recognized as a saint?

Long before her death, Dorothy found herself regarded by many as a saint. No words of hers are better known than her brusque response, “Don’t call me a saint — I don’t want to be dismissed so easily.” Nonetheless, having herself treasured the memory and witness of many saints, she is a now candidate for inclusion in the calendar of saints. Cardinal John O’Connor of the Archdiocese of New York initiated the effort in 1997, the hundredth anniversary of Dorothy’s birth.

A bishop who also member of the military for 27 years, who held the rank of rear admiral and had been chief chaplain of the U.S. Navy, might seem an unlikely candidate to seek the canonization of a woman who had spent much of her life encouraging people not to go to war. On the other hand, someone who has seen the reality of combat would not be last in line to appreciate Dorothy’s hatred of war. “No priest can watch the blood pouring from the wounds of the dying, be they American or Vietnamese of the North or South, without anguish and a sense of desperate frustration and futility,” O’Connor wrote. “The clergy back home, the academicians in their universities, the protesters on their marches are not the only ones who cry out, ‘Why?’”

In a homily given in Saint Patrick’s Cathedral, O’Connor described Dorothy as “a truly remarkable woman” who had combined a deep faith and love for the Church with a passionate commitment to serving the poor and to saving lives. He acknowledged that some might object to his taking up the cause of Dorothy Day because “she was a protester against some things that people confuse with Americanism itself,” but this was a view he completely rejected. Others, he said, might argue that she was already widely recognized as a living saint and therefore formal canonization is not needed. “Perhaps,” O’Connor said, “but why does the Church canonize saints? In part, so that their person, their works and their lives will become that much better known, and that they will encourage others to follow in their footsteps — and so the Church may say, ‘This is sanctity, this is the road to eternal life.’” Dorothy was, he said, someone who believed that a person is “a temple of God, sacred, made in the image and likeness of God, infinitely more important in its own way than any building…. To Dorothy Day, everyone was a cathedral.”

Noting that Dorothy had aborted her first child, O’Connor said, “I wish every woman who has ever suffered an abortion, including perhaps someone or several in this church, would come to know Dorothy Day. Her story was so typical. Made pregnant by a man who insisted she have an abortion, who then abandoned her anyway, she suffered terribly for what she had done, and later pleaded with others not to do the same. But later, too, after becoming a Catholic, she learned the love and mercy of the Lord, and knew she never had to worry about His forgiveness. This is why I have never condemned a woman who has had an abortion; I weep with her and ask her to remember Dorothy Day’s sorrow but to know always God’s loving mercy and forgiveness.”

Dorothy’s gratitude for the Church, despite every human shortcoming and sin, warranted O’Connor’s admiration. She was, he said, “a radical precisely because she was a believer, a believer and a practitioner. She, in fact, chided those who wanted to join her in her works of social justice, but who, in her judgment, didn’t take the Church seriously enough, and didn’t bother about getting to Mass.”

The canonization process has begun. The Vatican has already given Dorothy the title “Servant of God Dorothy Day.”

Whatever comes of the canonization effort, the Catholic Worker movement is alive and continues to grow. Each house of hospitality that identifies itself with the Catholic Worker movement — currently there are more than two hundred — might be regarded as a monument to Dorothy, though Dorothy herself would stress that they are first and foremost a response to the words of Christ: “What you did to the least, you did to me.”

There is also the more hidden testimony of the countless people who lead more hospitable and more peaceful lives, thanks in part to Dorothy Day.

Who could count them all?

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Meeting Thomas Merton Face-to-Page and Face-to-Face

Thomas Merton (photo by John Howard Griffin)
Thomas Merton (photo by John Howard Griffin)

a lecture given at Swansea University, Wales, 15 May 2013

by Jim Forest

Let’s start with a simple question: Who was Thomas Merton? I think it is accurate to say that he was the most widely read and best-known Christian monk of the 20th century. It was not a fate he intended. At age 26, when he began his monastic life, he thought he was choosing a path of radical invisibility, one aspect of which was his laying aside all his earlier aspirations as a writer. He had, after all, opted to belong to the most silent — many would say most medieval — of monastic brotherhoods, the Trappists, as the Order of Cistercians of the Strict Observance is best known. (Given that this lecture is being given in Wales, one other biographical fact to mention is that, via both his parents, he was partly Welsh. It was with his Welsh ancestors that Merton felt a special bond. In his book-length poem, The Geography of Lograire, he speaks of “Wales dark Wales … holy green Wales … father mother Wales.”)

I met Merton face-to-face only twice, first in 1962 and again in 1964, four years before his death. In fact the very first meeting was not face-to-face but face-to-page. I was an eighteen-year-old boy waiting for a bus in Manhattan’s Port Authority Bus Terminal. It was 1959 and I was on leave from my Navy posting at the U.S. Weather Bureau. Christmas was a few days away. I was en route to a monastery for a week-long stay. Until that moment, the closest I had come to monastic life was seeing a film called “The Nun’s Story” starring Audrey Hepburn. With a little time on my hands, I was browsing a carousel full of paperback books that was off to one side of the waiting room’s newsstand and discovered a book with an odd title, The Seven Storey Mountain, by Thomas Merton. The name meant nothing to me. It was, the jacket announced, “the autobiography of a young man who led a full and worldly life and then, at the age of 26, entered a Trappist monastery.” There was a quotation on the cover from Evelyn Waugh, who said this book “may well prove to be of permanent interest in the history of religious experience.” Another writer said this was the twentieth-century equivalent of Augustine’s Confessions.

It proved to be a can’t-put-it-down read for me, opening doors that I had never known existed. In the bus going up the Hudson Valley, I can recall occasionally looking up from the text to gaze out the window at the heavy snow that was falling that night. Merton’s story has ever since been linked in my mind with the silent ballet of snowflakes swirling under street lights.

Let me read to you the first sentences:

On the last day of January 1915, under the sign of the Water Bearer, in a year of a great war, and down in the shadow of some French mountains on the borders of Spain, I came into the world. Free by nature, in the image of God, I was nevertheless the prisoner of my own violence and selfishness, in the image of the world into which I was born. That world was the picture of Hell, full of men like myself, loving God and yet hating Him; born to love Him, living instead in fear and hopeless self-contradictory hungers. Not many hundreds of miles away from the house where I was born, they were picking up the men who rotted in rainy ditches among the dead horses … in a forest without branches along the river Marne.

It’s a remarkable opening, poetry as prose, with war a major theme. The leitmotif became still more intense in the last decade if his life, making him a man of controversy. In the Spring of 1962, Merton would be forbidden to write about war and peace.

In 1948, the year The Seven Storey Mountain was published, Merton was only 33. His book had been in the shops eleven years when, in its umpteenth printing, it found its way to my hands. And, eleven years on, he himself was in fact quite a different person than the Merton I envisioned on my first reading of his autobiography. The Thomas Merton I imagined had found his true home on the 10th of December 1941, the day he came to stay at the Abbey of Gethsemani, and was as firmly and peacefully rooted there as an oak tree in an ancient forest. He was that blessed man who finds not only faith but the place to live that faith, and though accidentally made famous by a book, was living happily in pre-Renaissance obscurity in rural Kentucky.

I would later discover that the actual Thomas Merton, far from being happily rooted, was in fact as engaged in the modern world as anyone alive and often longed to transplant himself to a poorer, simpler monastic environment. It wasn’t something he mentioned in The Seven Storey Mountain, but he had found sleeping in a crowded Trappist dormitory hard going and often found his monastery factory-like. He had dreams of becoming a hermit, but there was no tradition of solitary life in his order. Trappists lived an intensely communal existence.

In 1959 he made a major effort to get permission to move. His idea was to become a hermit associated with a poorer, more primitive monastery somewhere in Latin America, with Mexico the leading contender. On the 17th of December 1959, just a few days before I began reading The Seven Storey Mountain, he had been on his knees before the Blessed Sacrament opening a letter from Rome that told him, though his request was viewed with sympathy, permission could not be given for him to leave the Abbey of Gethsemani. “They were very sorry,” he noted in his journal later that day. “They wanted the right words to pour balm in certain wounds. But my departure would certainly upset too many people in the Order as well as outside it. They agreed with my superiors that I did not have an eremitical vocation. Therefore what they asked of me was to stay in the monastery where God had put me, and I would find interior solitude.” [The Intimate Merton, p 146] Two cardinals had signed the letter.

And yet the Merton I imagined was not altogether different than the actual Merton. One sees in his journal entry that he read the letter without anger, resentment or the temptation to disobey and walk out. He commented: “The letter was too obvious. It could only be accepted. My first reaction was one of relief that at last the problem had been settled.” He found himself surprised that he felt no disappointment but rather “only joy and emptiness and liberty.” He saw the letter as bearing news of God’s will, which more than anything else was what he was desperate to know. “I accept it fully,” he wrote. “So then what? Nothing. Trees, hills, rain. Prayer much lighter, much freer, more unconcerned. A mountain lifted off my shoulders — a Mexican mountain I myself had chosen.”

Yet even that day he felt the importance of replying to the letter, if only to explain what he understood the hermit’s vocation to be and what drew him in that direction. If he was not to be allowed to become a hermit at another monastery, then perhaps the day might come when there would be a place for solitaries within the Trappist context.

It was thanks to Dorothy Day, leader of the Catholic Worker movement, that I came in closer contact with Merton. I first met Dorothy a few days before Christmas in 1960, just a year after reading The Seven Storey Mountain. Once again I was on leave from my Navy job in Washington, D.C. My first few days were spent at Saint Joseph’s House of Hospitality in Manhattan, but one day I went to the Catholic Worker’s rural outpost on the southern tip of Staten Island, the Peter Maurin Farm. In the large, faded dining room of an old farmhouse, I found half a dozen people gathered around a pot of tea and a pile of mail at one end of a large table. Dorothy Day was reading letters aloud.

The only letter I still recall from that day’s reading was one from Thomas Merton. It amazed me that they were in correspondence. The Merton I had encountered in the pages of The Seven Storey Mountain had withdrawn from “the world” with a slam of the door that was heard around the world, while Dorothy Day was as much in the world as the mayor of New York. Also I recalled Merton’s description in his autobiography of the strict limits Trappists placed on correspondence. I had assumed he wrote to no one outside his family, of which he had practically none as his parents had died in his childhood and his only sibling, John Paul Merton, had been killed in combat in the Second World War. Yet here he was exchanging letters with one of America’s more controversial figures, a women who went to prison from time to time for acts of civil disobedience and who lived in community with people, truly the down-and-out, that most of us try to avoid.

Merton told Dorothy that he was deeply touched by her witness for peace. “You are right going along the lines of satyagraha [Gandhi’s term for nonviolent action; literally the power of truth]. I see no other way…. Nowadays it is no longer a question of who is right but who is at least not criminal …. It has never been more true than now that the world is lost in its own falsity and cannot see true values.”

In this letter, and many similar “Cold War letters” that Merton would write during the last decade of his life, one met a Merton who at first seemed quite different from the Merton of The Seven Storey Mountain, yet in fact the reader looking for a more socially engaged, war-resisting Merton will find much evidence of him in the autobiography.

It was in The Seven Storey Mountain, after all, that he explained why he had decided not to fight in World War II, though he was prepared to do noncombatant service as a medic. In a passage which must have startled many readers of the autobiography, appearing as it did just after the war, he explained:

[God] was not asking me to judge all the nations of the world, or to elucidate all the moral and political motives behind their actions. He was not demanding that I pass some critical decision defining the innocence and guilt of all those concerned in the war. He was asking me to make a choice that amounted to an act of love for His truth, His goodness, His charity, His Gospel…. He was asking me to do, to the best of my knowledge, what I thought Christ would do…. After all, Christ did say, “Whatsoever you have done to the least of these my brethren, you did it to me.” [SSM, 311-12]

In the same book, Merton had recorded the experience of being a volunteer at a house of hospitality on 135th Street and Lenox Avenue in Harlem in the months that preceded his choosing the monastic life. He described Harlem as a

divine indictment against New York City and the people who live downtown and make their money downtown.… Here in this huge, dark, steaming slum, hundreds of thousands of Negroes are herded together like cattle, most of them with little to eat and nothing to do. All the senses and imagination and sensibilities and emotions and sorrows and desires and hopes and ideas of a race with vivid feelings and deep emotional reactions are forced in upon themselves, bound inward by an iron ring of frustration: the prejudice that hems them in with its four insurmountable walls. In this huge cauldron of inestimable natural gifts, wisdom, love, music, science, poetry, are stamped down and left to boil … and thousands upon thousands of souls are destroyed. [SSM, 345]

It’s an easy leap from these sentences to his essays about racism written in sixties.

Anguish and rage warm many pages in The Seven Storey Mountain. The distress with structures of violence and social cruelty that is a major theme of his later writings is quite evident in the younger Merton. If there is a difference in later life, it is simply that the older Merton no longer regarded monastic life as a straighter path to heaven. Rather he saw it as a place to which some are called, but in no way a “higher” vocation than any other state in life to which God calls His children. The question is thus not to seek a “best” vocation but rather to seek God’s will, living a Gospel-shaped life in the particular context of one’s own temperament and circumstances. The challenge God gives each of us is not to become a monk but rather to become a saint.

Partly thanks to Merton but mainly thanks to the New Testament, I became a conscientious objector. After receiving an early discharge from the Navy in the early Summer of 1961, I joined the Catholic Worker community in New York City that Dorothy Day had founded in 1933. I thought it might be a stopping point on the way to a monastery.

Dorothy knew of my interest in Merton’s books and the attraction I felt for monastic life. She shared Merton’s letters with me. Then one day she gave me a letter of his to answer — an astonishing request. Merton had sent her a poem, “Chant to Be Used Around a Site for Furnaces,” written in the voice of Rudolf Höss, commandant of Auschwitz, where after the war he was executed by hanging next to the camp’s one surviving gas chamber. Here are the poem’s final lines:

All the while I had obeyed perfectly

So I was hanged in a commanding position with a full view of the site plant and grounds

You smile at my career but you would do as I did if you knew yourself and dared.

In his letter to Dorothy, Merton described writing the poem as “gruesome” work. I wrote to tell Merton of our appreciation of the poem and our plans to publish it in the upcoming issue. It would serve, I said, as The Catholic Worker’s response to the Eichmann trial then going on in Jerusalem.

Not many days later I had a response from Merton. I could not have felt more elated had I received the map revealing the location of pirate gold. In that letter he noted that we live in a time of war and need “to shut up and be humble and stay put and trust in God and hope for a peace that we can use for the good of our souls.”

Though I didn’t fully realize it at the time, that single sentence revealed a great deal about the long-term struggles in which Merton was engaged. I thought what he said was aimed at me (how apt the advice was), but, as was so often the case in his letters, he was addressing himself as well. He had enormous difficulty shutting up, feared he was lacking in humility, and often resisted staying put.

In December 1961, Merton suggested that perhaps I would like to come to the monastery for a visit. There was never any question in my mind about accepting though first there was an issue of The Catholic Worker to get out (I had become the paper’s managing editor). I was able to leave for Kentucky in late-January 1962.

I had no money for such a journey — in the Catholic Worker community one received room and board plus, on request, small change for minor expenses, subway rides and the like. In my own case I never dared ask even for a penny, preferring to sell The Catholic Worker on street corners in Greenwich Village, keeping a small portion of the proceeds for my incidental expenses and giving the rest to the community.

A companion on the Catholic Worker staff, Bob Kaye, joined me. With our nearly empty wallets, we traveled by thumb. Before sunrise one icy morning we loaded up on Italian bread still warm from the oven of the Spring Street bakery and set off. I can still recall standing in nighttime sleet at the side of a highway somewhere in Pennsylvania watching cars and trucks rush past, many of them with colorful plastic statues of an open-armed Jesus of the Sacred Heart on the dashboard. This image of Christ’s hospitality seemed to have little influence on the drivers. It took us two exhausting days to travel the thousand miles to the Abbey of Gethsemani.

But at last we reached the monastery. After the Guest Master showed us our rooms, my first stop was the monastery church. There was a balcony in the church that was connected to the guest house. Surviving such a trip, a prayer of thanksgiving came easily, but my prayer was cut short by the sound of distant laughter so intense and pervasive that I couldn’t resist looking for its source. I hadn’t expected laughter at a penitential Trappist monastery.

The origin, I discovered, was Bob Kaye’s room. As I opened the door the laughter was still going on, a kind of gale of joy. The major source was the red-faced man lying on the floor. He was wearing black-and-white Trappist robes and a broad leather belt, his knees in the air, hands clutching his belly. Though the monk was more well-fed than the fast-chastened Trappist monk I had imagined, I realized instantly that the man on the floor laughing was Thomas Merton. His face reminded me of photos of Pablo Picasso. And the inspiration for the laughter? It proved to be the dense smell of feet kept in shoes all the way from the Lower East Side to Gethsemani — the perfume of the Catholic Worker.

After that week-long stay at Gethsemani, The Seven Storey Mountain became a different book. Having discovered that Merton was capable of hurricanes of laughter, I realized his humor was often on display in his writing, if only one could allow one’s ears to hear it. I also learned that he was far from the only monk who knew how to laugh, though none exhibited the trait with such abandon as Merton.

The abbot, Dom James, though a most hospitable man, was not initially quite so positive about a visitation of young Catholic Workers. In those days most American men had frequent haircuts, but haircuts seemed to Bob and me a massive waste of money. The day after our arrival Merton apologetically explained that our shaggy hair did not please the abbot. If we were to stay on at the abbey, we must have our hair trimmed. A little while later I was sitting in a chair in the basement room where the novices changed into their work clothes; the room also served as a kind of barber shop. While the novices stood in a circle laughing, my hair fell to the concrete floor. Going from one extreme to the other, I was suddenly as bald as Humpty Dumpty

Soon after the haircut Merton took me to the abbot’s office. I can no longer recall what we talked about — perhaps about Dorothy Day and community life at the Catholic Worker — but I will never forget the solemn blessing Dom James gave me at the end of our conversation. I knelt on the floor near his desk while he gripped my skull with intensity while praying over me. His fingerprints may still be there. There was no doubt in my mind I had been seriously blessed. I have ever since had a warm spot in my heart for Dom James, a man who has occasionally been turned into a Darth Vader figure by Merton biographers. Doesn’t every good guy need a bad guy? There is no Robin Hood without the Sheriff of Nottingham.

I recall another monk at the monastery who had much less sympathy for me and still less, it seemed, for Merton — or Father Louis, as Merton was known within the community. This was the abbey’s other noted author, Father Raymond Flanagan, whose books were well known to devout Catholics at the time though they had never reached the broad audience Merton’s books had. Merton and I were walking down a corridor that linked the guest-house kitchen to the basement of the cellar of the main monastery building. There was a point in the corridor where it made a left turn and standing there, next to a large garbage container, was Father Raymond holding a copy of the latest Catholic Worker. Father Raymond was not so much reading as glaring at the paper, which he held open at arm’s length as if it had an unpleasant smell. There was an article of Merton’s in it, one of his essays about the urgency of taking steps to prevent nuclear war. Father Raymond looked up, saw us coming his way, balled the paper up in his fist, hurled into the garbage container, and strode away, leaving a trail of smoke.

Merton’s response was laughter. Then he explained that Father Raymond had never had a high opinion of Merton’s writings and often denounced him at the community’s chapter meetings. “In the early days Father Raymond said I was too detached from the world, and now he thinks I’m not detached enough.” Merton laughed once again.

During that visit I had my first glimpse of Merton’s openness to non-Catholics and, more surprising, to non-Christians. The first evening I was there, there was a hurried knock on the door of my room. Merton was standing there en route to Vespers. He wanted me to have the pile of papers in his hands, a collection of Jewish Hasidic stories that a rabbi had left with him a few days before. “Read these — these are great!” And off he hurried to Vespers without further explanation, leaving me with a collection of amazing tales of Hasidic rabbis in Poland generations before the Holocaust.

I recall another evening a day or two later when Merton was not in a hurry. He was in good time for Vespers and already had on the white woolen choir robe the monks wore during winter months while in church. It was an impressive garment, all the more so at close range. I reached out to feel it thickness and density. In a flash Merton slid out of it and placed it over my head. I was astonished at how heavy it was! Once again, Merton laughed. The robe met a practical need, he explained. It was hardly warmer within the church than it was outside. If you wore only the black and white garments that were standard Trappist attire, you would freeze to death.

The guest master, a monk named Father Francis, knew I was at the monastery at Merton’s invitation and thought I might be able to answer a question which puzzled him and no doubt many of the monks: “How did Father Louis write all those books?” I had no idea, but I got a glimpse of an answer before my stay was over. A friend had sent a letter to Merton in my care. In it he urged Merton to leave the monastery and do something “more relevant,” such as join a Catholic Worker community. (Over the years Merton received quite a few letters telling him that he was in the wrong place, that being a monk was not in fact — at least in the context of the times — a Christian vocation.) What is especially memorable to me about this particular letter was the experience of watching Merton write. He had a small office just outside the classroom where he taught the novices. On his desk was a large grey typewriter. He inserted a piece of monastery stationery and wrote a reply at what seemed to me the speed of light. I had never seen anyone write so quickly. Even in the newsroom of a city newspaper one rarely sees writing at a similar pace.

I wish I had made a copy of his response. I recall that he readily admitted that there was much to reform in monasteries and that monastic life was not a vocation to which God often called His children, yet he gave an explanation of why he thought the monastic life was nonetheless an authentic Christian vocation and how crucial it was for him to remain faithful to what God had called him to. It was a very solid, carefully-reasoned letter filling one side of a sheet of paper and was written in just a few minutes.

When I first met Merton, more than two years had passed since the Vatican’s denial of his request to move to another monastery where he might live in greater solitude. In 1960 plans were made for the construction of a small cinder block building — in principle a conference center where Merton could meet with non-Catholic visitors, but Merton called it his hermitage — on the edge of the woods about a mile from the monastery. By December it was ready for use. There was a small bedroom behind the main room. Merton occasionally had permission to stay overnight, but it would not be until the summer of 1965, four years later, that it became his full-time home. At that point he became the first Trappist hermit of modern times.

By the time I came to visit the hermitage already had a lived-in look. It was winter so there was no sitting on the porch. We were inside, regularly adding wood to the blaze in the fireplace. A Japanese calendar was on the wall with a Zen brush drawing for every month of the year, also one of his friend Ad Reinhart’s black-on-black paintings. Of course there was a bookcase and, next to it, a long table that served as a desk placed on the inside of the hermitage’s one large window. There was a view of fields and hills. A large timber cross had been erected on the lawn. On the table was a sleek Swiss-made Hermes typewriter. Off to one side of the hermitage was an outhouse that Merton shared with a black snake.

The week at the abbey ended abruptly. A telegram for me came from New York with the news that President Kennedy had announced the resumption of atmospheric testing of nuclear weapons, thus another escalation of the Cold War and yet another indication that nuclear war might occur in the coming years. Anticipating such a decision, I was part of a group of New Yorkers who had planned to take part in an act of civil disobedience, a sit-in at the entrance to the Manhattan office of the Atomic Energy Commission, the federal agency then responsible for making and testing nuclear weapons. The abbey provided money for our return to New York by bus rather than thumb. Not many days later, now with a slight stubble of hair, I was in a New York City jail known locally as “The Tombs.” (My monastic haircut made me interesting enough to be featured on the front page of one of New York’s daily newspapers the following morning.)

Merton had a part even in that event. A letter from him, sent care of the Catholic Worker, was hand delivered to me during the hour or two that we sat on the chilly pavement awaiting arrest. “I am with you in spirit,” he commented, adding that ordinary people, “the ones who get it in the neck,” certainly don’t want war, yet ironically feel threatened by protests which oppose making weapons of mass destruction and preparations for war. “They do not feel threatened by the bomb,” he went on, “but they feel terribly threatened by some … student carrying a [peace] placard.” He said he would be offering Mass for “all those who are willing to shoulder the great burden of patiently working, praying and sacrificing themselves for peace.”

I was to meet with Merton face-to-face only one more time. The next occasion was a small retreat of about ten peace activists at the monastery on the spiritual roots of protest in November 1964. On Merton’s part, there was still laughter, but less of it. I remember him best in those days not in his hermitage, though he was actively engaged with the group at every session, but rather walking alone outside the hermitage, pacing back and forth in a state of contemplative absorption so compelling that it brought home to me the gravity of what we were about more than any spoken word.

“By what right do we protest? Against whom or what? For what? How? Why?” These are questions Merton raised and which still haunt me. The whole retreat was more a questioning than an answering experience. Merton impressed on us that protest, however necessary, is a dangerous calling. If it lacks sufficient spiritual maturity, protest can make things even worse.

Part of our discussion was to consider the trajectory of technology in the modern world, technology’s implied credo being summed up in a few apocalyptic words: “If it can be done, it must be done.” In the context of technology, whether on its battlefields or in its almost monastically-sheltered laboratories, the human being, far from being a little less than the angels, is merely a “bio-chemical link” serving as a shaky bridge between the solid-circuit perfection of cybernetic systems and conscience-free computers.

By way of counter-point to man as “bio-chemical link,” we repeatedly turned our attention to a man who was executed in Berlin on August 9, 1943 — Franz Jägerstätter, an Austrian Catholic peasant farmer with modest education and a wife and three young daughters to worry about who, despite strong opposition from his pastor and bishop, refused military service in Hitler’s armies. In 2007 he was beatified, but in those days had not yet been assigned a halo. Uncanonized though he was, he impressed us as a saint for our time. We were struck by this isolated peasant’s ability to see clearly what bishops and theologians in the Nazi era didn’t dare see, still less proclaim. We had every reason to expect the same lack of moral leadership from our own Church leadership as the Vietnam War began to unfold. In the years that followed, those of us participating in the retreat all played a significant role in opposing the war in southeast Asia and helped encourage widespread conscientious objection. We dared to envision a Church that would put its weight behind those who refused to wage war and who refused to reduce human being to “bio-chemical links.” “If the Church,” said Merton, “could make its teachings alive to the laity, future Franz Jägerstätters would no longer be in solitude but would be the Church as a whole reasserting the primacy of the spiritual.”

My main contact with Merton was through correspondence. From the end of 1961 until his death seven years later, on average there was a letter or note from him nearly every month. His side of the exchange takes up about fifty pages of a book of Merton’s letters with the title The Hidden Ground of Love. There were also many envelopes containing copies of essays he had written and book-length works such as the manuscripts of Peace in the Post-Christian Era and Cold War Letters, the latter two published only in recent years.

Looking back, I realize Merton became for me what in the Orthodox Church we call a “spiritual father” — someone to whom you open your soul and who in turn can help you stay on the path of the Gospel and help you find your way back to that path when you stray, as I certainly did time and again. If I had understood spiritual fatherhood better, perhaps I would have made better use of his readiness to help me see the way forward and would have made fewer false steps, but even so it was an extraordinarily fruitful relationship.

To give you an example of his guidance, let me share with you a letter he sent me in 1966. The Vietnam War was getting worse by the day and I felt overwhelmed by the failure of all our efforts to end it. Here is what Merton had to say:

Do not depend on the hope of results. When you are doing the sort of work you have taken on, essentially an apostolic work, you may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself. And there too a great deal has to be gone through, as gradually you struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people. The range tends to narrow down, but it gets much more real. In the end, it is the reality of personal relationships that saves everything.

You are fed up with words, and I don’t blame you. I am nauseated by them sometimes. I am also, to tell the truth, nauseated by ideals and with causes. This sounds like heresy, but I think you will understand what I mean. It is so easy to get engrossed with ideas and slogans and myths that in the end one is left holding the bag, empty, with no trace of meaning left in it. And then the temptation is to yell louder than ever in order to make the meaning be there again by magic. Going through this kind of reaction helps you to guard against this. Your system is complaining of too much verbalizing, and it is right…

The big results are not in your hands or mine, but they suddenly happen, and we can share in them; but there is no point in building our lives on this personal satisfaction, which may be denied us and which after all is not that important.

The next step in the process is for you to see that your own thinking about what you are doing is crucially important. You are probably striving to build yourself an identity in your work, out of your work and your witness. You are using it, so to speak, to protect yourself against nothingness, annihilation. That is not the right use of your work. All the good that you will do will come not from you but from the fact that you have allowed yourself, in the obedience of faith, to be used by God’s love. Think of this more, and gradually you will be free from the need to prove yourself, and you can be more open to the power that will work through you without your knowing it.

The great thing after all is to live, not to pour out your life in the service of a myth: and we turn the best things into myths. If you can get free from the domination of causes and just serve Christ’s truth, you will be able to do more and will be less crushed by the inevitable disappointments. Because I see nothing whatever in sight but much disappointment, frustration, and confusion….

The real hope, then, is not in something we think we can do, but in God who is making something good out of it in some way we cannot see. If we can do His will, we will be helping in this process. But we will not necessarily know all about it beforehand….

Enough of this … it is at least a gesture…. I will keep you in my prayers.

What keeps Merton so fresh all these years after his death? Why is he still such a helpful presence in so many lives?

In Thomas Merton we meet a man who spent the greater part of his life trying with all his being to find the truth and to live a truthful life. Though he chose a celibate vocation in an enclosed monastic environment in which sign language was used far more than words, he nonetheless had a voice which reached far beyond the abbey’s borders. With tremendous candor, he exposed through his writings his own struggles and the fact that he was like the rest of us, often wracked with uncertainties and no stranger to the temptations each of us faces. At a time when there was little inter-religious contact, he challenged his readers to seek God not only within their particular community but across national as well as cultural and religious borders. He did this while giving an example of how one could at the same time remain deeply rooted in Christian belief and faith. He was a man of dialogue, as we see in the hundreds of letters he wrote to an astonishing variety of people in all parts of the world, from Boris Pasternak in Soviet Russia, to T.D. Suzuki, the Japanese Zen master.

We also see in him one of the healers of Christian divisions. He did this not by renouncing anything a Catholic Christian would normally believe, but by allowing himself to become aware of anything of value in other parts of the Christian community, whether something as big and deeply rooted as the Orthodox Church or as small as the Shaker movement whose craftsmen made chairs “fit for angels to sit on.”

We see in him a pilgrim. As pilgrims tend to do, he crossed many borders, but the greater part of that journey was lived in a thinly-populated corner of Kentucky. During his 27 years as a monk of the Abbey of Gethsemani, he rarely traveled further than Louisville. For all his temptations to move elsewhere, he remained a member of his particular monastic community from the day he arrived until his dying day. He is a model of uncomfortable stability. His pilgrimage was one that rarely required hiking boots.

Merton gives us a model of someone with an unshakable love not only of Christ but of Christ’s mother and grandmother. Whenever he had a building in need of a dedication, such as his hermitage or other shelters of solitude, it was either to Mary or Anne. In the communion of saints, these two were his permanent patrons. Everything he did or represents is rooted, in part, in his devotion to them.

Sometimes I am asked: Is Thomas Merton a saint? Merton, who wrote unflinchingly  about his sins and failures, would of course say no. No saint sees a halo in the mirror. If you define “saint” as a perfect person, Merton doesn’t qualify, but then by that standard no saint but Mary would be on the church calendar. One must emulate even the holiest life with caution — one can go to hell imitating the sins of the saints. Yet I think the answer is yes. Few people have done so much to help so many find their way toward Christ and a deeper faith. Few people have drawn so many toward the mercy of God.

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Pope John XXIII, Thomas Merton and the Second Vatican Council’s Message of Peace

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Pope John XXIII

(lecture to Dutch Catholic military chaplains / 25 April 2013 / Zin Conference Center, Vught, The Netherlands)

By Jim Forest

The publication of papal encyclicals is normally of interest only to Roman Catholics. Secular journalists as well as those in other churches pay little attention. But Pope John XXIII’s encyclical, Pacem in Terris, signed fifty years ago this month, was a dramatic exception. Its release was front-page news, stirring up discussion and debate around the world. Many newspapers published extensive excerpts and some published the full text. Before long major conferences centering on Pacem in Terris were organized in many countries. Pope John was seen as having provided, as more than one commentator put it, “a bill of rights and obligations for the human race.”

Such unprecedented reception was due in part to this being the first encyclical addressed not only to Church members but to “all people of good will.” Here was a pope who, in the last months of his life, made an appeal for peace and did so at a time when millions of people were aware that they would more likely die of nuclear war than of illness or old age. It is fair to say that Pacem in Terris helped prevent a cataclysmic third world war, though it is still the case that such a war remains possible.

The primary human right, Pope John pointed out, the right without which no other right has any meaning, is the right to life. As no human activity so undermines the right to life as war, peacemaking is among the very highest and most urgent human callings. More than ever we can appreciate Christ saying “Blessed are the peacemakers … they shall be called children of God.”

In the context of peacemaking, it is not surprising that one of Pope John’s major themes in his encyclical was conscience. “[T]he world’s Creator,” he said in the opening section, “has stamped man’s inmost being with an order revealed to man by his conscience; and his conscience insists on his preserving it.” Quoting from St Paul’s letter to the Church in Rome, he added, “Human beings ‘show the work of the law written in their hearts. Their conscience bears witness to them.’” (Rom 2:15)

The pope went on to declare that conscience could not be coerced either in religious matters or the relationship of the person to the state. “Hence,” he wrote, “a regime which governs solely or mainly by means of threats and intimidation or promises of reward, provides men with no effective incentive to work for the common good.”

“Authority,” John continued, “is before all else a moral force. For this reason the appeal of rulers should be to the individual conscience, to the duty which every man has of voluntarily contributing to the common good. But since all men are equal in natural dignity, no one has the capacity to force internal compliance on another. Only God can do that, for He alone scrutinizes and judges the secret counsels of the heart. Hence, representatives of the State have no power to bind men in conscience, unless their own authority is tied to God’s authority, and is a participation in it.” [48, 49]

In case the reader missed the implications, Pope John pointed out that laws which violate the moral order have no legitimacy and do not merit our obedience: “Governmental authority … is a postulate of the moral order and derives from God. Consequently, laws and decrees passed in contravention of the moral order, and hence of the divine will, can have no binding force in conscience, since ‘it is right to obey God rather than men.’ … A law which is at variance with reason is to that extent unjust and has no longer the rationale of law. It is rather an act of violence. … Thus any government which refused to recognize human rights or acted in violation of them, would not only fail in its duty; its decrees would be wholly lacking in binding force.” [51, 61]

The time is urgent, John noted. All of us are living “in the grip of constant fear …. afraid that at any moment the impending storm may break upon them with horrific violence. And they have good reasons for their fear, for there is certainly no lack of … weapons [of mass destruction]. While it is difficult to believe that anyone would dare to assume responsibility for initiating the appalling slaughter and destruction that [nuclear] war would bring in its wake, there is no denying that the conflagration could be started by some chance and unforeseen circumstance.” [111]

Pope John gave particular attention to dangers posed by weapons of mass destruction, declaring that, in this context, it is absurd to regard war as just: “People nowadays are becoming more and more convinced that any disputes which may arise between nations must be resolved by negotiation and agreement, and not by recourse to arms…. [T]his conviction owes its origin chiefly to the terrifying destructive force of modern weapons. It arises from fear of the ghastly and catastrophic consequences of their use. Thus, in this age of ours which prides itself on atomic power, it is irrational to believe that war is still an apt means of vindicating violated rights.”

Pacem in Terris can be seen as an urgent appeal to governments, on the one hand, to work toward nuclear disarmament and to individuals, on the other, not to obey orders which would make the person an accomplice to so great a sin as wars in which the innocent are the principal victims.

It was also Pope John who had, early in his pontificate, and to the astonishment of many members of the College of Cardinals, launched the Second Vatican Council. He did so in the hope that such a work of renewal would, as he put it, “restore the simple and pure lines that the face of the Church of Jesus had at its birth.”

The fourth and last session of the Council in 1965, which John did not live to see, took up the challenge of Pacem in Terris, developing and expanding many of its themes in Gaudium et Spes, the Latin words for “joy and hope” with which the Pastoral Constitution on the Church in Modern World begins. Its publication on the 7th of December 1965 by Pope Paul VI was the Council’s final action. But work on this text — known in its drafting stages as Schema 13 — was far from easy. In fact, commented Fr. Francis X. Murphy (writing as Xavier Rynne), “no other conciliar document had gone through so many stages before reaching its final form.” Cardinal Fernando Cento remarked that “no other [Council] document had aroused so much interest and raised so many hopes.” [The Third Session, p 116,117]

One of the significant achievements of the Council is the definition of conscience contained in Gaudium et Spes:

“In the depths of his conscience, man detects a law which he does not impose upon himself, but which holds him to obedience. Always summoning him to love good and avoid evil, the voice of conscience when necessary speaks to his heart more specifically: do this, shun that. For man has in his heart a law written by God; to obey it is the very dignity of man; according to it he will be judged. Conscience is the most secret core and sanctuary of man. There he is alone with God whose voice echoes in his depths. In a wonderful manner conscience reveals that law which is fulfilled by love of God and neighbor. In fidelity to conscience, Christians are joined with the rest of men in the search for truth, and for the genuine solution of the numerous problems which arise in the lives of individuals and from social relationships. Hence, the more right conscience holds sway, the more persons and groups turn aside from blind choice and strive to be guided by objective norms of morality. Conscience frequently errs from individual ignorance without losing its dignity. The same cannot be said for a man who cares little for truth and goodness, or for conscience which by degrees grows practically sightless as a result of habitual sin.” (section 16)

It follows that conscientious objection to participation in war ought to be universally recognized. Gaudium et Spes endorsed that objective in this passage: “It seems right that laws make humane provision for the case of those who for reasons of conscience refuse to bear arms, provided however, that they agree to serve the human community in some other way. (section 79.2)

The treatment of conscience marked a major turning point in Catholic teaching. Even during World War II, Catholics in every country had been told to obey their rulers and assured them that, were they made party to a sin by their obedience, that blame would lie with the rulers rather than with their subjects.

Gaudium et Spes also contains a solemn condemnation, one of the few expressed in texts issued by the Second Vatican Council:

“Every act of war directed to the indiscriminate destruction of whole cities or vast areas with their inhabitants is a crime against God and humanity, which merits firm and unequivocal condemnation.”

Those who renounce violence altogether, seeking a more just and compassionate society by nonviolent means, were praised:

“We cannot fail to praise those who renounce the use of violence in vindication of their rights and who resort to methods of defense which are otherwise available to weaker parties too, provided this can be done without injury to the rights and duties of others or to the community itself.”

Those who, in the name of obedience, obey commands which condemn the innocent and defenseless to death were described as “criminal” while the courage of those who disobey commands to participate in genocidal actions were described as meriting “supreme commendation.”

I am not aware of any book about what went on behind the scenes as Schema 13 was being drafted and debated — it would be a valuable history — but I know some aspects of the story. Given the limits of times, let me draw your attention to just one of these.

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Thomas Merton (photo by John Howard Griffin)

The first draft of Schema 13 was in circulation well over a year before, after intensive discussion and many revisions, the final text was approved by the bishops and signed by Pope Paul. During those months, not only bishops and theologians present in Rome were engaged in the debate but others in distant parts of the world, including Thomas Merton, a Trappist monk living at the Abbey of Gethsemani in rural Kentucky in the United States and one of the most widely read Catholic authors of the twentieth century.

Beginning with his autobiography, The Seven Storey Mountain, published in 1948, Merton’s books had found a vast number of readers around the world, including both John XXIII and Paul VI. It was during John XXIII’s years as pope that Merton’s concern with war, peacemaking and conscience became major themes for him. His first essay on these topics, entitled “The Root of War is Fear,” was published in The Catholic Worker in October 1961, a year before the first session of the Council.

In his essay Merton wrote about the problem of “war-madness” in which the USA and the Soviet Union were in a state of constant readiness to fight a nuclear war in which many millions of people would die and much of civilization and human culture be destroyed.

“What,” Merton asked, “is the place of the Christian in all this? Is he simply to fold his hands and resign himself for the worst, accepting it as the inescapable will of God and preparing himself to enter heaven with a sigh of relief? Should he open up the Apocalypse and run into the street to give everyone his idea of what is happening? Or, worse still should he take a hard-headed and ‘practical’ attitude about it and join in the madness of the war makers, calculating how, by a ‘first strike’ the glorious Christian West can eliminate atheistic Communism for all time and usher in the millennium? I am no prophet and seer but it seems to me that this last position may very well be the most diabolical of illusions, the great and not even subtle temptation of a Christianity that has grown rich and comfortable, and is satisfied with its riches.

“What are we to do? The duty of the Christian in this crisis is to strive with all his power and intelligence, with his faith, his hope in Christ, and love for God and man, to do the one task which God has imposed upon us in the world today. That task is to work for the total abolition of war. There can be no question that unless war is abolished the world will remain constantly in a state of madness and desperation in which, because of the immense destructive power of modern weapons, the danger of catastrophe will be imminent and probable at every moment everywhere. Unless we set ourselves immediately to this task, both as individuals and in our political and religious groups, we tend by our very passivity and fatalism to cooperate with the destructive forces that are leading inexorably to war. It is a problem of terrifying complexity and magnitude, for which the Church itself is not fully able to see clear and decisive solutions. Yet she must lead the way on the road to the nonviolent settlement of difficulties and toward the gradual abolition of war as the way of settling international or civil disputes. Christians must become active in every possible way, mobilizing all their resources for the fight against war.”

Merton went on to advocate that nonviolent methods of conflict resolution, so often ignored or ridiculed, needed “to be explained as a practical method.” Also needed were the use of traditional spiritual weapons; prayer and ascetic sacrifice “must be used … in the war against war, and like all weapons … must be used with deliberate aim: not just with a vague aspiration for peace and security, but against violence and war.” Also needed was the witness of personal nonviolence — a willingness “to sacrifice and restrain our own instinct for violence and aggressiveness in our relations with other people.” Not at all an optimist, Merton added that “we may never succeed in [our campaign against war] but whether we succeed or not, the duty is evident.”

More essays quickly followed. At the same time Merton was at work on a book, Peace in the Post-Christian Era. During that period Merton found himself under severe criticism from various members of the Church, including several fellow monks. His anti-war writings, it was said, were totally inappropriate for a monk. In April 1962, the order’s Abbot General in Rome, Dom Gabriel Sortais, siding with the critics, ordered Merton to stop writing on war and peace and banned publication of the book he had just finished drafting, though later the order was modified in such a way that copies of the book were privately printed in a mimeographed edition by Merton’s monastery. In December 1962 Merton sent copies of the book pus a selection of his other war-peace writings to Hildegard and Jean Goss-Mayr, co-secretaries of the International Fellowship of Reconciliation. The couple had received permission from the Trappist Abbot General to circulate Merton’s peace essays among the bishops and theologians at work on Schema 13.

One of those quite attentive to Merton’s writings was John XXIII. Merton had begun writing to the pope just two weeks after his election in 1958. In a remarkable gesture, in April 1960, the Pope had shown his personal respect and affection for Merton by sending him, care of a Venetian friend, one of his papal stoles. (It can be seen at the Thomas Merton Center, located at Bellarmine University in Louisville, Kentucky.)

One of Merton’s letters to John XXIII may have been a factor in the pope’s decision to write Pacem in Terris. Writing to the Pope in November 1961, Merton spoke of the “grave threat” of nuclear war. The “lack of understanding, ignorance and violent and subtle propaganda … conspire together to create a very unsettling mood in the United States” with the result that “many hate communist Russia with a hatred that implies the readiness to destroy this nation.” War and preparation for war had now become so embedded in the economy that, for many people, disarmament would cause financial ruin. “Sad to say,” Merton continued, “American Catholics are among the most war-like, intransigent and violent.” Monsignor Loris Capovilla, the Pope’s private secretary, later noted that John XXIII was especially impressed by the letter. [The Hidden Ground of Love, p 486]

After John’s death, Merton began an equally substantial correspondence with his successor, Paul VI. One of the papers Merton sent to Paul VI was a copy of an open letter on Schema 13 that Merton had addressed to members of the American hierarchy. It was written in the summer of 1965, just before the final session of the Council began.

In his letter Merton urged the American bishops to embrace the opportunity provided by Schema 13 to challenge widespread belief in “the primacy of power and of violence.”

“We must,” he stated, “be resolutely convinced that this is one area in which the Church is bound not only to disagree with ‘the world’ in the most forceful terms, but intervene as a providentially designated force for peace and reconciliation. We must clearly recognize that the Church remains perhaps the most effective single voice speaking for peace in the world today. That voice must not be silenced or made ineffective by any ambiguity born of political and pragmatic considerations on the part of national groups.”

Merton reminded his readers that in time of war “the average citizen” feels he “has no choice but to support his government and bear arms if called upon to do so,” as the was seen in World War II with the non-resisting participation of German Catholics “in a war effort that has since revealed itself to have been a monstrously criminal and unjust aggression.” He also noted that, even on the side fighting Hitler’s armies, “those who defended their nations in a manifestly just resistance … eventually found themselves unknowingly cooperating in acts of total, indiscriminate and calculatedly terroristic destruction which Christian morality cannot tolerate.”

Had we time we could take a much closer look at Merton’s appeal and its contribution to the final content of Schema 13. It is enough, on this occasion, simply to note that what he hoped the Council participants would declare about war and conscience was in fact said and said clearly. Of the nearly 2,400 bishops present for the Council’s last session, there was overwhelming support for Gaudium et Spes — only 75 votes were cast against it.

It is fair to say that, between publication of Pacem in Terris and Gaudium et Spes, the Roman Catholic Church crossed a border. It could no longer be presumed that obedience to national leaders would be the automatic response of faithful Catholics, a fact that helps explain widespread Catholic resistance to war in subsequent years and also that fact that the largest number of conscientious objectors to the Vietnam War were Roman Catholics.

The challenge of Pacem in Terris and Gaudium et Spes remains with us.

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Jim Forest
www.jimandnancyforest.com
[email protected]

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Barbara Mooyaart-Doubleday and Susan Massotty: Translating the Anne Frank Diary

Anne_Frankby Nancy Forest-Flier

On October 1, 1995 the small lecture hall at Smit’s Hotel in Utrecht was packed with members of the Society of English Native Speaking Editors (SENSE) and friends eager to hear a talk and discussion led by Mrs. Barbara Mooyaart-Doubleday and Susan Massotty, the two English-language translators of The Diary of Anne Frank. Two members of the Anne Frank House staff, Dieneke Stam and Yt Stoker, joined us and brought several copies of both translations as well as related material published by the Anne Frank Stichting. Also present was David Barnouw of the Rijksinstituut voor Oorlogsdocumentatie, one of the editors of the Critical Edition of the Diary, who later also made a short presentation.

In her introduction, SENSE Programme Director Jean Vaughan mentioned that Mrs. Mooyaart had recently been awarded an honorary doctorate from Hofstra University in the United States for her great achievement, a translation made in 1952 which has been used as the basis for all other translations of the Diary except the French and the German editions.

It was a daunting task. Mrs. Mooyaart told us the story of how she got the job — a young woman and the mother of very young children, only recently moved to the Netherlands where the wounds from the war were still fresh. She is a member of a generation that frequently kept its daughters out of university and out of the workplace, and she accomplished the amazing feat of translating a difficult work at her dining room table with a pen and paper, a couple of simple dictionaries, and a four-month deadline while her sons were taking their naps. And all for the princely sum of 100 pounds.

But it was these apparent drawbacks that ended up working in her favour. The publisher of the book, Valentine Mitchell, had been having trouble finding a translator who was both proficient and youthful. In Mrs. Mooyaart they found someone who combined everything they were looking for: a female (and a young one at that) whose lively, fresh style, they explained, had not been deadened by the “university experience”. In addition, she was a native speaker living in the country where Anne Frank had kept her diary. It was only a few years after the book had been written, so the special wartime vocabulary was quite familiar to her. And most important, she was able to make the acquaintance of Otto Frank, Anne’s father, a man whose kindness, elegance and intelligence touched her so deeply that she still speaks of it with difficulty. She recalled their first meeting when he took her to lunch at the Krasnopolsky, and another evening when she tried to reciprocate by preparing a veal roast made with post-war fare that shrank in the pan to a fraction of its original size.

Mrs. Mooyaart’s talk was funny, touching, and still very fresh (certainly a trait of hers that has nothing to do with age). For Susan Massotty, who did a new translation of the Diary of Anne Frank which was published this year by Doubleday, it was indeed a tough act of follow. Why the need for a new translation? Because, explained Susan, language has changed a great deal in the last fifty years. Doubleday’s hope for a new translation was one that incorporated more contemporary language while still remaining true to the period. So part of Susan’s task was to research etymologies for words like “nincompoop” to see if they had entered the language before the forties. Another reason for a new translation was that the Diary is now bigger: it contains 30 percent more material than the first translation, including sections that deal with sexuality and Anne’s adolescent gripes about her mother. And it’s the first American translation. Young American readers, the target audience, might not know that what the Brits call a “vest” is what they call an “undershirt”. And finally there’s the matter of the copyright: the original copyright, which runs for fifty years, will end in 1997, and the Anne Frank Foundation in Basel wanted to protect the material by issuing a new translation (with a seventy-five year copyright) before the old one terminates.

For all her clear advantages (computer, dictionaries, and no small children), Susan’s big challenge was her distance from the subject itself, something which Mrs. Mooyaart did not have to contend with. She was constantly encountering Dutch words that were only pertinent to the wartime experience and that had quickly died out after the war ended. There was no Otto Frank to consult on these points, but fortunately Susan did have a valuable primary source in Mrs. Mooyaart herself, who has carefully kept her archive of Diary-related material. (She brought some of it with her, including neatly printed postcards from Otto Frank that looked as though they were written last week.)

Among the many questions and comments from the audience was disagreement about Anne Frank now sounding so American. Oddly enough, though, some American members felt that since Anne was “European” her English should be European as well. Perhaps. But as Susan pointed out, the idea is to keep the Diary interesting for all the young American readers who in many cases don’t even know what the Holocaust was. Susan and Mrs. Mooyaart produced the kinds of translations that their respective generations needed; what the two have in common, though, is the connection with Anne Frank herself and the experience of penetrating her very private writings to make them accessible to a wider audience.

The Diary of Anne Frank is the Netherlands’ most widely translated book, and Anne Frank has become almost a household word. Of course Mrs. Mooyaart could never have known how popular that book would become, but she must have had a suspicion when the American edition went into its third printing after only two weeks and the New York publishing world proclaimed it a runaway success. Still, to become so intimate with a work like that touches you forever. Perhaps that’s why so many SENSE members chose to come to this particular meeting. We knew that these two women had done the kind of work that very few of us in this country get to do — they had been someplace where few of us get to go — and we had come to sit at their feet. Susan summed it all up when she said, “Something happens in the translation process. It’s a mystical process, really — a source speaks to you and tells you what to write.”

13 October 1995

[written for Fall 1995 issue of SENSE magazine, journal of the Society of Native English-Speaking Editors]

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Confession: A Primer

by Jim Forest

A young monk said to the great ascetic Abba Sisoes: “Abba, what should I do? I fell.” The elder answered: “Get up!” The monk said: “I got up and I fell again!” The elder replied: “Get up again!” But the young monk asked: “For how long should I get up when I fall?” “Until your death,” answered Abba Sisoes.
—Sayings of the Desert Fathers

“When I went to my first confession,” a friend told me, “tears took the place of the sins I meant to utter. The priest simply told me that it wasn’t necessary to enumerate everything and that it was just vanity to suppose that my personal sins were worse than everyone else’s. Which, by the way, was something of a relief, since it wasn’t possible for me to remember all the sins of my first thirty-odd years of life. It made me think of the way the father received his prodigal son—he didn’t even let his son finish his carefully rehearsed speech. It’s truly amazing.”

Rembrandt-The_return_of_the_prodigal_sonAnother friend told me that he was so worried about all he had to confess that he decided to write them down. “So I made a list of my sins and brought it with me. The priest saw the paper in my hand, took it, looked through the list, tore it up, and gave it back to me. Then he said ‘Kneel down,’ and he absolved me. That was my confession, even though I never said a word! But I felt truly my sins had been torn up and that I was free of them.”

The very word confession makes us nervous, touching as it does all that is hidden in ourselves: lies told, injuries caused, things stolen, friends deceived, people betrayed, promises broken, faith denied—these plus all the smaller actions that reveal the beginnings of sins.

Confession is painful, yet a Christian life without confession is impossible.

Confession is a major theme of the Gospels. Even before Christ began His public ministry, we read in Matthew’s Gospel that John required confession of those who came to him for baptism in the River Jordan for a symbolic act of washing away their sins: “And [they] were baptized by [John] in the Jordan, confessing their sins” (Matthew 3:6).

Then there are those amazing words of Christ to Peter: “I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven” (Matthew 16:19). The keys of binding and loosing sins were given not only to one apostle but to all Christ’s disciples, and—in a sacramental sense—to any priest who has his bishop’s blessing to hear confessions.

The Gospel author John warns us not to deceive ourselves: “If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins” (1 John 1:8, 9).

The sacrament of baptism, the rite of entrance into the Church, has always been linked with repentance. “Repent, and . . . be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins,” Saint Peter preached in Jerusalem, “and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit” (Acts 2:38). In the same book we read that “many who had believed came confessing and telling their deeds” (Acts 19:18).

The Prodigal Son

One Gospel story in which we encounter confession is the parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11–32). Here Christ describes a young man so impatient to come into his inheritance and be independent that, in effect, he says to his father, “As far as I’m concerned, you have already died. Give me now what would have come to me after your funeral. I want nothing more to do with you or with this house.”

With Godlike generosity, the father gives what his son asks, though he knows his son well enough to realize that all the boy receives from him might as well be burned in a stove. The boy takes his inheritance and leaves, at last free of parents, free of morals and good behavior, free to do as he pleases.

After wasting his money, he finds himself reduced to feeding the pigs as a farmhand. People he had thought of as friends now sneer. He knows he has renounced the claim to be anyone’s son, yet in his desperation he dares hope his father might at least allow him to return home as a servant. Full of dismay for what he said to his father and what he did with his inheritance, he walks home in his rags, ready to confess his sins, to beg for work and a corner to sleep in. The son cannot imagine the love his father has for him or the fact that, despite all the trouble he caused, he has been desperately missed. Far from being glad to be rid of the boy, the father has gazed day after day in prayer toward the horizon in hope of his son’s return.

“But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him” (v. 20). Had he not been watching, he would not have noticed his child in the distance and realized who it was. Instead of simply standing and waiting for his son to reach the door, he ran to meet him, embracing him, pouring out words of joy and welcome rather than reproof or condemnation.

“And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son’” (v. 21). Here we have the son’s confession compacted into a single sentence. It is the essence of any confession: our return to our Father, who made us and constantly awaits our homecoming.

What Is Sin?

There are countless essays and books that deal with human failings under various labels without once using the three-letter word sin. Actions traditionally regarded as sinful have instead been seen as natural stages in the process of growing up, a result of bad parenting, a consequence of mental illness, an inevitable response to unjust social conditions, or pathological behavior brought on by addiction.

But what if I am more than a robot programmed by my past or my society or my economic status and actually can take a certain amount of credit—or blame—for my actions and inactions? Have I not done things I am deeply ashamed of, would not do again if I could go back in time, and would prefer no one to know about? What makes me so reluctant to call those actions “sins”? Is the word really out of date? Or is the problem that it has too sharp an edge?

The Hebrew verb chata’, “to sin,” like the Greek word hamartia, simply means straying off the path, getting lost, missing the mark. Sin—going off course—can be intentional or unintentional.

The author of the Book of Proverbs lists seven things God hates: “A proud look, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that are swift in running to evil, a false witness who speaks lies, and one who sows discord among brethren” (6:17–19).

Pride is given first place. “Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” is another insight in the Book of Proverbs (16:18). In the Garden of Eden, Satan seeks to animate pride in his dialogue with Eve. Eat the forbidden fruit, he tells her, and “you will be like God” (Genesis 3:5).

The craving to be ahead of others, to be more valued than others, to be more highly rewarded than others, to be able to keep others in a state of fear, the inability to admit mistakes or apologize—these are among the symptoms of pride. Pride opens the way for countless other sins: deceit, lies, theft, violence, and all those other actions that destroy community with God and with those around us.

Yet we spend a great deal of our lives trying to convince ourselves and others that what we did really wasn’t that bad or could even be seen as almost good, given the circumstances. Even in confession, many people explain what they did rather than simply admit they did things that require forgiveness. “When I recently happened to confess about fifty people in a typical Orthodox parish in Pennsylvania,” Fr. Alexander Schmemann wrote, “not one admitted to having committed any sin whatsoever!”

“We’re capable of doing some rotten things,” the Minnesota storyteller Garrison Keillor notes, “and not all of these things are the result of poor communication. Some are the result of rottenness. People do bad, horrible things. They lie and they cheat and they corrupt the government. They poison the world around us. And when they’re caught they don’t feel remorse—they just go into treatment. They had a nutritional problem or something. They explain what they did—they don’t feel bad about it. There’s no guilt. There’s just psychology.”

For the person who has committed a serious sin, there are two vivid signs—the hope that what one did may never become known, and a gnawing sense of guilt. At least this is the case before the conscience becomes completely numb—which is what happens when patterns of sin become the structure of one’s life to the extent that hell, far from being a possible next-life experience, is where one finds oneself in this life.

It is a striking fact about basic human architecture that we want certain actions to remain secret, not because of modesty, but because there is an unarguable sense of having violated a law more basic than that in any law book—the “law written in [our] hearts” to which St. Paul refers (Romans 2:15). It isn’t simply that we fear punishment. It is that we don’t want to be thought of by others as a person who commits such deeds. One of the main obstacles to going to confession is dismay that someone else will know what I want no one to know.

One of the oddest things about the age we live in is that we are made to feel guilty about feeling guilty. There is a cartoon tacked up in our house in which one prisoner says to another, “Just remember—it’s okay to be guilty, but not okay to feel guilty.”

A sense of guilt—the painful awareness of having committed sins—can be life-renewing. Guilt provides a foothold for contrition, which in turn can motivate confession and repentance. Without guilt, there is no remorse; without remorse, there is no possibility of becoming free of habitual sins.

Yet there are forms of guilt that are dead-end streets. If I feel guilty that I have not managed to become the ideal person I occasionally want to be, or that I imagine others want me to be, that is guilt without a divine reference point. It is simply an irritated me contemplating an irritating me. Christianity is not centered on performance, laws, principles, or the achievement of flawless behavior, but on Christ Himself and on participation in God’s transforming love.

rublev-angels-at-mamre-trinity1When Christ says, “Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect” (Matthew 5:48), he’s not speaking of getting a perfect score on a test, but of being whole, being in a state of communion, participating fully in God’s love. This condition of being is suggested by St. Andrei Rublev’s icon of the Holy Trinity: those three angelic figures silently inclined toward each other around a chalice on a small altar. They symbolize the Holy Trinity: the communion that exists within God—not a closed communion restricted to themselves alone, but an open communion of love, in which we are not only invited but intended to participate.

A blessed guilt is the pain we feel when we realize we have cut ourselves off from that divine communion that irradiates all creation. It is impossible to live in a Godless universe, but easy to be unaware of God’s presence or even to resent it.

It’s a common delusion that one’s sins are private or affect only a few other people. To think our sins, however hidden, don’t affect others is like imagining that a stone thrown into the water won’t generate ripples. As Bishop Kallistos Ware has observed: “There are no entirely private sins. All sins are sins against my neighbor, as well as against God and against myself. Even my most secret thoughts are, in fact, making it more difficult for those around me to follow Christ.”

Far from being hidden, each sin is another crack in the world.

One of the most widely used Orthodox prayers, the Jesus Prayer, is only one sentence long: “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, be merciful to me, a sinner!” Short as it is, many people drawn to it are put off by the last two words. Those who teach the prayer are often asked, “But must I call myself a sinner?” In fact, the ending isn’t essential—the only essential word is “Jesus”—but my difficulty in identifying myself as a sinner reveals a lot. What makes me so reluctant to speak of myself in such plain words? Don’t I do a pretty good job of hiding rather than revealing Christ in my life? Am I not a sinner? To admit that I am provides a starting point.

There are only two possible responses to sin: to justify it, or to repent. Between these two, there is no middle ground.

Justification may be verbal, but mainly it takes the form of repetition: I do again and again the same thing as a way of demonstrating to myself and others that it’s not really a sin, but rather something normal or human or necessary or even good. “Commit a sin twice and it will not seem a crime,” notes a Jewish proverb.

Repentance, on the other hand, is the recognition that I cannot live any more as I have been living, because in living that way I wall myself apart from others and from God. Repentance is a change in direction. Repentance is the door of communion. It is also a sine qua non of forgiveness. Absolution is impossible where there is no repentance.

As St. John Chrysostom said sixteen centuries ago in Antioch:

Repentance opens the heavens, takes us to Paradise, overcomes the devil. Have you sinned? Do not despair! If you sin every day, then offer repentance every day! When there are rotten parts in old houses, we replace the parts with new ones, and we do not stop caring for the houses. In the same way, you should reason for yourself: If today you have defiled yourself with sin, immediately cleanse yourself with repentance.

Confession as a Social Action

It is impossible to imagine a healthy marriage or deep friendship without confession and forgiveness. If we have done something that damages a relationship, confession is essential to its restoration. For the sake of that bond, we confess what we’ve done, we apologize, and we promise not to do it again; then we do everything in our power to keep that promise.

In the context of religious life, confession is what we do to safeguard and renew our relationship with God whenever it is damaged. Confession restores our communion with God and with each other.

It is never easy to admit to doing something we regret and are ashamed of, an act we attempted to keep secret or denied doing or tried to blame on someone else, perhaps arguing—to ourselves as much as to others—that it wasn’t actually a sin at all, or wasn’t nearly as bad as some people might claim. In the hard labor of growing up, one of the most agonizing tasks is becoming capable of saying, “I’m sorry.”

Yet we are designed for confession. Secrets in general are hard to keep, but unconfessed sins not only never go away, but have a way of becoming heavier as time passes—the greater the sin, the heavier the burden. Confession is the only solution.

To understand confession in its sacramental sense, one first has to grapple with a few basic questions: Why is the Church involved in forgiving sins? Is priest-witnessed confession really needed? Why confess at all to any human being? In fact, why bother confessing to God, even without a human witness? If God is really all-knowing, then God knows everything about me already. My sins are known before it even crosses my mind to confess them. Why bother telling God what God already knows?

Yes, truly God knows. My confession can never be as complete or revealing as God’s knowledge of me and of all that needs repairing in my life.

But a related question we need to consider has to do with our basic design as social beings. Why am I so willing to connect with others in every other area of life, yet not in this? Why is it that I look so hard for excuses, even for theological rationales, not to confess? Why do I try so hard to explain away my sins, until I’ve decided either that they’re not so bad, or even that they might be seen as acts of virtue? Why is it that I find it so easy to commit sins, yet am so reluctant, in the presence of another, to admit to having done so?

We are social beings. The individual as autonomous unit is a delusion. The Marlboro Man—the person without community, parents, spouse, or children—exists only on billboards. The individual is someone who has lost a sense of connection to others or attempts to exist in opposition to others—while the person exists in communion with other persons. At a conference of Orthodox Christians in France a few years ago, in a discussion of the problem of individualism, a theologian confessed, “When I am in my car, I am an individual, but when I get out, I am a person again.”

We are social beings. The language we speak connects us to those around us. The food I eat was grown by others. The skills passed on to me have slowly been developed in the course of hundreds of generations. The air I breathe and the water I drink is not for my exclusive use, but has been in many bodies before mine. The place I live, the tools I use, and the paper I write on were made by many hands. I am not my own doctor or dentist. To the extent that I disconnect myself from others, I am in danger. Alone, I die, and soon. To be in communion with others is life.

Because we are social beings, confession in church does not take the place of confession to those we have sinned against. An essential element of confession is doing all I can to set right what I did wrong. If I stole something, it must be returned or paid for. If I lied to anyone, I must tell that person the truth. If I was angry without good reason, I must apologize. I must seek forgiveness not only from God, but from those whom I have wronged or harmed.

We are also verbal beings. Words provide a way of communicating, not only with others, but even with ourselves. The fact that confession is witnessed forces me to put into words all those ways, minor and major, in which I live as if there were no God and no commandment to love. A thought that is concealed has great power over us.

Confessing sins, or even temptations, makes us better able to resist. The underlying principle is described in one of the collections of sayings of the Desert Fathers:

If impure thoughts trouble you, do not hide them, but tell them at once to your spiritual father and condemn them. The more a person conceals his thoughts, the more they multiply and gain strength. But an evil thought, when revealed, is immediately destroyed. If you hide things, they have great power over you, but if you could only speak of them before God, in the presence of another, then they will often wither away, and lose their power.

Confessing to anyone, even a stranger, renews rather than contracts my humanity, even if all I get in return for my confession is the well-worn remark, “Oh, that’s not so bad. After all, you’re only human.” But if I can confess to anyone anywhere, why confess in church in the presence of a priest? It’s not a small question in societies in which the phrase “institutionalized religion” is so often used, the implicit message being that religious institutions necessarily undermine spiritual life.

Confession is a Christian ritual with a communal character. Confession in the church differs from confession in your living room in the same way that getting married in church differs from simply living together. The communal aspect of the event tends to safeguard it, solidify it, and call everyone to account—those doing the ritual, and those witnessing it.

In the social structure of the Church, a huge network of local communities is held together in unity, each community helping the others and all sharing a common task, while each provides a specific place to recognize and bless the main events in life, from birth to burial. Confession is an essential part of that continuum. My confession is an act of reconnection with God and with all the people and creatures who depend on me and have been harmed by my failings, and from whom I have distanced myself through acts of non-communion. The community is represented by the person hearing my confession, an ordained priest delegated to serve as Christ’s witness, who provides guidance and wisdom that helps each penitent overcome attitudes and habits that take us off course, who declares forgiveness and restores us to communion. In this way our repentance is brought into the community that has been damaged by our sins—a private event in a public context.

“It’s a fact,” writes Fr. Thomas Hopko, rector of St. Vladimir’s Seminary, “that we cannot see the true ugliness and hideousness of our sins until we see them in the mind and heart of the other to whom we have confessed.”

A Communion-Centered Life

Attending the liturgy and receiving Communion on Sundays and principal feast days has always been at the heart of Christian life, the event that gives life a eucharistic dimension and center point. But Communion—receiving Christ into ourselves—can never be routine, never something we deserve, no matter what the condition of our life may be. For example, Christ solemnly warns us against approaching the altar if we are in a state of enmity with anyone. He tells us, “Leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift” (Matthew 5:24). In one of the parables, He describes a person who is ejected from the wedding feast because he isn’t wearing a wedding garment. Tattered clothing is a metaphor for living a life that reduces conscience to rags (Matthew 22:1–14).

Receiving Christ in Communion during the liturgy is the keystone of living in communion—with God, with people, and with creation. Christ teaches us that love of God and love of neighbor sum up the Law. One way of describing a serious sin is to say it is any act which breaks our communion with God and with our neighbor.

It is for this reason that examination of conscience—if necessary, going to confession—is part of preparation for Communion. This is an ongoing process of trying to see my life and actions with clarity and honesty—to look at myself, my choices, and my direction as known by God. The examination of conscience is an occasion to recall not only any serious sins committed since my last confession, but even the beginnings of sins.

The word conscience derives from a Greek verb meaning “to have common knowledge” or “to know with” someone, a concept that led to the idea of bearing witness concerning someone, especially oneself. Conscience is an inner faculty that guides us in making choices that align us with God’s will, and that accuses us when we break communion with God and with our neighbor. Conscience is a reflection of the divine image at the core of each person. In The Sacred Gift of Life, Fr. John Breck points out that “the education of conscience is acquired in large measure through immersing ourselves in the ascetic tradition of the Church: its life of prayer, sacramental and liturgical celebration, and scripture study. The education of our conscience also depends upon our acquiring wisdom from those who are more advanced than we are in faith, love, and knowledge of God.”

Conscience is God’s whispering voice within us calling us to a way of life that reveals God’s presence and urges us to refuse actions that destroy community and communion.

Key Elements in Confession

Fr. Alexander Schmemann provided this summary of the three key areas of confession:

Relationship to God: Questions on faith itself, possible doubts or deviations, inattention to prayer, neglect of liturgical life, fasting, etc.

Relationship to one’s neighbor: Basic attitudes of selfishness and self-centeredness, indifference to others, lack of attention, interest, love. All acts of actual offense—envy, gossip, cruelty, etc.—must be mentioned and, if needed, their sinfulness shown to the penitent.

Relationship to one’s self: Sins of the flesh with, as their counterpart, the Christian vision of purity and wholesomeness, respect for the body as an icon of Christ, etc. Abuse of one’s life and resources; absence of any real effort to deepen life; abuse of alcohol or other drugs; cheap idea of “fun,” a life centered on amusement, irresponsibility, neglect of family relations, etc.

Tools of Self-Examination

In the struggle to examine conscience, we have tools that can assist us, resources that help both in the formation and the examination of conscience. Among these are the Ten Commandments, the Beatitudes, and various prayers, as well as lists of questions written by experienced confessors. In this brief text, we will look at only one of these, the Beatitudes, which provide a brief summary of the Gospel. Each Beatitude reveals an aspect of being in union with God.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Poverty of spirit is my awareness that I need God’s help and mercy more than anything else. It is knowing that I cannot save myself, that neither money nor power will spare me from suffering and death, and that no matter what I achieve and acquire in this life, it will be far less than I want if I let my acquisitive capacity get the upper hand. This is the blessing of knowing that even what I have is not mine. It is living free of the domination of fear. While the exterior forms of poverty vary from person to person and even from year to year in a particular life, depending on one’s vocation and special circumstances, all who live this Beatitude are seeking with heart and soul to live God’s will rather than their own. Christ’s mother is the paradigm of poverty of spirit in her unconditional assent to the will of God: “Let it be to me according to your word” (Luke 1:38). Similarly, at the marriage feast at Cana, she says to those waiting on the tables: “Whatever He says to you, do it” (John 2:5). Whoever lives by these words is poor in spirit.

Questions to consider: We are bombarded by advertisements, constantly reminded of the possibility of having things and of indulging all sorts of curiosities and temptations. The simple goal of poverty of spirit seems more remote than the moons of Neptune. Am I regularly praying that God will give me poverty of spirit? When tempted to buy things I don’t need, do I pray for strength to resist? Do I keep the Church fasts that would help strengthen my capacity to live this Beatitude? Do I really seek to know and embrace God’s will in my life? Am I willing to be seen as odd or stupid by those whose lives are dominated by values that oppose the Beatitudes?

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Mourning is cut from the same cloth as poverty of spirit. Without poverty of spirit, I am forever on guard to keep what I have for myself, and to keep me for myself, or for that small circle of people whom I regard as mine. A consequence of poverty of spirit is becoming vulnerable to the pain and losses of others, not only those whom I happen to know and care for, but also those who are strangers to me. “When we die,” said Saint John Climacus, the seventh-century abbot of Saint Catherine’s Monastery near Mount Sinai, “we will not be criticized for having failed to work miracles. We will not be accused of having failed to be theologians or contemplatives. But we will certainly have to explain to God why we did not mourn unceasingly.”

Questions to consider: Do I weep with those who weep? Have I mourned those in my own family who have died? Do I open my thoughts and feelings to the suffering and losses of others? Do I try to make space in my mind and heart for the calamities in the lives of others who may be far away and neither speak my language nor share my faith?

Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

Meekness is often confused with weakness, yet a meek person is neither spineless nor cowardly. Understood biblically, meekness is making choices and exercising power with a divine rather than social reference point. Meekness is the essential quality of the human being in relationship to God. Without meekness, we cannot align ourselves with God’s will. In place of humility, we prefer pride—pride in who we are, pride in doing as we please, pride in what we’ve achieved, pride in the national or ethnic group to which we happen to belong. Meekness has nothing to do with blind obedience or social conformity. Meek Christians do not allow themselves to be dragged along by the tides of political power. Such rudderless persons have cut themselves off from their own conscience, God’s voice in their hearts, and thrown away their God-given freedom. Meekness is an attribute of following Christ, no matter what risks are involved.

Questions to consider: When I read the Bible or writings of the saints, do I consider the implications for my own life? When I find what I read at odds with the way I live, do I allow the text to challenge me? Do I pray for God’s guidance? Do I seek help with urgent questions in confession? Do I tend to make choices and adopt ideas that will help me fit into the group I want to be part of? Do I fear the criticism or ridicule of others for my efforts to live a Gospel-centered life? Do I listen to others? Do I tell the truth even in difficult circumstances?

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.

In his teaching about the Last Judgment, Christ speaks of hunger and thirst: “I was hungry and you gave me food; I was thirsty and you gave me drink” (Matthew 25:35). Our salvation hinges on our caring for the least person as we would for Christ Himself. To hunger and thirst for something is not a mild desire, but a desperate craving. To hunger and thirst for righteousness means urgently to desire that which is honorable, right, and true. A righteous person is a right-living person, living a moral, blameless life, right with both God and neighbor. A righteous social order would be one in which no one is abandoned or thrown away, in which people live in peace with God, with each other, and with the world God has given us.

Questions to consider: Does it disturb me that I live in a world that in many ways is the opposite of the Kingdom of heaven? When I pray, “Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven,” am I praying that my own life might better reflect God’s priorities? Who is “the least” in my day-to-day world? Do I try to see Christ’s face in him or her?

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.

One of the perils of pursuing righteousness is that one can become self-righteous. Thus, the next rung of the ladder of the Beatitudes is the commandment of mercy. This is the quality of self-giving love, of gracious deeds done for those in need. Twice in the Gospels Christ makes His own the words of the Prophet Hosea: “I desire mercy and not sacrifice” (Hosea 6:6; Matthew 9:13; 12:7). We witness mercy in event after event in the New Testament account of Christ’s life—forgiving, healing, freeing, correcting, even repairing the wound of a man injured by Peter in his effort to protect Christ, and promising Paradise to the criminal being crucified next to Him.

Again and again Christ declares that those who seek God’s mercy must pardon others. The principle is included in the only prayer Christ taught His disciples: “Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors” (Matthew 6:12). He calls on His followers to love their enemies and to pray for them. The moral of the parable of the Good Samaritan is that a neighbor is a person who comes to the aid of a stranger in need (Luke 10:29–37). While He denounces hypocrisy and warns the merciless that they are condemning themselves to hell, in no passage in the Gospel do we hear Christ advocating anyone’s death. At the Last Judgment, Christ receives into the Kingdom of heaven those who were merciful. He is Mercy itself.

Questions to consider: When I see a stranger in need, how do I respond? Is Christ’s mercy evident in my life? Am I willing to extend forgiveness to those who seek it? Am I generous in sharing my time and material possessions with those in need? Do I pray for my enemies? Do I try to assist them if they are in need? Have I been an enemy to anyone?

Mercy is more and more absent even in societies with Christian roots. In the United States, the death penalty has been reinstated in the majority of states and has the fervent support of many Christians. Even in the many countries that have abolished executions, the death penalty is often imposed on unborn children—abortion is hardly regarded as a moral issue. Concerning the sick, aged, and severely handicapped, “mercy killing” and “assisted suicide” are now phrases much in use. To what extent have I been influenced by slogans and ideologies that promote death as a solution and disguise killing as mercy? What am I doing to make my society more welcoming, more caring, more life-protecting?

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

The brain has come up in the world, while the heart has been demoted. The heart used to be widely recognized as the locus of God’s activity within us, the hub of human identity and conscience, linked with our capacity to love, the core not only of physical but also of spiritual life—the ground zero of the human soul. In our brain-centered society, we ought to be surprised that Christ didn’t say, “Blessed are the brilliant in mind.” Instead, He blessed purity of heart.

The Greek word for purity, katharos, means spotless, stainless; intact, unbroken, perfect; free from adulteration or anything that defiles or corrupts. What, then, is a pure heart? A heart free of possessiveness, a heart capable of mourning, a heart that thirsts for what is right, a merciful heart, a loving heart, a heart not ruled by passions, an undivided heart, a heart aware of the image of God in others, a heart drawn to beauty, a heart conscious of God’s presence in creation. A pure heart is a heart without contempt for others. “A person is truly pure of heart when he considers all human beings as good and no created thing appears impure or defiled to him,” wrote Saint Isaac of Syria.

Opposing purity of heart is lust of any kind—for wealth, for recognition, for power, for vengeance, for sexual exploits—whether indulged through action or imagination. Spiritual virtues that defend the heart are memory, awareness, watchfulness, wakefulness, attention, hope, faith, and love. A rule of prayer in daily life helps heal, guard, and unify the heart. “Always keep your mind collected in your heart,” instructed the great teacher of prayer, Saint Theophan the Recluse. The Jesus Prayer—the prayer of the heart—is part of a tradition of spiritual life that helps move the center of consciousness from the mind to the heart. Purification of the heart is the striving to place under the rule of the heart the mind, which represents the analytic and organizational aspect of consciousness. It is the moment-to-moment prayerful discipline of seeking to be so aware of God’s presence that no space is left in the heart for hatred, greed, lust, or vengeance. Purification of the heart is the lifelong struggle of seeking a more God-centered life, a heart illuminated with the presence of the Holy Trinity.

Questions to consider: Do I take care not to read or look at things that stir up lust? Do I avoid using words that soil my mouth? Am I attentive to beauty in people, nature, and the arts? Am I sarcastic about others? Is a rhythm of prayer part of my daily life? Do I prepare carefully for Communion, never taking it for granted? Do I observe fasting days and seasons? Am I aware of and grateful for God’s gifts?

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.

Christ is often called the Prince of Peace. His peace is not a passive condition—He blesses the makers of peace. The peacemaker is a person who helps heal damaged relationships. Throughout the Gospel, we see Christ bestowing peace. In His final discourse before His arrest, He says to the Apostles: “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you. . . . Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” (John 14:27). After the Resurrection, he greets his followers with the words, “Peace be with you” (John 20:19). He instructs his followers that, on entering a house, their first action should be the blessing, “Peace to this house” (Luke 10:5).

Christ is at his most paradoxical when he says, “Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword” (Matthew 10:34; note that a similar passage, Luke 12:51, uses the word “division” rather than “sword”). Those who try to live Christ’s peace may find themselves in trouble, as all those who have died a martyr’s death bear witness. Sadly, for most of us the peace we long for is not the Kingdom of God, but a slightly improved version of the world we already have. We would like to get rid of conflict without eliminating the spiritual and material factors that draw us into conflict. The peacemaker is a person aware that ends never stand apart from means: figs do not grow from thistles; neither is community brought into being by hatred and violence. A peacemaker is aware that all persons, even those who seem to be ruled by evil spirits, are made in the image of God and are capable of change and conversion.

Questions to consider: In my family, in my parish, and among my coworkers, am I guilty of sins which cause or deepen division and conflict? Do I ask forgiveness when I realize I am in the wrong? Or am I always justifying what I do, no matter what pain or harm it causes others? Do I regard it as a waste of time to communicate with opponents? Do I listen with care and respect to those who irritate me? Do I pray for the well-being and salvation of adversaries and enemies? Do I allow what others say or what the press reports to define my attitude toward those whom I have never met? Do I take positive steps to overcome division? Are there people I regard as not bearing God’s image and therefore innately evil?

Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

The last rung is where the Beatitudes reach and pass beyond the Cross. “We must carry Christ’s Cross as a crown of glory,” wrote Saint John Chrysostom in the fourth century, “for it is by it that everything that is achieved among us is gained. . . . Whenever you make the sign of the cross on your body, think of what the Cross means and put aside anger and every other passion. Take courage and be free in the soul.”

In the ancient world, Christians were persecuted chiefly because they were regarded as undermining the social order, even though in most respects they were models of civil obedience and good conduct. But Christians abstained from the cult of the deified emperor, would not sacrifice to gods their neighbors venerated, and were notable for their objection to war or bloodshed in any form, whether gladitorial combat or war. It is easy to imagine that a community that lived by such values, however well-behaved, would be regarded as a threat by the government. “Both the Emperor’s commands and those of others in authority must be obeyed if they are not contrary to the God of heaven,” said Saint Euphemia in the year 303, during the reign of Diocletian. “If they are, they must not only be disobeyed; they must be resisted.” Following torture, Saint Euphemia was killed by a bear—the kind of death endured by thousands of Christians well into the fourth century, though the greatest number of Christian martyrs belongs to the twentieth century. In many countries religious persecution continues.

Questions to consider: Does fear play a bigger role in my life than love? Do I hide my faith or live it in a timid, half-hearted way? When I am ordered to do something that conflicts with Christ’s teaching, whom do I obey? Am I aware of those who are suffering for righteousness’ sake in my own country and elsewhere in the world? Am I praying for them? Am I doing anything to help them?

Finding a Confessor

Just as not every doctor is a good physician, not every priest is a good confessor. Sometimes it happens that a priest, however good his qualities in other respects, is a person not well suited for witnessing confessions. While abusive priests are the exception, their existence must be noted. God has given us freedom and provided each person with a conscience. It is not the role of a priest to take the place of conscience or to become anyone’s drill sergeant. A good confessor will help us become better at hearing the voice of conscience and become more free in an increasingly God-centered life.

Fortunately, good confessors are not hard to find. Usually your confessor is the priest who is closest, sees you most often, knows you and the circumstances of your life best: a priest of your parish. Do not be put off by your awareness of what you perceive as his relative youth, his personal shortcomings, or the probability that he possesses no rare spiritual gifts. Keep in mind that each priest goes to confession himself and may have more to confess than you do. You confess, not to him, but to Christ in his presence. He is the witness of your confession. You do not require and will never find a sinless person to be that witness. (The Orthodox Church tries to make this clear by having the penitent face, not the priest, but an icon of Christ.)

What your confessor says by way of advice can be remarkably insightful, or brusque, or seem to you a cliché and not very relevant, yet almost always there will be something helpful if only you are willing to hear it. Sometimes there is a suggestion or insight that becomes a turning point in your life. If he imposes a penance—normally increased prayer, fasting, and acts of mercy—it should be accepted meekly, unless there is something in the penance which seems to you a violation of your conscience or of the teaching of the Church as you understand it.

Don’t imagine that a priest will respect you less for what you reveal to Christ in his presence, or imagine that he is carefully remembering all your sins. “Even a recently ordained priest will quickly find that he cannot remember 99 percent of what people tell him in confession,” one priest told me. He said it is embarrassing to him that people expect him to remember what they told him in an earlier confession. “When they remind me, then sometimes I remember, but without a reminder, usually my mind is a blank. I let the words I listen to pass through me. Also, so much that I hear in one confession is similar to what I hear in other confessions—the confessions blur together. The only sins I easily remember are my own.”

One priest told me of his difficulties meeting the expectations that sometimes become evident in confession. “I am not a psychologist. I have no special gifts. I am just a fellow sinner trying to stay on the path.”

A Russian priest who is spiritual father to many people once told me about the joy he often feels hearing confessions. “It is not that I am glad anyone has sins to confess, but when you come to confession it means these sins are in your past, not your future. Confession marks a turning point, and I am the lucky one who gets to watch people making that turn!”

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confession book coverJim Forest is the author of many books, including Confession: Doorway to Forgiveness, Praying with Icons, Ladder of the Beatitudes, The Road to Emmaus: Pilgrimage as a Way of Life and The Wormwood File: E-Mail from Hell. He is international secretary of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship (www.incommunion.org) and an associate editor of its quarterly journal, In Communion. His home is in Alkmaar, the Netherlands. He and his wife Nancy are members of St. Nicholas of Myra Orthodox Church in Amsterdam.

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Rescued by Christmas: reflections on the Nativity Icon

Nativity icon (Russian)by Jim Forest

What shall we offer you, O Christ, who for our sake has appeared on earth as man? Every creature made by you offers you thanks. The angels offer you a hymn; the heavens a star; the Magi, gifts; the shepherds, their wonder; the earth, its cave; the wilderness, the manger; and we offer you a virgin mother.
— from a prayer for the Orthodox Christmas Vespers Service

Many people see Christ as a long-dead, myth-shrouded teacher who lives on only in fading memory, a man “risen from the dead” only in the sense that his teachings have survived. There are scholars busily at work trying to find out which words attributed to Jesus in the New Testament were actually said by him (not many, it turns out). Yet even skeptics celebrate Christmas with a special holiday meal and the exchange of gifts.

The problem of miracles doesn’t intrude, for what could be more normal than birth? If Jesus lived, then he was born, and so, with little or no faith in the rest of Christian doctrine, we can celebrate his birth, whatever our degree of faith. Pascha, with its miraculous resurrection from the grave, is more and more lost to us, but at least some of the joy of Christmas remains. Perhaps in the end the Nativity feast will lead us back to faith in all its richness. We will be rescued by Christmas.

The icon of Christ’s Nativity, ancient though it is, takes note of our “modern” problem. There (usually in the lower left hand corner) we find a morose, despondent Joseph listening to a wizened figure who represents what we might call “the voice of unenlightened reason.” What is the old man whispering to Joseph? Something like: “A miracle? Surely you aren’t so foolish as to believe Mary conceived this child without a human father. But if not you, then who was it?” As we read the Gospel passages concerning Joseph, we are repeatedly reminded that he didn’t easily make leaps of faith.

Divine activity intrudes into our lives in such a mundane, physical way. A woman gives birth to a child, as women have been doing since Eve. Joseph has witnessed that birth and there is nothing different about it, unless it be that it occurred in abject circumstances, far from home, in a cave in which animals are kept. Joseph has had his dreams, he has heard angelic voices, he has been reassured in a variety of ways that the child born of Mary is none other than the Awaited One, the Anointed, God’s Son. But belief comes hard. Giving birth is arduous, as we see in Mary’s reclining figure, resting after labor — and so is the labor to believe. Mary has completed this stage of her struggle, but Joseph still grapples with his.

The theme is not only in Joseph’s bewildered face. The rigorous black of the cave of Christ’s birth in the center of the icon represents all human disbelief, all fear, all hopelessness. In the midst of a starless night in the cave of our despair, Christ, “the Sun of Truth,” enters history having been clothed in flesh in Mary’s body. It is just as the Evangelist John said in the beginning of his Gospel: “The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.”

The Nativity icon is in sharp contrast to the sentimental imagery we are used to in western Christmas art. In the icon there is no charming Bethlehem bathed in the light of the nativity star but only a rugged mountain with a few plants. The austere mountain suggests a hard, unwelcoming world in which survival is a real battle — the world since our expulsion from Paradise.

The most prominent figure in the icon is Mary, framed by the red blanket she is resting on — red: the color of life, the color of blood. Orthodox Christians call her the Theotokos, a Greek word meaning God-bearer or Mother of God. Her quiet but wholehearted assent to the invitation brought to her by the Archangel Gabriel has led her to Bethlehem, making a cave at the edge of a peasant village the center of the universe. He who was distant has come near, first filling her body, now visible in the flesh.

As is usual in iconography, the main event is moved to the foreground, free of its surroundings. So the cave is placed behind rather than around Mary and her child.

The Gospel records that Christ’s birth occurred in a cave that was being used as a stable. In fact the cave still exists in Bethlehem. Countless pilgrims have prayed there over the centuries. But it no longer looks like the cave it was. In the fourth century, at the Emperor Constantine’s order, the cave was transformed into a chapel. At the same time, above the cave, a basilica was built.

We see in the icon that Christ’s birth is not only for us, but for all creation. The donkey and the ox, both gazing at the newborn child, recall the opening verses of the Prophet Isaiah: ‘An ox knows its owner and a donkey its master’s manger…” They also represent “all creatures great and small,” endangered, punished and exploited by human beings. They too are victims of the Fall. Christ’s Nativity is for them as well as for us.

There is something about the way Mary turns away from her son that makes us aware of a struggle different than Joseph is experiencing. She knows very well her child has no human Father, but is anxious about her child’s future. She can see in the circumstances of his birth that his way of ruling is nothing like the way kings rule. The ruler of all rules from a manger in a stable. His death on the cross will not surprise her. It is implied in his birth.

We see that the Christ child’s body is wrapped “in swaddling clothes.” In icons of Christ’s burial, you will see he is wearing similar bands of cloth. We also see them around Lazarus, in the icon of his raising by Christ. In the Nativity icon, the manger looks much like a coffin. In this way, the icon links birth and death. The poet Rilke says we bear our death within us from the moment of birth. The icon of the Nativity says the same. Our life is one piece and its length of much less importance than its purity and truthfulness.

Some versions of the icon show more details, some less.

Normally in the icon we see several angels worshiping God-become-man. Though we ourselves are rarely aware of the presence of angels, they are deeply enmeshed in our history and we know some of them by name. This momentous event is for them as well as us.

Often the icon includes the three wise men who have come from far off, whose close attention to activity in the heavens made them come on pilgrimage in order to pay homage to a king who belongs not to one people, but to all people; not to one age, but to all ages. They represent the world beyond Judaism.

Then there are the shepherds, simple people who have been summoned by angels.

Throughout history it has in fact been the simple people who have been most uncompromised in their response to the Gospel, who have not buried God in footnotes. It was not the wise men, but the shepherds who were permitted to hear the choir of angels singing God’s praise.

On the bottom right of the icon often there are one or two midwives washing the newborn baby. The detail is based on apocryphal texts concerning Joseph’s arrangements for the birth. Those who know the Old Testament will recall the disobedience of midwives to the Egyptian Pharaoh; thanks to a brave midwife, Moses was not murdered at birth. In the Nativity icon the midwife’s presence has another still more important function, underscoring Christ’s full participation in human nature.

Iconographers may leave out or alter various details, but always there is a ray of divine light that connects heaven with the baby. The partially revealed circle at the very top of the icon symbolizes God the Father, the small circle within the descending ray represents the Holy Spirit, while the child is the Second Person of the Holy Trinity, the Son. At every turn, from iconography to liturgical text to the physical gesture of crossing oneself, the Church has always sought to confess God in the Holy Trinity.

The symbol is also connected with the star that led the magi to the cave.

Orthodoxy often speaks of Christ in terms of light and this, too, is suggested by the ray connecting heaven to the manger. “Our Savior, the dayspring from on high, has visited us, and we who were in shadow and in darkness have found the truth,” the Church sings on Christmas, the Feast of Christ’s Nativity According to the Flesh.

The iconographic portrayal of Christ’s birth is not without radical social implications. Christ’s birth occurred where it did, we are told by Matthew, “because there was no room in the inn.” He who welcomes all is himself unwelcome. From the moment of his birth, he is something like a refugee, as indeed he soon will be in the very strict sense of the word, fleeing to Egypt with Mary and Joseph, as they seek a safe distance from the murderous Herod. Later in life he will say to his followers, revealing one of the criteria of salvation, “I was homeless and you took me in.”

The icon reminds us that we are saved not by our achievements, but by our participation in the mercy of God — God’s hospitality. If we turn our backs on the homeless and those without the necessities of life, we will end up with nothing more than ideas and slogans and find ourselves lost in the icon’s starless cave.

We return at the end to the two figures at the heart of the icon. Mary, fulfilling Eve’s destiny, has given birth to Jesus Christ, a child who is God incarnate, a child in whom each of us finds our true self, a child who is the measure of all things. It is not the Messiah the Jews of those days expected — or the Christ many Christians of the modern world would have preferred. God, whom we often refer to as all-mighty, reveals himself in poverty and vulnerability. Christmas is a revelation of the self-emptying love of God.

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note: This is a chapter from Praying With Icons bu Jim Forest (Orbis Books).

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Two examples of the Nativity icon:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jimforest/847379322/in/set-741533/

And this:

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Salt of the Earth: An Orthodox Christian Approach to Peacemaking

by Jim Forest

“You are the salt of the earth; but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trodden under foot by men.” This verse in Matthew’s Gospel comes immediately after the Beatitudes.

In fact not many people want to be become like salt. We would prefer a more attractive metaphor. How about, “You are the sugar of the earth, but if the sugar should lose its sweetness, it is tossed out the doors and trodden under foot by men”? Living in a sugar-addicted world, surely sugar would be a much more welcome term for modern people. Salt is out-of-date.

Unfortunately we are stuck with the Gospel Christ gave us rather than the one we might write ourselves. Jesus tells his followers that we are intended to be like salt, a bitter substance normally used in relatively small amounts.

Perhaps salt was more valued by our ancestors. In commentaries on this passage, the Church Fathers stress the value of salt as a preservative and thus a life-saving substance. “Salt preserves meat from decaying into stench and worms,” says Origen. “It makes meat edible for a longer period.” [Fragment 91]

St. John Chrysostom comments on the salt metaphor in these words:

“It is a matter of absolute necessity that he commands all this. Why must you be salt? Jesus says in effect: ‘You are accountable not only for your own life but also for that of the entire world. I am sending you not to one or two cities, nor to ten or twenty, not even to one nation, as I sent the prophets. Rather I am sending you to the entire earth, across the seas, to the whole world, to a world fallen into an evil state.’ For by saying, ‘You are the salt of the earth,” Jesus signifies that all human nature has ‘lost its taste,’ having become rotten through sin. For this reason, you see, he requires from his disciples those character traits that are most necessary and useful for the benefit of all.” [On the Gospel of St. Matthew, Homily 15,6; translation published in Ancient Christian Commentary on Scripture, Matthew, vol. 1A, p 92.]

There is a great deal of salt in the Gospel, and not much sugar.

In the Sermon on the Mount, Christ identifies peacemakers as God’s own children, but peacemaking is often a bitter, salt-like undertaking. To stand against hatred and killing in time of war — which is usually what time it is — is no sweet task. One is likely to be regarded as naive if not stupid, unpatriotic if not a traitor.

Yet at each and every service Orthodox Christians hear the challenge: “In peace let us pray to the Lord.”

We begin the Liturgy with an appeal to God not just for a private personal peace or the peace of our family or the peace of the parish community or the peace of our neighborhood or the peace of city or the peace of our nation, but “for the peace of the whole world and the union of all.” The Great Litany of Peace draws our attention to the world-embracing mission of the Church that St. John Chrysostom emphasized in the passage I just read to you. We are, he said, “accountable not only for [our] own life but also for that of the entire world.”

Prayer is not a request that God do something or give something that I am unable to do or give. Prayer is a summons to responsibility. What I ask God to do implies a willingness on my part to participate in God’s answer to my prayer. If I am unwilling to help in doing what I ask God to do, can it even be thought of as prayer? Why would God do at my request what I refuse take part in doing? We are talking then not only about what we ask God to do but what we are asking God to equip us to do. If we ask for peace, the peace of the whole world, then we must be willing to become people doing whatever we can that contributes to the peace of the whole world.

Consider three key words: Orthodox, Christian and peace.

The word “orthodox” is frequently used as a synonym for rigidity. Not often is it understood in its real sense: the true way to give praise or true belief. Attach it to the word “Christian” and it becomes term of recognition: an Orthodox Christian is someone trying to live according to the Gospel, someone who regards the word and the example of Christ as all important. The only book we place on the altar contains nothing but the four Gospels. We may have far to go in our efforts to follow Christ, but this is the direction we’re trying to take. “To be an Orthodox Christian,” said Metropolitan Anthony Bloom, “is to attempt to live a Christ-centered life. We should try to live in such a way that if the Gospels were lost, they could be re-written by looking at us.”

To be an Orthodox Christian means belonging to the Orthodox Church. It isn’t possible to follow Christ and remain alone. As a member of the Church, I am part of a huge, time-spanning community of people with a collective memory that goes back as far Adam and Eve. It is a community that includes the Church Fathers, whose words we not only store on our books shelves but are encouraged to read.

It is also a Church of Councils. We hold ourselves accountable to the results of the ecumenical councils even though they took place centuries ago. It means I don’t let my own opinions or those of my neighbors take charge of my faith. This requires guarding myself from the various ideologies that dominate the world I live in.

We are also a Church of saints. Day by day we remember as they take their turns on the church calendar. We bear their names. We call on them for help. We remember what they did and what they said. We have icons of some of them in our churches and homes.

Attention to the Church Fathers and the saints can be bewildering experience. For example we discover one Church Father showers the highest praise on marriage while another regards marriage as a barely tolerable compromise for those unable to embrace the real Christian calling: celibate monastic life. It can be disconcerting to discover that on various questions different Church Fathers may have different ideas or different emphases or just plain disagree.

Or we look at the saints and find one who was martyred for refusing to be a soldier, then the next day discover a saint who was a hero on the battlefield. Or we read about a saint who wore the rich clothing of a prince and then find another saint whose only clothing was his uncut beard. Here is a saint who was a great scholar while there is a saint who was a holy fool. Here is a saint who raced to the desert, someone like St. Anthony, while over there is a saint who refused to leave the city and was critical of those who did — for example St. Maria Skobtsova of Paris. Each saint poses a challenge and each saint raises certain questions and even certain problems. The puzzle pieces don’t always fit. We discover that neither the Church Fathers nor the saints on the calendar are a marching band, all in step and playing in perfect harmony.

It isn’t always clear what in a particular saint’s life placed him or her on the Church’s calendar. Do we have icons of St Alexander Nevsky because he defeated the Teutonic Knights, or was it because, preferring negotiations and compromise to war, he negotiated with the Golden Horde and made compromises with them? Or was it because, later in his life, he set aside military and political duties and instead embraced a repentant monastic life?

Devotion to the saints solves some problems and raises others. In the details of their lives, they march in a thousand different directions. They also made mistakes. They were not saints every minute of every day. They too were sinners. Like us, they confessed their sins, seeking God’s forgiveness for serious faults. But their virtues overwhelmed their shortcomings. In different ways, each saint gives us a window for seeing Christ and his Gospel more clearly.

A final comment about the word “Orthodox”: It means, as St. Paul insists, that we are no longer Greek nor Jew. Nationality is secondary. It is not the national flag that is placed on the altar but the Gospel. For us, even though we find ourselves in an Orthodox Church divided on national or jurisdictional lines, it means, in our primary identity, we are no longer American or Russian or Egyptian or Serbian. Rather we are one people united in baptism and faith whose identity and responsibility includes but goes beyond the land where we were born or the culture and mother tongue that shaped us. The main thing, the banner headline, is that I am trying to follow Christ, to live according to the Gospel, and participate in the sacramental mysteries.

On to the next word: “peace.” Let us admit right away that this is a damaged word. It’s like an icon I once encountered in Moscow, at the parish of Saints Cosmas and Damian, that had been so blackened by candle smoke that the image was completely hidden. I spent an afternoon watching two restorers at work. Little by little, using alcohol and little balls of cotton, they cleaned the icon until finally we could see it bore the image of St. Nicholas. Long hidden, beautiful colors began to shine. There he was, a saint who is, in the Orthodox memory, the model of the perfect pastor. I realized I was watching a tiny resurrection.

“Peace” is a word that has been covered with a lots of smoke from the fires of propaganda, politics, ideologies, war and nationalism. In Soviet Russia there were those omnipresent slogans proclaiming peace while the Church was often obliged to take part in state-organized and state-scripted “peace” events. And in American, as a boy growing up in New Jersey, it was almost the same. “Peace is our profession” was the slogan of the Strategic Air Command, the wing of the military whose apocalyptic work was work was their readiness to kill millions of people with nuclear weapons.

Such abuse of words is what George Orwell called Newspeak. But “peace” is a word that has also been at times abused by peace movements. Anti-war groups often reveal less about peace than about anger, alienation and even hatred. It’s always a surprise to find a peace group that regards unborn children as among those whose lives need to be protected.

In wartime talk of peace can put you on very thin ice. I recently heard a story that dates back to the first Gulf War. Three clergymen were being interviewed on television. Two of them insisted that the war was a good and just war and had God’s blessing. The third opened his Bible and read aloud the words of Jesus: “Blessed are the peacemakers… Love your enemies…” But he was cut short by a shout from the angry pastor next to him: “That’s not relevant now! We’re at war!”

War does this to us. Parts of the Gospel are simply abandoned. They are seen as temporarily irrelevant, an embarrassment to the patriotic Christian. “Peace” is put in the deep freeze, a word to be thawed out after the war is over. Thus the salt loses it savor and sugar takes its place.

Part of our job is to clean words like “peace.” It’s a work similar to icon restoration. Otherwise it will be hard to understand the Gospel or the Liturgy and impossible to translate the Gospel and the Liturgy into daily life.

Consider how often and in what significant ways Christ uses the word “peace” in the Gospel:

“And if the house is worthy, let your peace come upon it.” “And he awoke and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, ‘Peace! Be still!’” “And he said to her, ‘Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease.’” “And he said to the woman, ‘Your faith has saved you; go in peace.’” “Whatever house you enter, first say, ‘Peace be to this house!’” “Would that even today you knew the things that make for peace!” “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” His greeting after the resurrection is, “Peace be with you.” Once again we come upon the metaphor of salt: “Have salt in yourselves, and be at peace with one another.” (Mark 9:50)

Peace is one of the essential characteristics of the Kingdom of God.

In the Slavic liturgical tradition, the custom is to sing the Beatitudes at almost every Liturgy, doing so while the book of the Four Gospels is carried in procession through the church. Why? Because the Beatitudes are a short summary of the Gospel. These few verses describe a kind of ladder to heaven, starting with poverty of spirit and ascending to readiness to suffer for Christ and at last participation in the Paschal joy of Christ. Very near the top of the ladder we come to the words, “Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called children of God.”

Christ’s peace is not passive nor has it anything to do with the behavior of a coward or of the person who is polite rather than truthful. Christ says, in Matthew’s Gospel: “Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword.” He means the sword metaphorically, as Luke makes clear in his version of the same passage: “Do you think that I have come to give peace on earth? No, I tell you, but rather division.” To live truthfully rather than flow with the tide means most of time to swim against the tide and to risk penalties if not punishment for doing so. Christ had, and still has, opponents. Christ’s words and actions often brought his opponents’ blood to a boil. Think of his words of protest about the teachings of the Pharisees who laid burdens of others they would not carry themselves. Think of him chasing the money changers from the Temple. No one was killed or injured but God’s lightning flashed in the Temple courtyard.

Jesus speaks the truth, no matter how dangerous a task that may be. He gives us an example of spiritual and verbal combat. Yet his hands are innocent of bloodshed. Think about the simple but not unimportant fact that Christ never killed anyone. Neither did he bless any of his followers to kill anyone. There are many ways in which Christ is unique. This is one of them. His final healing miracle before his crucifixion was to heal the injury of a temple guard whom Peter had wounded. He who preached the love of enemies took a moment to heal an enemy when he was on his way to the Cross.

In the early centuries, Christians got into a lot of trouble for their attitude toward the state. You get a sense of what that was like in this passage from Second Century hieromartyr, St. Justin:

“From Jerusalem there went out into the world, men, twelve in number, and these illiterate, of no ability in speaking: but by the power of God they proclaimed to every race of men that they were sent by Christ to teach to all the word of God; and we who formerly used to murder one another do not only now refrain from making war upon our enemies, but also, that we may not lie nor deceive our examiners, willingly die confessing Christ.” [First Apology, Chapter 39]

The main problem for early Christians, the problem that so often got them into trouble, was their refusal of to regard any ruler as a god. This doesn’t mean simply a ruler who claims to be a god but the persistent tendency of rulers down to the present day to behave as gods and expect to be treated as gods. The Christians were obedient members of society in every way they could be without disobeying God, but they were prepared to suffer even the most cruel death rather than place obedience to Caesar before obedience to God. (Another hallmark of Christians in the Roman age was their staunch opposition to abortion as well as to the abandoning of newborn infants to die of exposure. Christians often saved the lives of abandoned children.)

While eventually the baptismal requirements of the Church were relaxed, it was once the case that those who did not renounce killing, whether as a soldier or judge, could not be baptized. It is still the case that those who have killed another human being, even in self defense or by accident, are not permitted to serve at the altar. The reason is that one who serves at the altar is supposed to be a person without blood-stained hands. Presumably this canon also excludes a person whose words incite others to shed blood. In fact ideally every person would approach the chalice without blood on his hands, but the Church is a channel of Christ’s mercy and receives for communion those who have repented of their sins, even the sin of murder.

What’s the problem? Killing in war is often awarded with medals. Aren’t soldiers only doing their duty, however horrible it may be? Is there not virtue in their deeds, however bloody? I am reminded of an interview with an American soldier in Iraq that I happened to hear on television: “A part of your soul is destroyed in killing someone else.” The Church looks for ways to heal such wounds.

Christ is not simply an advocate of peace or an example of peace. He is peace. To be a student of Christ, to want to live a Christ-like life, means to want to participate in the peace of Christ. Yes, we may fail, as we fail in so many things, turning to Christ for forgiveness, but we are never permitted to give up trying.

How do we give a witness to Christ’s peace, especially in time of war? There are at least seven aspects of doing this.

The first is loving our enemies. But here we have to repair a damaged word. Love has been sentimentalized. It has come to mean a nice feeling we have toward a person whom we especially enjoy seeing and being with. But the biblical meaning of the word is quite different. Christ calls on his followers to love their enemies. If you understand love as a euphoric feeling or pleasant sentiment, fulfilling this commandment is impossible. But if you understand love as doing what you can to protect the life and seek the salvation of a person or group whom we fear and hate, that’s very different.

Jesus links love of enemies with prayer for them. This is an essential aspect of loving enemies. Without prayer, love of enemies is impossible. One of the saints who gave special emphasis to this theme was the 20th century monk St. Silouan of the Holy Mountain, who became a monk after nearly killing another young man in his village — in fact for some minutes he thought he had become a murderer. Not long afterward, he went to Mount Athos. Much of his teaching later in life centered on love of enemies. “He who does not love his enemies,” he insisted, “does not have God’s grace.”

The second aspect is doing good to enemies. Jesus teaches his followers, “Do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you.” (Luke 6:28)

Jesus’ teaching about a compassionate response to enemies was not new doctrine. We find in the Mosaic Law: “If you meet your enemy’s ox or his donkey going astray, you shall bring it back to him. If you see the donkey of one who hates you lying under a burden, you shall refrain from leaving him with it.” (Exodus 23:4-5)

St. Paul goes further: “Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly; never be conceited. Repay no one evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends upon you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God; for it is written, ‘Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.’ No, if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by doing so you will reap burning coals upon his head. Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Rom. 12:20-21)

Christ’s teaching to do good to enemies is generally viewed has unrealistic. In fact, it is a teaching full of common sense. Unless we want to pave the way to a tragic future, we must search for opportunities through which we can demonstrate to an opponent our longing for an entirely different kind of relationship. An adversary’s moment of need or crisis can provide that opening.

The third aspect is turning the other cheek. In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus says, “If someone strikes you on the cheek, offer him the other also.” (Mt.5:39; Luke 6:29)

Contrast this with the advice provided in the average film or novel, where the standard message might be described as “The Gospel According to John Wayne.” How many films replay the same grim message: the job of the good people is to kill the bad people. This pseudo-gospel’s basic message is: If you are hit, hit back. Let your blow be harder than the one you received. In fact, as we saw in the US attack on Iraq in 2003, you needn’t be hit at all in order to strike others. Provocation, irritation, or the fear of attack is warrant enough.

“Turning the other cheek” is often seen as an especially suspect Christian teaching. Many say it is Jesus at his most unrealistic: “Human beings just aren’t made that way.” For a great many people the problem can be put even more simply: “Turning the other cheek isn’t manly. Only cowards turn the other cheek.” But what cowards actually do is run and hide. Standing in front of a violent man, refusing to get out of his way, takes enormous courage. It is manly and often proves to be the more sensible response. It’s also a way of giving witness to confidence in the reality and power of the resurrection.

The fourth aspect is forgiveness. Nothing is more fundamental to Jesus’ teaching than his call to forgiveness: giving up debts, letting go of grievances, pardoning those who have harmed us, not despairing of the other. Every time we say the Lord’s Prayer, we are telling God that we ask to be forgiven only insofar as we ourselves have extended forgiveness to others: “And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.” (Mt.6:12; Luke 11:2-4)

Who doesn’t know how much easier it is to ask God to forgive us rather than to extend forgiveness to others? For we are wounded and the wounds often last a lifetime; they even spill across generations. As children, as parents, as husbands or wives, as families, as workers, as jobless people, as church members, as members of certain classes or races, as voters, as citizens of particular states, we have been violated, made a target, lied to, used, abandoned. Sins, often quite serious sins, have been committed against us. We may feel damaged, scarred for life, stunted. Others we love may even have died of evil done to them.

But we are not only victims. In various ways we are linked to injuries others have suffered and are suffering. If I allow myself to see how far the ripples extend from my small life, I will discover that not only in my own home but on the far side of the planet there are people whose sorrows in life are partly due to me. Through what I have done or failed to do, through what my community has done or failed to do, there are others whose lives are more wretched than they might have been. There are those dying while we feast.

We are moved to condemn the evils we see in others and to excuse, even justify the evils we practice ourselves. We fail to realize that those who threaten us feel threatened by us, and often have good reasons for their fears. The problem is not simply a personal issue, for the greatest sins of enmity are committed en masse, with very few people feeling any personal responsibility for the destruction they share in doing or preparing. The words of Holocaust administrator Adolph Eichmann, “I was only following orders,” are among humanity’s most frequently repeated justifications for murder, heard as often from those who profess religious convictions as from those who deny them.

The fifth aspect is breaking down the dividing wall of enmity. In Christ enmity is destroyed, Saint Paul wrote, “for he is our peace, who has made us both one, and has broken down the dividing wall of enmity… that he might create in himself one new person in place of two, so making peace, and might reconcile us both to God in one body through the cross, thereby bringing enmity to an end.” (Eph. 2:14-16)

Walls would have been on Paul’s mind at the time; in the same letter he mentions that he is “a prisoner for the Lord.” His words of guidance were sent from within the stone walls of a prison.

As an example consider Christ’s response to the centurion who asked him to heal a sick servant. It must have been hard for his more zealot-minded disciples to see Jesus responding positively to the appeal of an officer in an army of occupation and galling to hear him commenting afterward, “I tell you, not even in Israel have I found such faith.” In this brief encounter, the dividing wall of enmity collapsed.

We live in a world of walls. Competition, contempt, repression, racism, nationalism, violence and domination: all these are seen as normal and sane. Enmity is ordinary. Self and self-interest form the centering point in many lives. We tend to be a fear-driven people. Love and the refusal to center one’s life in enmity are dismissed as naive, idealistic, even unpatriotic, especially if one reaches out constructively to hated minorities or national enemies.

Many wars are in the progress at the moment, with many thousands of Americans involved in combat operations in Iraq and Afghanistan. The cost in money, homes destroyed, damaged sanity, in lives and injuries is phenomenal. Children and their mother dead, parents and grandparents. All sorts of people. Countless hideous wounds, visible and hidden. There are also less tangible costs, spiritually, psychologically, for we have become a people who make war and preparations for war a major part of our lives. We hear of many people who expect to die in a violent death and who live in a constant state of “low grade” depression. Fear and despair are widespread. Various stress-relieving pills, which already sold well before September 11, are selling better than ever in today’s world.

The sixth aspect is nonviolent resistance to evil. In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus teaches, “You have heard that it was said, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.’ But I say to you, do not resist the one who is evil.” (Mt. 5:38-39) When Peter used violence to defend Jesus, he was instantly admonished, “Put away your sword, for whoever lives by the sword will perish by the sword.” (Mt 26:52)

For several hundred years following the resurrection, the followers of Jesus were renowned for their refusal to perform military service. But since the state became a patron of Christianity, Christians have been as likely as any other people to take up the sword and use it in appalling ways.

The refusal to kill others can be a powerful witness, yet Christian life is far more than the avoidance of evil. It is searching for ways to combat evil without using methods that inevitably result in the death of the innocent.

Responding to evil with its own weapons, even with the best of motives, often results in actions which mimic those of the enemy, or even outdo the enemy’s use of abhorrent methods. When Nazi forces bombed cities, there was profound revulsion in Britain and the United States, but in the end the greatest acts of city destruction were done by Britain and the United States.

Yet what is one to do? Christians cannot be passive about those events and structures that cause innocent suffering and death.

For centuries men and women have been searching for effective ways of both protecting life and combating evil. It is only in the past hundred years, because of movements associated with such people as Gandhi, Martin Luther King and Dorothy Day, that nonviolent struggle has become a recognized alternative to passivity, on the one hand, and violence on the other.

Yet such acts of nonviolent protest are far from unknown in the Orthodox Church. One powerful example occurred in Constantinople in the year 842 when, opposing the iconoclast Emperor Leo V, a thousand monks took part in an icon-bearing procession in the capital city. They were exhibiting in public images of Christ and the saints which, had they obeyed the emperor, should have long before been destroyed. Their act of civil disobedience risked severe punishment. Iconographers had been tortured, mutilated and sent into exile. Thousands of icons had been destroyed. The death of the emperor later that year was widely seen as heaven’s judgment. In 843 his widow Theodora convened a Church Council which reaffirmed the place of the icon in Christian life. In the Orthodox Church, the first Sunday of Great Lent was set aside henceforth to celebrate the Triumph of Orthodoxy.

There is one last element of peacemaking: It is aspiring to a life of recognizing Jesus. At his teaching about the Last Judgment, Christ tells us, “Truly, I say to you, what you did it to one of the least of these, you did to me.” (Mt. 25:31-46) It’s a scene represented in icons and relief carvings in many ancient churches.

Looking at such images, occasionally the question is raised: “Why are we judged together and not one by one when we die?” It is because each person’s life is far from over when he dies. Our acts of love and failures to love continue to have consequences until the end of history. What Adam and Eve did, what Moses did, what Herod did, what Pilate did, what the Apostles did, what Caesar did, what Hitler did, what Martin Luther King did, what Dorothy Day did, what you and I have done — all these lives, with their life-saving or murderous content, continue to have consequences every single day for the rest of history. What you and I do, and what we fail to do, will matter forever.

It weighs heavily on many people that Jesus preached not only heaven but hell. There are quite a lot of references to hell in the gospels, many in the Sermon on the Mount. How can a loving God allow a place devoid of love?

The only response to that question which makes sense to me was a sermon I heard in Prague in 1964. The preacher was a particularly courageous man who has seen a great deal of prison from the inside. He reminded us that God allows us to go wherever we are going. We are not forced to love. Communion is not forced on us. We are not forced to recognize God’s presence. It is all an invitation. We can choose. We can choose life or death. Perhaps, in God’s mercy, we can even make the choice of heaven while in hell. In his book, The Great Divorce, C.S. Lewis imagines a tour bus leaving daily from hell to heaven. But the bus is never full and tends to return with as many passengers as it took on the trip out of hell. The brightness of heaven is too painful, the light too intense, the edges too sharp, for those who have acclimated themselves to the smog of hell. In fact the older we are, the more we live by old choices, and defend those choices, and makes ideologies, philosophies, even theologies out of our choices. We canonize our choices by repetition. We can say, not just once but forever, as Peter once said of Jesus, “I do not know the man.” There are so many people about whom we can say, to our eternal peril, “I do not know the man,” to which we can add he is worthless, has no one to blame for his troubles but himself, that his problems aren’t our business, that he is an enemy, that he deserves to die whether of hunger, frostbite or violence matters little.

As St. John Chrysostom said, “If you cannot find Christ in the beggar at the church door, you will not find Him in the chalice.” If I cannot find the face of Jesus in the face of those who are my enemies, if I cannot find him in the unbeautiful, if I cannot find him in those who have the wrong ideas, if I cannot find him in the poor and the defeated, how will I find him in bread and wine, or in the life after death? If I do not reach out in this world to those with whom he has identified himself, why do I imagine that I will want to be with him, and them, in heaven? Why would I want to be for all eternity in the company of those whom I hated and avoided every day of my life?

Christ’s Kingdom would be hell for those who avoided peace and devoted their lives to division. But heaven is right in front of us. At the heart of what Jesus says in every act and parable is this: Now, this minute, we can enter the Kingdom of God. This very day we can sing the Paschal hymn: “Christ is risen from the dead, trampling down death by death, and to those in the tomb he has given life!”

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Jim Forest is international secretary of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship (incommunion.org) and author of numerous books, including Loving Our Enemies: Reflections on the Hardest Commandment, Ladder of the Beatitudes, Praying With Icons, Confession: Doorway to Forgiveness, The Road to Emmaus: Pilgrimage as a Way of Life, and The Root of War is Fear: Thomas Merton’s Advice to Peacemakers. Web site: www.jimandnancyforest.com. The text is based on a lecture given at St. Vladimir’s Seminary, Crestwood, New York.

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Honorius, who inherited the empire of Europe, put a stop to the gladiatorial combats which had long been held at Rome. The occasion of his doing so arose from the following circumstance. A certain man of the name of Telemachus had embraced the ascetic life. He had set out from the East and for this reason had repaired to Rome. There, when the abominable spectacle was being exhibited, he went himself into the stadium, and stepping down into the arena, endeavored to stop the men who were wielding their weapons against one another. The spectators of the slaughter were indignant, and inspired by the mad fury of the demon who delights in those bloody deeds, stoned the peacemaker to death. When the admirable emperor [Honorius] was informed of this, he recognized Telemachus as a victorious martyr, and put an end to that impious spectacle.

— Theodoret of Cyrus (393-457)

The Ecclesiastical History, book 5, chapter 26

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Fall 2009 issue of In Communion / IC 54

The Harrisburg Conspiracy: The Berrigans and the Catholic Left

[published in WIN magazine, journal of the War Resisters League, issue dated March 15, 1973; this text has been scanned in 2012 — apologies for all uncorrected typos that may have crept in]

By Jim Forest

By the time this is published, it will be more than two years since various friends of mine, and friends-to-be, were arrested and charged with a conspiracy to kidnap Henry Kissinger and to blow up heating tunnels in Washington (or, as Eqbal Ahmad sometimes put it, charged with planning to blow up Kissinger and kidnap heating tunnels.)

Since those initial arrests two others were added, making eight in all: Phil Berrigan, Liz McAlister, Eqbal Ahmad, Ted Glick, Mary Cain and Tony Scoblick, and Joe Wenderoth and Neil McLaughlin. (Ted never came to trial, the consequence of his determination to be his own lawyer.)

I was asked by the eight toward the end of the trial to work with them on a book. Originally it was to be a book of essays which I would help them prepare, edit and for which I would write an introduction. Then a friend with one of the publishing houses became excited about a different approach, a novel-like narrative, and that was accepted. The Alfred A. Knopf publishing firm ended up offering a contract. And for months I was involved in researching the project, finding that my work with the defense committee during previous months had given me very little that was useful to the book. I carried on an extensive correspondence with Phil Berrigan and had long meetings with the others, sometimes staying under the same roof with them or coming along on trips. A mountain of information finally accumulated; I knew more than I had ever hoped to know about anything. And the writing was underway.

Then a book appeared which prompted me (despite the fact that the advance from Knopf had long since come and been spent) to put the project aside. The book was by Bill O’Rourke. His publisher, Crowell. had titled it The Harrisburg Seven and The New Catholic Left; I would have preferred Bill’s proposed title — Sentenced to Hope. He had written, in my view (though not in the view of a number of my friends), an extraordinary perceptive account not only of the trial he had experienced, but of the resistance community, and most especially its religious contingent. (I also respected Jack Nelson and Roland Ostrow’s book, The FBI and the Berrigans, published by Coward McCann, but it didn’t surprise or move me as O’Rourke’s did. Their book is useful mainly for its careful factual accuracy regarding the trial.)

So it seemed to me that to write the book as planned would be, thanks to O’Rourke, pretty much like repainting a freshly painted house. Instead, with the encouragement of the editors of WIN magazine, I am only trying to paint a few of the rooms inside, places neither book was willing or able to go.

The bulk of what follows has nothing to do with what happened in Harrisburg; it concerns the events preceding the trial. There is a postscript about the trial, but it doesn’t do the event itself any kind of justice.

Thanks are due to the defendants especially, who must have found me something to endure at times; to Dan Berrigan, who would have preferred the book to this but who will admit neither could have occurred without him; to my son, Ben, who put up with my absences and noisy typing’; to Carol Bernstein, whose encouragement has been especially practical; to Stuart Schaar, Rosemary Radford Ruether, Alice Mayhew, Gerry McCauley, Ed Victor, Mary Daly; to the people at WIN and their extraordinary homemade beer.

— Jim Forest

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The toothbrush-armed Jesuit

Never had ring-around-the-rosy been played around so ashen a flower: J. Edgar Hoover, whose face seemed made of old wanted posters.

Dan Berrigan, violating the rules of both Gandhi and the Justice Department, had refused to escort himself to the jailers and had, in both pacifist and Pentagon heresy, jumped into an apostle costume and danced away from legitimate authority. He was like that French child who was led away from approved activities by a red balloon, until finally a convention of balloons took him into the sky from a Paris hilltop in an unauthorized liturgy of the resurrection.

Thus the Harrisburg case began. A playful man and good cook, a priest and poet who could not adjust to all the world’s rehearsed responses so long as children were for burning: he disappeared without so much as a doctor’s note to the teacher. Within sight of a battalion of FBI agents, in an auditorium filled to overflowing, Dan stepped into a ten-foot Bread-and-Puppet-Theater costume of one of the saints and evaporated in a shift of lights and curtains, ending up later that night in the woods like Robin Hood after a day flaunting the sheriff of Nottingham in Sherwood Forest.

All the analogies of his exodus are of play. Appropriately. The premeditation was slight. Toothbrush in pocket, he had expected to sleep that night behind bars, beginning three years of court ordered penance for the help he had given in burning several reams of paper on which were written the names and addresses of some Maryland boys who hadn’t volunteered for the military.

Daniel Berrigan, Jesuit and fugitive. Dangerous paper burner at large. “The fugitive has been known to carry matches and thus should be approached with extreme caution.” A Catholic priest on the FBI’s most-wanted list! Notorious advocate of bread and wine. Disturber of war. Wanted!

In a state of grace

There had been a day when American Catholic loyalty to the U.S. government was proverbial. On the one hand, Catholics had arrived in America from countries where malnutrition and even starvation were occurring; they arrived in a nation with a voracious appetite for able-bodied workers and, despite anti-Catholic prejudices, they were able to survive, set up a huge network of schools, churches and hospitals and finally become the stuff of movies that moved Protestant as well as Catholic hearts: “The Keys of the Kingdom,” “The Bells of St. Mary’s” and “Boys’ Town,” after which the election of a Catholic president had simply to await its day.

On the other hand, Catholics had witnessed the ruthless repression of church activities in a number of societies that advertised themselves as revolutionary. For many Catholics, the word “revolution” groaned under the weight of horrendous images of nuns being raped, consecrated bread being thrown into latrines or given to hogs, priests summarily executed, bishops in prison, seminaries closed, churches seized. With only rare exceptions, radicals treated religious institutions as a major cause of the contagion of oppression; churches were called the chaplains of oppression.

The radical criticism of the churches was often justified, but it made little contact with realities American Catholics knew about, for it was the institutional church, more than any other social structure, which struggled for the successful integration of Catholic immigrants into their adopted homeland. In a rather mysterious choice of language for so patriotic an announcement, “Pro Deo et Patria” — for God and Country — was carved into the facade of thousands of Catholic schools. Obedience was high on the list of religious and civic virtues: Parents, nuns, priests, policemen, governors, pope, president, all were seen as being vested in the same mantle of authority. Obedience was not just a matter of obeying the law or even of surviving — it was a prerequisite to being (to use a Catholic phrase now under a mantle of dust) “in a state of grace.”

Radical orthodoxy

The FBI is still well known for the number of ex-seminarians in its ranks. How, then, did it happen that a priest should become the object of an FBI manhunt?

The answer could be put several ways. For one, the cultural assimilation of Catholics was symbolically completed with the election of John F. Kennedy. Catholics were no longer considered to be agents of the Vatican and so were free to play a more independent role in American society. Simultaneously the Vatican, for its part, had a saint in residence, John XXIII, who astonished everyone by inviting his church to experience several years of what proved to be a revolutionary conversation — the Second Vatican Council. Among the traditions that were changed was the advice that, when an individual’s conscience was in a state of doubt, the individual should defer to the state’s direction. One of the finer definitions of conscience to have ever been written became part of the Council’s final declaration. Conscientious objection was given detailed support, to the horror of those bishops, cardinals and theologians who always maintained that no Catholic could be a conscientious objector. Resistance and disobedience to unjust orders (orders “violating the natural law”) were praised. The Council said, “Human dignity demands that each one act freely, not under mere internal impulse nor blind external pressure.”

Then there was the Catholic Worker movement. Born in New York on May Day, 1933, it became an eccentric but influential part of the American Catholic community. Its life and politics were founded in that part of St. Matthew’s Gospel that lists what Catholic tradition knows as “the works of mercy”: feeding the hungry, giving drink to the thirsty, offering hospitality to the homeless, clothing the naked, helping the sick, visiting the prisoner. Catholic Worker communities not only responded concretely to all those works, but found implicit in them another order: to change those ideas and institutions of society that needlessly caused such suffering, neglect and death — the varieties of violence, the omnipresent, ageless war that has been going on since Cain and Abel. “THE WORKS OF MERCY VERSUS THE WORKS OF WAR,” a Catholic Worker headline occasionally declared.

In most respects the Catholic Worker was orthodoxy incarnate. Its publisher and founder, Dorothy Day, firmly declared she would close down the pacifist monthly paper  should anyone in authority within the Church direct her to do so. The most likely to do that was ultra-patriotic Francis Cardinal Spellman, but he never did. He would occasionally meet with Dorothy Day and show her a few of the highly critical letters he received about the CW, but he did no more than that.

Because of Dorothy’s extreme loyalty to the institutional church and her obvious (if sometimes rough shod) holiness, she impressed even her most determined ecclesiastical opponents, so much so that her tendency to be disobedient in the secular world was tolerated. Not only Dorothy Day but quite a number of Catholic Worker people went off to prison for activities on behalf of unions, decent housing, civil rights and world peace. In the late 50s and the early 60s, Dorothy Day was one of several Catholic Workers who joined with other pacifists (especially from the War Resisters League) in refusing to join in New York’s annual atomic war game, in which all the citizenry was supposed to go into subways and basements in make-pretend readiness for a atomic attack from Russia. The Catholic Worker people were among those who thought it obvious that subway stations would provide scanty protection from a nuclear explosion and proposed that disarmament was a less dangerous course.

Among the many people who grew up with the Catholic Worker’s penny tabloid in their household were Dan and Phil Berrigan.

Guilty of reading The Book

But the most decisive factor was the faith itself: gospels, sacraments, incarnation, crucifixion, resurrection, feasts and fasts, the life of prayer, the stories of the saints. Dan Berrigan has often pleaded guilty of attempting to read the New Testament. Probably his most treasured possession at this moment is the frayed copy of the Bible that was used by Phil in several prisons and which was with them before Phil’s capture — page upon page is filled with notations in Phil’s hand, lines and paragraphs underlined, exclamation marks’ the margins. “It’s a book that has really verified itself,” Dan points out. “Philip read from the New Testament,” he adds, “and they couldn’t stand it. That was his crime!”

Puzzling ideas for a great many persons. How could a book that has housebroken so many have something decisive to do with the holy trouble-making that resisters have brought to this war-making nation? The cross as radical symbol? The resurrection a political event? Well, the answer won’t be found here; that isn’t what this is about. But is a fact that many war resisters come directly out of a radical Christian tradition. Among books that touch on this tradition are Dorothy autobiography, The Long Loneliness, and her history of the Catholic Worker, Loaves and Fishes; Jim Douglass’ two books, The Nonviolent Cross and Resistance and Contemplation; the many books by Dan and Phil Berrigan; church historian Roland Bainton’s book, Christian Attitudes Toward War and Peace; a collection of essays called Thomas Merton on Peace. (Merton, a priest, monk and poet, became a kind of godfather to religiously-motivated peacemakers.)

The land of burning children

Finally there was the factor of Indochina, “the land of burning children,” as Dan Berrigan named it. It was inevitable that for some of those for whom the Gospels had been opened by the Catholic Worker, and who thus instantly see war as the polar opposite of the works of mercy, opposition to that war would grow increasingly into the first priority of life. Catholic Worker and War Resisters League people, in fact, were among the first to organize demonstrations against the war in Vietnam — such as a small New York picket line of one or two dozen at the South Vietnamese Mission to the United Nations in mid-June of 1963, just after Thich Quang Duc burned himself on Phan-dinh-Phung Street in Saigon.

The following year the Catholic Peace Fellowship was begun, with Phil Berrigan one of its chairpeople and Dan Berrigan saying unauthorized masses for its staff of two (Tom Cornell and myself), making project proposals and helping with money obtained from talks and royalties.

The next year, Dan’s former student, Dave Miller burned his draft card, Roger LaPorte burned himself, and the air war over North Vietnam began.

In 1966 draft resistance became a cutting edge of the peace movement.

In 1967 there was the blood-pouring on draft records in Baltimore.

In 1968 there was the burning of draft records, first in Catonsville, then Milwaukee. And then the proliferation: Chicago, Pasadena, Silver Springs, New York, Washington, the Bronx, Akron, Indianapolis, Midland, Providence, South Bend, Boston, Wilmington… Probably only the Selective Service System headquarters in Washington has the complete list, but there were several dozen major raids — ”actions,” they were usually called — and they came with such exotic names as Women Against Daddy Warbucks, The Four of Us, The Hoover Vacuum Conspiracy, the East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives, and the Flower City Conspiracy.

A confrontation with suffering

It is necessary to briefly recall some of the reasons draft resisters offered in defense of the raids on draft boards (which came to include related raids on such war-centered corporations as Dow and General Electric). The reasons varied and were, at times, even antithetical.

For Phil Berrigan, it was a necessary step along the path toward a nonviolent revolution. “I believe in revolution,” he wrote me at the end of 1967, “and I hope to continue making a nonviolent contribution to it. In my view, we are not going to save this country and mankind without it. And I am centrally concerned with the Gospel view that the massive suffering of this war and American imperialism around the world will only be confronted by people who are willing to go with suffering as the first move to justice.”

He further explained himself in remarks at sentencing in May, 1968.: “Our country now stands at the pinnacle of world power — we are history’s most powerful empire, and perhaps its most dangerous one. We are richer than all the rest of mankind, and our military power surpasses that of all the rest of mankind. The equation between the two, wealth and military power, is not an idle one. As President Johnson has said on a number of occasions, ‘the rest of the world wants what we have, and we’re not going to let them take it.’”

At the time of Phil’s letter, there was a companion to it sent independently by Dan. While on the verge of readiness to undertake significant resistance activity (Catonsville was more than five months in the future), a somewhat different approach is characteristically evident: “The question is whether we are helping people get radical, whether we are content to stay small and do things and encourage actions which will be evangelical and identifiable as such. Or are we trying to present an opposite ‘power’ in the image of the opposite number? Or at least something ‘presentable’ to large numbers of Catholics, and therefore morally neutral — or liberal — but not radical, not at the roots.”

He went on to admit that all this was profoundly painful to himself: “One has experiences, such as the jailings and the threats of jail to those we love; and becomes convinced that equivalent risk is going to be the only source of community worth talking about. And ‘expressive’ acts [such as the blood-pouring that had happened in Baltimore the previous month], once they are thoughtful and proceed from a sacrificing heart, must be multiplied. And that the masses may catch up as they wish, or not. But many will…”

For some the rationale for draft board actions had little or nothing to do with nonviolent revolution, or with community building, or finding contemporary ways to read the Gospels aloud with expressive acts. Their thinking was that the draft is a crucial link in the processes that are killing Indochinese people and that it is possible to hamper its functioning.

It was pointed out that the draft had almost no popular support or enthusiasm, that boards were everywhere and often vulnerable via simple means, and that draft board actions could so multiply that the draft would be severely hampered. Their search was to find immediate ways of making it harder to conscript young men and make killers of them.

Were those who looked for such immediate results naive? It is too early to say. It is clear that Selective Service made it a policy to downplay the impact of the raids; it’s also clear that the impact was more serious than has yet been publicly admitted by Selective Service officials. Hundreds of thousands of draft files were destroyed, and hundreds of draft boards disrupted.

There were also indirect consequences. Many were encouraged by the actions (or by related trials, when they occurred) to undertake resistance of their own — resistance to being drafted, to paying war taxes, to working for war companies. Some sought as well for the more subtle ways war is being newly created — in schools, business, consumer orientations — and set to work at building institutions that wouldn’t have such destructive consequence and wouldn’t produce persons of such withered, frightened conscience.

Community is always a conspiracy

How did actions of the Catonsville variety come about? Were they the result of a single conspiracy? Did everything ultimately depend on the Berrigans or one or two others? The question is critical to the Harrisburg indictment, and there is a response to it written by Sr. Elizabeth McAlister, one of the Harrisburg defendants. This is a hand-written memo prepared for the Harrisburg trial lawyers and first circulated among the other defendants (except for Ted Glick, who by that time had been severed from the trial). The memo is entitled “Community (& conspiracy) — The Action Communities”:

“Conspiracy, as we understand it, is inconceivable without community and perhaps a community is always a conspiracy of one sort or another because it is always a coming together of people for a specific purpose. The action communities formed themselves to take some responsible action, i.e., an action that would be some adequate response to the life and death issues of our time. In each case these communities had the intention of acting on behalf of and to protect life.

“Individual autonomy must be considered an equal notion with community and analogously each community must be considered (and in fact was/is) as autonomous from every other community. It is the individual who brings to the community his or her personal call or inspiration and in the context of the community that call is weighed, discerned. The question is pondered: ‘What spirit moves you?’ This arises from a concept articulated by St. Ignatius [the founder of the Jesuits] called discernment of spirits, and it is part and parcel of the ‘Spiritual Exercises’. [In what appears to be Phil Berrigan’s handwriting, there is a note written in the memo’s margin, “Usually used as retreat meditation by religious communities.”]

“The first exercise of an action community is to examine together what each feels called to. None of us would trust ourselves to act alone on a so-called inspiration that has serious consequences. But we would trust the dynamic within a serious community which is seeking direction and truth and is willing to risk itself. This would be particularly true in a community in which people knew one another well enough to discern what spirit is moving another person — anger, frustration, disappointment, elation — and is coloring their expressions. The community must bring an individual to a perspective of (for want of a better word) greater sanity.

“The community searches out together ways of implementing and acting ‘on the call’ the individuals feel. Community formation was done in the same manner as [traditional religious] retreats. Concerned people went apart together to share their concern, to examine their responsibility for events around them and for the Gospels. They examine together their resources — personal & collective — to meet these responsibilities. Great care was taken in community formation & growth and that includes all that they disc, jail as a possibility, personal obligation to family, other communities, health, etc. Only about 10% (and that may be a high estimate) who took part in the treats went beyond this point.” [Marginal notes by other defendants at this point add that it is import to “describe and point up the whole lack of structure in the retreats, that they didn’t always have the same format, and that different people were resources at different retreats — and that even where there was so continuity from one action community to another, that as a new one formed, it “became more & more independent.”]

Liz goes on:

“[Potential witnesses for the defense] could and should speak to the absence, within these communities, of coercion or psychological violence. Individuals made personal decisions either to act on their insight or not to. Frequently the community would instruct an individual that he or she should not act.

“The object of community is to become together which means to do something. Where communities grew, they became a unit — independent, autonomous, each with its own unique stamp or spirit through the opening up of one another in truth and in love. The only control people had over one another was a sense of nonviolence. Nonviolence was discussed in depth, people tried to grow in that. [Another marginal occurs: “We were involved in a process of changing values, not a continuous ripping off of draft board. If that were the case, people wouldn’t surface but would become an underground group.”]

“A resolution to act was made, as in any retreat, at the end of the examination. The community would then research, plan its action, perform it — consulting at all stages together, growing together, consulting events, consulting conscience.”

Liz then describes the “ministry” that encouraged the retreats that led to the various actions. There were those, she points out, who went from city to city meeting with whomever they could find who seemed drawn to such action communities as had occurred elsewhere. Such travel was the sort of ministry exercised in the early church by such persons as Paul. She quoted from his letter to the Romans, “I am longing to see you… I shall be strengthened by you, each of us helped by the other’s faith.” She noted Paul saying in the same letter, “I have fully preached the Gospel from Jerusalem and the surrounding country as far as Illyricum…”

In a final section of the memo dealing with “development of ‘local’ communities,” Liz points out that the various action groups often persisted together in community, not simply for further actions together against the Selective Service System “but to develop together life styles consistent with their resistance, to seek to live out the alternative values that their action contained, and to develop long-range plans for effective change in the value system in our society.”

She adds (and those who have experienced community will have their legion of supporting memories), “A great deal of energy was spent trying to understand our communities — what was happening to them, why they were not talking to one another or helping one another. There was a pained sense that we were failing our own Gospel mandate in and through some of them.”

“Are you in there, Father?”

These pages began with Dan Berrigan slipping almost playfully into the underground and have proceeded with some account of what it was that brought not only Dan but an entire community to the point where such choices were possible: changes in the church, the Catholic Worker, a willingness to enter into the crisis of the Gospels, the hailstones of the war upon the fragile walls of conscience, the discovery that a great deal more than polite homilies, petitions and picket lines would be needed if Americans were ever to gain an unencumbered vision of the lethal consequences of what has long been — for others — our way of death.

It was on April 9,1970, that Dan and Phil had been ordered to surrender themselves along with the six surviving Catonsville members. (Brother David Darst had been killed in a truck accident while en route to a visit with the Milwaukee 14 in their various Wisconsin prisons.) Also ordered to surrender was Dave Eberhardt of the Baltimore Four. Two had already decided to enter the underground with seriousness — George Mische and Mary Moylan. George was arrested later in Chicago, and Mary Moylan is still “at large.” Dan, Phil and Dave Eberhardt had decided on something more symbolic: they wouldn’t turn themselves in on schedule but they would make advertised public appearances soon afterward.

On April 17, Dan appeared and disappeared at Cornell University. He had thought it would be a fine spot for an arrest, a way “to go with a bang.” But a half hour before the appearance in Cornell’s Barton Hall someone asked Dan, “Wouldn’t you like to disappear again?” A pause of a Peter Pan sort, a glimpse in Dan’s eye of the red balloon making its anarchist pilgrimage away from the local precincts, and the response, “Sure — let’s go.”

The next day Dan, Phil and George Mische had a felonious reunion, and the FBI made an angry appearance at St. Gregory’s Church in Manhattan, where Phil was scheduled to speak the 21st.

On the 20th Liz McAlister, along with an editor of WIN Magazine, met with Dan, Phil and George; the same day Dan decided not to join with Phil as a speaker at St. Gregory’s the 21st. But Dan would come to New York and keep to the shadows. Phil and Dave arrived at St. Gregory’s for the night, with Dan spending the night at a guest room at Liz’s convent on 85th Street, nearby.

The 21st: The FBI arrived with search warrants at 85th Street. Ten minutes before, as it happened, Dan and Liz had left for a better-ventilated location, not at all aware they were involved in a photo-finish escape from Hoover’s disciples. Phil and Dave were less fortunate. Agents poured through the rooms and hallways of St. Gregory’s rectory, looking under tables and beds, hunting through the closets. “Are you in there, Father?” Finally they made their way to the right closet. The notorious spiller of blood on paper, the nefarious recycler of government hunting licenses, Father Philip Berrigan, was in the steel net, in the good company of Dave Eberhardt, a shy bespeckled poet and fellow paper-stainer.

That night, Dr. Eqbal Ahmad — later to become a Harrisburg defendant — read aloud Phil’s prepared remarks at the rally in the church; an estimated 200 police and FBI agents were in and around the church hoping to catch sight of the hooky-playing Jesuit. As it happened, he was in New Jersey.

A determination to communicate

What would become the Harrisburg case was now fully underway. Phil was on his way to Lewisburg, one of the more notorious maximum-security federal prisons. The FBI, in a state that eventually bordered on hysteria, was sifting the universe in search of Dan. Several resistance action groups were in various states of development and would soon be performing their rites of exorcism upon a number of draft boards.

What becomes crucial at this point are three elements dominating Phil’s reaction to his renewed caging: his enormous desire to see the resistance find new ways to continue its religious-political ministry in a way that was at least vaguely adequate to the technological escalations hitting the Indochinese; his relationship with Liz; and the existence of Boyd Douglas.

Phil’s reaction to prison

He had been under lock-and-key before, but prison is something one doesn’t ever adjust to. No one is less likely than Phil to pay the price of adjustment to cages. He is very much the man he appears to be — a certain tangible dignity in the posture, the head held high, back very straight, shoulders square, a kind of Hollywood Central Casting idea of what generals, football coaches and assorted heroes are supposed to look like. He has glint in the eyes of a kind that might have once been noticed in people who made dangerous crossings from familiar to unknown places. A man of rock-hard convictions alive at a time when most of his contemporaries were sinking in the quicksands of their twenty-year plans. And now in prison again, and indeed in maximum security.

When Liz McAlister, having been identified by Phil as his cousin, was finally able to visit him Friday, May 22nd, she was “frankly disturbed.” “He was out of touch,” she recalled. “He did not know what had happened to the statement he wrote for [the St. Gregory’s rally April 21st, which Eqbal had read in his stead]. He did not know that the rally had come off — still less that it had come off well.”

Though an effort had already been made to relay to Phil, via fellow prisoner Boyd Douglas, news of a successful draft board action in Philadelphia, Boyd had apparently botched it and Liz discovered Phil thought the Philadelphia people had been caught: depressing news, as it seemed. “I met real concern about those [Philadelphia] people from Phil.”

“In short,” Liz said, summing up her impression of the May 22nd visit, “lack of information, lack of communication had brought him to a state of anxiety. He asked about everyone and I could give him information only about those I had been in touch with. I came away from Lewisburg with a determination not to let that lapse occur again.”

Escalation of resistance

It is impossible to make any sense of Philip Berrigan’s last six years apart from the priority the war in Indochina was for him. Insofar as writers have ignored the importance of the war in reporting the resistance, “the Catholic left”, or the Harrisburg trial, Phil has judged their observations “very nearly worthless,” as he put it with usual bluntness in a recent letter.

At the time of his capture at St. Gregory’s, Phil was anything but satisfied with what resistance activity had accomplished. During the proceeding months there had been countless conversations with a wide range of friends about new points of vulnerability in the war’s machinery.

A carefully planned raid on the Selective Service’s national headquarters had almost happened, but hours before resisters were to have entered the building, they watched government vans pull up and begin to load tons of draft files.

Next, a plan to knock out a complex of fifteen Washington draft boards had come under careful consideration, with Phil active in the discussion.

Another project that intrigued several members of the Baltimore-Washington resistance community was a recently installed bank of Navy computers in the Forrestal Building. In late February or early March, Phil and Fr. Joe Wenderoth, Joe with an officious clipboard in hand, went into the Forrestal Building, walking right past a guard with Joe saying, “Yes, the measurements seem to be right, be we’ll just have to check ‘em out.” The guard nodded a hello. Finally, with the help of an engineer, they found their way to a tunnel entrance, asked one of the workers on a loading ramp to make sure no one locked it, and entered into a tunnel thick with dust and lined with steam pipes that carried heat to thousands of government offices. (On the way out, walking by another guard, they were stopped by a sudden heart-stopping, “Hey!” They walked over to the guard, already feeling a handcuff chill at their wrists, and found he wanted to bum a cigarette.)

In subsequent weeks, conversation occasionally returned to the tunnels (which are discoverable on Esso city maps, as Ramsey Clark later showed the Harrisburg jurors). The idea of closing down government offices for lack of heat fascinated Phil, but there was no way to do it that was infallibly safe. And while Phil raised the possibility of explosive charges, which seemed the safest way to get at the pipes without risking injuries or steam burns to anyone, he finally agreed with others that explosives, no matter how carefully used, were a kind of symbol that nonviolent resisters had to avoid like the plague. But the idea of finding some way to get at those pipes was still on Phil’s mind when he entered Lewisburg prison.

Phil’s relationship with Liz

This is the most fragile dimension of all in the Harrisburg trial. It wouldn’t be except that there is even today a degree of stigma about Catholic priests and nuns who aren’t immune to love. Much that has been written about the Harrisburg trial and Catholic resisters elsewhere very nearly gloats over any signs of sexuality on the part of those persons Catholics used to call “religious” (as if to be genuinely religious presupposes celibacy). Harper’s, in an article on the Harrisburg trial entitled “Love on Trial”, illustrated the title page with drawings of Liz and Phil in which tiny dots were used to connect their eyes to one another; the editors left a National Enquirer scent to the page.

To understand the commitment that developed between them, it helps to have some clearer understanding of who Liz McAlister is. Born a twin, she says of herself, “We is a pronoun that comes far more naturally than I.” Since 1959, she had belonged to a highly respected and strictly disciplined Catholic order of French origins, the Religious of the Sacred Heart of Mary. It was a life offering few material pleasures but a considerable opportunity for service and a sense of purpose. Liz had “the good fortune or grace,” as she has since said, “of being part of a community of women — intelligent and serious and prayerful — who were searching.” She obtained her B.A. and then Masters Degree, and proceeded to teach art history, showing her students a decided preference for modern art and symbolic form, “form that contains and communicates its meaning,” as she explained her pleasure of symbols to students.

One day one of them asked, “If you believe that about art, then you must support what David Miller just did.” It was 1965, and David had just burned his draft card. Liz, still in her very tidy, floor-length nun’s habit, paused, surprised, and said, “Yes.”

The following year, 1966, she met Phil. The meeting happened at the order’s Provincial House in Tarrytown, where Liz worked as secretary and assistant to Sister Jogues Egan, then regional Provincial of the order and a close friend of Dan Berrigan. (Earlier that day, Phil had celebrated a funeral mass for Al Uhrie, a recently-married member of the Catholic Worker community who had been knifed to death on East 5th Street.)

“She was and is indefatigable, as you know,” Jogues said to me of Liz as we talked at the 85th Street Consent in New York one morning. “She can turn out a tremendous amount of work… Liz is an activist. There’s no doubt about that. She has to do more than think about things or make speeches.”

Phil and Liz saw each other occasionally at social gatherings; the next year brought the experience of working with Jogues and John Grady (now to be tried with the Camden 28) on fund raising for the Baltimore Four, and then attending the trial, a radicalizing event for her as she witnessed how little of what really mattered was admissible as evidence.

In 1968, she came within deep breath of saying yes to involvement in the Catonsville action, even sending a letter Jogues (who was then in Rome) telling her what she had decided to do. But the day before she reluctantly said no — she wasn’t certain enough to plunge her community into the crisis her involvement would cause. “But I felt like a dropout! Like one without courage.”

After Phil’s release on bail in 1968, they came to see a good deal of each other, and since the spring of 1969 carried on an almost daily correspondence. “We grew to love one another very much — without being aware of it for a long time… But we both believed deeply in our respective communities and the religious commitments we had made. He was going to jail and he was concerned about the life of the communities of resistance to which he had given his life. There was not the time, the place, the availability to one another, even the priority to resolve our personal relationship. The choices, if they are choices, are yet to be made — if either of us will ever be free to make them.”

There are elusive qualities in Liz. She belongs to that endangered species for whom the right to privacy remain precious. That makes her as puzzling to many of the counter-culture as it does to the FBI.

Phil’s arrest, Liz recalls, imposed a separation “we were not really prepared for… We had a very real need for some kind of communication with one another but it was hard to write letters that others were reading and when Phil got to Lewisburg and discovered a way of communicating… he grabbed it.”

Boyd Douglas

Boyd Douglas was the way that was discovered.

Phil Berrigan writes elsewhere in this issue of WIN about his reasons for risking so much with Boyd. Phil’s collaborator, Joe Wenderoth, also decided Boyd was trustworthy. He recalled to me their first meeting, when Joe came up to Lewisburg to meet with peace activists on the Bucknell campus: “The essence of the conversation, more than anything else, was Boyd introducing himself. ‘I’m Phil’s friend and I’m here on a study release program. I come out [from the prison] every day around 6 or 7 or 8 o’clock, and I go to class, and I go back around 5:30 or 6 every day. I was in the Springfield institution [a federal prison hospital] for an experimental program in medicine and I sued the government because of these scars.’ I never saw them, by the way, but Tony [Scoblick] did. He gave that story and also showed us his newspaper clippings about his suit against the government and the $15,000 he received in settlement. At that time he told me that Phil had told him about visiting the tunnels and that he was very interested in it.” (Joe went on to say that in his mind the tunnel project was dead and buried and that he was surprised Phil still had it on his mind. But the fact that Phil had told Boyd the story of the tunnel visit “very much” verified Boyd’s trustworthiness so far as Joe was concerned.)

At what point Boyd turned the trust he had with Phil — and thus with Phil’s close friends — into a commercial commodity remains uncertain. Certainly Phil and Liz were especially ripe to be abused by anyone who could allow communication to continue, because of their love for each other and because of their shared urgency to speed the war’s end. But whether Boyd originally meant to exploit an opportunity or genuinely wished to help is still unclear. Cynics wouldn’t hesitate to assume the worst, but the fact is that quite a number of prisoners were transformed by the caring and trust that both Phil and Dan invested in them — some of them are among those who have recently organized the Prisoners Strike for Peace Group.

What is certain is that the FBI was desperately looking for Dan, that hundreds of special agents were involved in the sifting, that J. Edgar Hoover was jabbing his notorious blue commands into the margins of memos (“This subject must be apprehended at the earliest possible time”), and that one of the places to look for leads was in and around Phil Berrigan’s life.

It is in that light that the thorough shakedowns of Phil’s prison cell at that time need to be viewed. All prisoners, of course, are subject to these humiliations, but generally the search is done steam-shovel style, not with an archeologist’s touch for detail.

In any event, on June 2nd, a shakedown produced a letter from Phil to Liz tucked away in the pages of Newsweek magazine. It spoke of an inmate named “Pete” who could safely get things out, but who wasn’t risking bringing letters into the prison. In the letter Phil proposed Liz “codify” important content into the letters she was sending in via officially censored channels. He proposed, as well, that Liz call “Pete” during his times at the Bucknell campus, and let him take notes on important news. If necessity required a letter “via irregular channels”, he proposed it be written in a business-like fashion, “sans personal stuff.” He pointed out that:

“All this is an exercise in patience and … revolutionary discipline. But above all, don’t want you inordinately concerned, with all the things you have to do. [Liz had decided May 8 to join in a draft action group that had its sights on boards in Delaware.] That would be grossly unfair. Will try to clarify this more, and to look for openings.”

What must have turned the warden’s paranoia switch on most loudly were the ruminations Phil shared with Liz about the resistance possibilities for “some of the young guys here — who more and more sit in on the raps — car thieves, bank robbers, old and experienced cons for all their young ages.” Though he noted their violence and racism — which were among the most cardinal sins in Phil’s worldview — he also saw them as “creative, personable, funny.” His imagination soared: “what an injection they’ll add to our movement.” (As indeed has been shown in recent months, as some of these men have been paroled or “maxed out.”) Phil noted “Pete” was “more and more immersed with the idea of being of service.”

Already deserting the impossible goal of writing a letter “sans personal stuff”, he ended the letter recalling a cherished anniversary in their friendship, the caring clear enough so that one can guess the letter sizzled audibly in the warden’s prying hands. (When psychiatrist Bob Coles came to do a professional interview with Phil on July 20, the warden shoved the letter into Coles’ hands, saying, “Calls himself a priest! A priest! Read that, Doctor Coles! See what kind of stuff that ‘priest’ is writing! And to a nun! Read that!”)

Liz was struck from Phil’s correspondence and visiting lists (her letters returned “unauthorized”) and Phil summoned in, then Douglas. Though Warden Hendricks told Phil he knew “Pete’s” real identity, Phil decided it was a bluff and admitted to nothing, simply standing at length as the warden ranted on, much the way King is once supposed to have done when Hoover scolded him for the content of the FBI tapes of King’s private life. Later in the mess hall, Boyd told Phil that he had admitted nothing to the warden and that the warden in fact knew nothing of his contraband activities.

In fact, if Boyd’s trial testimony on this point is to be trusted, Boyd admitted to the warden his courier activities. Then, at a picnic area in town, he met with FBI agents Delmar Mayfield (nicknamed Molly) and Philip Morris (of the cigarette manufacturing empire?), and agreed to continue carrying letters, and not only the outbound letters, as before, but ones coming in as well. Thus government assistance made possible the continuation of a letter exchange that was the basic unit of evidence in the Harrisburg courtroom.

Dimes in the Xerox machine

Boyd hadn’t waited for government encouragement in order to commemorate his voyeurism, however. His first trip to the Bucknell Library Xerox machine had happened May 25th, after Phil sent out with Boyd his first effort at uncensored communication with Liz. Boyd set the letter aside in a locker, as if it were a treasure map for a rainy day, adding to the Xerox cache as the exchange continued.

The letters proved to be a treasure map for the FBI. In Liz’s letter to Phil of July 30, she reported plans of the surfacing rally that was being organized in connection with the earlier raids on Delaware draft boards; sandwiched in with it was news of “the bruv” (that is to say, Dan) and Stringfellow (Bill Stringfellow, Dan’s good friend, a writer and lawyer in forced retirement on Block Island from his East Harlem law practice because of ill health):

“Stringfellow still plans on trying to get to you, I think, but he’s now or soon will be somehow mixed up with bruv which, in his thinking or that of the drones around bruv, necessitated his withdrawal from our thing today.”

By federal government standards, the wheels turned with unusual hurry. On August 11, Hoover’s chase was over: a Coast Guard cutter had blockaded Block Island’s harbor and FBI agents, posing as birdwatchers despite a gale that was blowing, surrounded the house of Bill Stringfellow and Tony Towne. Dan went to the front door and introduced himself to his captors. On the way back to the mainland, one agent told Dan that he was a Jesuit “grad” and took great satisfaction in serving “the greater glory of God” by working for the FBI. In a most bizarre confession, he told Dan, “I said to myself when I took you, A.M.D.G.” (The initials represent the Jesuit slogan, Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam, “to the greater glory of God.”) Boyd Douglas received a $150 bonus.

Strip searches of the mind

The most important fact about the letters is that they were letters. They were an attempt at private communication between Liz McAlister and Phil Berrigan.

Too bad that no James Cagney prison movies ever got around to the prison mail room — we might have developed a more evolved conscience about the importance of privacy. In an ugly way, the mail room is one of prison’s more cheerful locations. Letters coming and going compete for the honor of being read aloud (often punctuated with laughter) by one guard to the others present — with inmates occasionally around to glimpse the daily ritual — dramatic readings of the sort Assistant Attorney General William Lynch gave Liz and Phil’s letters later in the Harrisburg courtroom. In prisons the strip searches of the body are kinder than the strip searches of the mind. One of the better highs that prison affords is finding a way to have even a sliver of privacy, some unauthorized communions, some uncensored correspondence. During my year in prison in Wisconsin, it would have required more discipline than I ever hope to have to resist the chance to enjoy uncensored correspondence.

All but one of the letters in the series the two exchanged were intended for themselves alone; the exception was something that came to be known as “the Purple paper,” named for the color it happened to be dittoed in by Liz for distribution to friends within different resistance communities. No other letter was ever meant, as Liz put it in a memo to co-defendants and attorneys, “to be printed in the NY Times, Time or Life or anywhere else.”

“And as such things were presented in a staccato type way,” she continues, “ideas were not developed because in many cases they referred to conversations already had. Much was left unsaid (how funny that must sound as it would seem very little was left unsaid) that would have to be said for any general digestion. It’s a shorthand conversation. Because of that and because of my lack of knowledge of prison and what that context does to a person, some of what was said was misunderstood or badly understood.”

She goes on in her memo, “I am also aware of over-statements throughout my side of the correspondence. Things presented as being a fait accompli that were merely conversational. This I can only attribute to my ‘sense of purpose’ in the correspondence — which was to reassure Phil that the movement & ‘our people’ had not gone into the ecology issue. The subconscious sense of purpose was our very real need for some kind of communication with one another. And that is probably more to the point and more honest than what the letters say.”

The letters in so many respects are like all letters: unpremeditated, enjoying the freedom that letters give to overstate or be rude, to blow off steam, to tell the truth without polish, to admit needs and fears, and to bear important news.

It is the important news that makes the letters as special, and as dangerous, as they proved to be. News of people attempting to find ways of getting in the way of murder, and doing that at a time when most of those who claim to be responsible have found excuses to let the war continue. The letters pay human beings a great compliment, implying that it is still possible that a great many of us could genuinely refuse to let war continue without urgent resistance from ourselves. And such pondering occurs hand-in-hand with the simply personal, questions about their futures, worries and joys about friends. Would that more such letters were being written in America.

Which is not to say that these particular letters require unreserved celebration. It is impossible to be complacent about the disruptions in various lives they inadvertently helped to occasion: the arrest of a community of draft resisters in Rochester, Dan’s capture, the Harrisburg indictment and its brutal reorganizing of so many lives for so long a time. The pain involved in all these things isn’t to be passed over. Yet it seems the anger would be best focused not on those who choose to attempt a private correspondence but upon the authorities who thought it legitimate to make private correspondence public, and who would even use it to attack the integrity of all those who are committed to work for change via nonviolent means.

But there seems no need to speak further of the context of the letters. They exist. They are often very compelling. They attempt to deal with reality. All that is needed here are some sample quotes that would prove important in the Harrisburg trial.

The first letter, begun by Phil May 22nd and finished the 24th, begins with gratitude for Liz’s first visit and goes on to celebrate the main news she brought that day that she had decided to be part of the Delaware draft action group:

“And the news — glorious! First of all, that you were so clear in your own mind and so confident. And I knew implicitly that you were a vast help to the others — sense of history, human philosophy and tactics, courage, discipline… And then the sense of humor that refused to remain quiet, indicative of a balance of spirit, and a resolution during the dark night period.”

Then Phil thinks aloud about ways of relating the Delaware group’s action to the recent killing of the students at Kent State and the invasion of Cambodia; he suggests a National Guard Armory might be a good place for the group’s “surfacing” rally. There is a paragraph given over to concern about correspondence difficulties. No single theme, save resistance, so preoccupies the letters. He passes on news of Boyd’s desire to meet with her and to talk. He takes notes of a few grey hairs on Liz’s head, and sees her becoming “a striking pepper and salt.” He proposes several people, including Mary Cain and Tony Scoblick, could help in weeding through the “remotely hopeful people” to figure out “who is, and who isn’t” [ready to take part in a resistance action]. He wonders about a future that might include adopted children and the possibility of marriage relationships that are open to resistance activity and the priority of peacemaking, “an entirely new definition” of marriage, something “transcending anything I’ve seen around.” He adds that, like Liz, he is really a “very old-line Christian,” and at the same time, again like Liz, very much of the next century.

Phil’s next letter (the one that would be found in the shake-down) was hardly more than a PS to the first, further emphasizing mail problems and Boyd’s availability.

The first one from Liz is mainly an account of the difficulties they were up against in the Delaware action. She says of herself, after mentioning others in the group, “Then there’s this RSHM [the initials of her religious community] who’s a real so & so — very difficult to get along with. You’d probably like her.” She goes on to note, in a wry voice, the important news “that officialdom has looked askance at us,” finding her “an undesirable correspondent” and returning her letters so marked. She is brave about the event: “As I said in a letter I wrote recently … it won’t be easy but we’ll try to fumble on … As long as it is possible to get some words to you, guess we can keep it going.” She offers her curses to the judge who had just refused to reduce Phil’s six-year sentence for the blood pouring action in the Baltimore Customs House. She worries about a professor’s speculations that the U.S. administration is contemplating the use of nuclear weapons in Indochina. And she asks whether she should come and see the warden to protest her removal from the correspondence list for Phil.

And so the letters continue, day after day.

The one meant to be read by resisters, the “purple paper,” was written by Phil when he was told (wrongly) by Boyd that Liz asked for it. I first saw it when Liz put it in my hands in an East Harlem backyard one summer afternoon. The contents are meant to serve, Phil says, “our common dedication for justice and against injustice.” They are not meant to be criticisms, he says, but observations, “and must be left to the better sense of those outside.”

The heart of it is quite simple: “It has long (nearly two years) been my contention that we must eventually thrash out organization.”

He says past attempts at that may have failed because of egotism and
clumsiness. But “organization doesn’t have to be elitist, autocratic or arbitrary. Apart from helping us to serve people more effective, we have an opportunity to experiment with a true democracy, wherein people vie for initiative and responsibility, and those who lead, lead because they serve best.”’

There is a section on problems: excessive individualism and unilateralism, insufficient discipline in work and study, immature relationships, weak ties with other segments of the movement, and problems with security — ranging from paranoia to dangerous laxity. He worries that “there is too much time spent on socializing and/or group therapy” and proposes there should be “a quasi-identification between work and social life.” There is “insufficient thinking about financing, about group funds, about poverty, and to be blunt some people are selfish with money.” He is concerned, with “geographical concentration in the East.”

A solution, he proposes, might allow each urban area to choose six representatives who would serve for six months or a year, taking part in a minimum of one meeting a month. Each representative would be responsible for “carrying discussions of activists to monthly meetings.” The group would establish guide, lines on policy, action targets, tactics, finances and security. “This smacks of bureaucracy,” he notes. “It will depend on the sensitivities of all to see it doesn’t become this.”

Subsequent sections touch on communications, finances, security and future orientations, with a final section on “more meanderings.”

“The main threat to security comes from a project too ambitious to be controlled. Too many intangibles and therefore too many risks… Why not concentrate on several isolated, controllable, yet significant actions…? The tendency with every new group to do the biggest and the best is very dangerous… Every urban group should have local contacts for false ID [but] they should be used with skill and considerable discretion. Generally people operating overground have no need for them… [There should be great attention given to hitherto untouched areas… The District [of Columbia] is still the elusive golden fleece… A well subsidized team could head for the hinterlands, i.e., West Virginia, and trash the rural boards in the State. Might take a couple months… mobile strike steams … an overground version of the underground [such as] Dan has…”

The memo ends, appropriately with his own sense the positive accomplishments already to the credit of resisters:

“In proportion to our numbers, we have cost them dearly, and in that sense, we’re about all that’s around. All that’s real, that is. We’ve got to get together more, do more ego purifying, learn more, work harder, take more calculated risks, read the Gospel more, pray more and love people more. We’ve made it a little tougher for them to murder, but we ain’t stopped the murder yet. Not by a long shot.”

Typical of Phil, a PS to Liz, not part of the memo that was circulated, wonders how she can use “such drivel”, especially given the anti-organizational views of most of the resisters — a question the FBI might have scratched their heads over with some profit. After all, despite Phil’s memo, West Virginia’s draft boards are still with us. The worst violations of security were Phil’s own. The elusive “golden fleece” in Washington (not the heating tunnels but that complex of fifteen draft boards) remained as elusive as ever, because there were armed guards about. In brief, as any careful reader of any newspaper would agree, whatever the merits of Phil’s meditation, it was hardly received as orders from on high. (The reaction that I was aware of from war resisters in New York was annoyance, modified by the awareness that it wasn’t easy for one of the inventors of the new forms of nonviolent resistance to just settle down in prison with back issues of Readers Digest. Phil understates the reality when he speaks of his friends being “anti-organizational.” The resistance may have more than its share of Catholics, and there may be great affection and gratitude for the Berrigans, but there hasn’t been any sort of hierarchy.)

Phil often vents his frustrations with the sympathetic but non-committed, those who see the Vietnamese on fire and whose only response is a resolution to vote for a different president next time. As he says to Liz in one letter, summing up the irritation:

“To a sobering degree, there is nothing save what our people do. I get nauseated by music festivals, by the ambiguity of The Village Voice, by Third Party talk, by the whole gamut of confusion and cowardice. From one standpoint, it is more frustrating than the stubbornness of the mandarins, and the way the war hangs on. But where does that leave one, except to exist as another reason for going on? What else is there except social delusion and schizophrenia? (Didn’t mean to sound depressing, but that’s about it, huh? After one does the bootstrap thing to oneself, then others cluster about, wanting the same thing done for them.)”

A plot to un-kidnap?

It is an irony of providence that the same correspondence that gave the FBI Dan’s address was then radically shaken by the event it had occasioned and the correspondence went on to give form to the most explosive charge in the Harrisburg indictment: “a scheme,” as J. Edgar Hoover would put it, “to kidnap a highly placed government official.”

It is possible Boyd would never have become an FBI agent were it not for the government pilgrimage to Dan. It is conceivable Dan could still be popping up in pulpits and television screens with the sheriff of Nottingham still in clumsy pursuit were it not for the letters having their non-invited official audience. It is certain that the letters were the road map to Dan. It is certain that the conversations that occasioned the most controversial letters of the exchange between Liz and Phil would not have occurred had it not been for the jolt of Dan’s arrest on Block Island. And it is certain that, like so many ideas tossed around in the search to “make it a little more difficult for them to murder,” this idea (poorly reported to begin with) got no further than the heat of its conversational moment. Indeed, the conversation would have had no memorial at all had Liz not made it the subject of a letter to Phil.

On August 11, Liz recalls a long poem-like shopping list of events;

Car had been tampered with in a.m. (air let out of tire)
Went to funeral
Car died
Dan arrested
Neil, Betty Metzger, FBI meany call
Meeting with Mary Mohs, Times Magazine
Planning session at [St Paul’s Convent] for demonstration
Call Eq[bal] after evening news

Quite a day: “Car died / Dan arrested.”

On the 12th, Boyd called, anxious to see Dan. Liz ignored him. Later she worked on arrangements for a meeting that she, Neil McLaughlin, Joe Wenderoth and Sue Davis wanted to have with Phil’s warden about his harassment at Lewisburg. She joined in a “Dan Berrigan is Free” demonstration and liturgy, at which a flag was washed in spring water, at Foley Square. Another call from Boyd, who professed surprise and disbelief at Dan’s capture.

On the 13th various friends wondered together over the feasibility and usefulness of a nonviolent jailbreak of Dan. The fact is important if one is to understand the moment in time, the kind of imagination at work. No question about it: to find a pacifist way to spring a poet-priest who was under lock-and-key for daring to hinder murder — that would have brought on a few extra blinks of the public eye, perhaps even a moment of conscience. But in none of the several conversations was anyone able to concoct a means that would be genuinely peaceful, splendid as the idea was. As so often happened our imaginative window-shopping produced no purchases. There was no feasible pacifist way to un-kidnap Dan nor to do the same for Phil when he was transferred from Lewisburg to Danbury on August 25.

Arrest a war-maker?

On August 14, Liz, Joe, Neil and Sue met with the warden and associate warden at Lewisburg, with Phil present for the last two hours of the meeting. (Liz wanted to be reinstated on Phil’s list; the warden, after reading aloud from one of the contraband letters, called her “the most selfish woman” he had ever met.) The prison had been feeling the public eye for weeks, since Phil and Dave Eberhardt had gone to solitary rather than accept voluntary confinement in their cells for the dread crimes of standing in the wrong chow line and going into an unauthorized zone of the of the prison in order to get the chaplain’s help in preventing the rape of a prisoner.

After another day of meeting with Bucknell people, Liz returned home, visited her mother on the 16th, picked up Jogues at the airport.

The next morning, Eqbal called, inviting Liz and Jogues to the Connecticut home of his wife’s parents; arrive by dinnertime, he said, and bring your swimsuits. The two said yes. (Eq had been one of the conductors of Dan’s travels, and was furious that Dan had “broken discipline” by going to the home of one of his best friends — and on an island! But he had recovered from his furies quickly.) Here is Liz’s account in the letter to Phil of what happened:

“Eq called us up to Connecticut last night along with Bill Davidon… Eq outlined a plan for an action which, would say — escalated seriousness — & we discussed pros & cons for several hours. It needs much more thought & careful selection of personnel. To kidnap — in our terminology to make a citizens arrest of — someone like Henry Kissinger. Him because of his influences as policy maker yet sans cabinet status, he would therefore not be so much protected as one of the bigger wigs; he is a bachelor which would mean if he were so guarded, he would be anxious to have unguarded moments where he could carry on his private affairs — literally & figuratively. To issue a set of demands, e.g. cessation of use of B52s over N. Vietnam, Laos, Cambodia & re. lease of political prisoners. Hold him for about a week during which time big wigs of the liberal ilk would be brought to him — also kidnapped if necessary (which, for the most part, it would be) — & hold a trial or grand jury affair out of which an indictment would be brought. There is no pretense of the demands being met & he that would be released after this time with a word that we’re nonviolent as opposed to you who would let a man be killed — one of your own — so that you can go on killing. The liberals would also be released as would a film of the whole proceedings in which, hopefully, he would be more honest than he is on his own territory. The impact of such a thing would be phenomenal. Reasons for wanting to do it: it will ultimately be done by someone here [in the U.S.J & end in fiasco or violence & killing. Eq wants to do it & do it well & I believe he has the know how to direct such an escapade. The major problem, as I see it, is the severe consequences for something that is largely ‘drama’ with little lasting effect. Second problem I envision is position of something like this in a movement context, i.e.. what next? Some thought would have to be given to that. It seems at least possible to have two fairly distinct groups: on the one hand the felons who have a scant chance but a chance of remaining anonymous & the big wigs who will provide the “public aspect of the action who are preserved by their own position as “captives” also. The concept of a film of the trial to be released to TV etc. is phenomenal. Then, his aspect of the war will be at least impeded by his absence & the involvement of all close to him in an investigation of his whereabouts. Think about it & maybe when I see you in Danbury I can get your thoughts as well as fill you in on where the plan lies.”

Liz goes on to mention meetings with various friends (among them myself) to work on “more projects & possibilities,” and mentions some engineers at an arsenal whose “interest in living a more intense Christian life” has led them to consider finding ways to make their work have other than lethal consequences.

Most significantly, the letter ends, “What may seem here to be complete control of a situation, you must remember is part facade.” While she is referring to the many checks she has kept in expressing openly her feelings toward him, the insight of the sentence has a wider reach.

There is another glimpse in the same direction at the start of her report on the Connecticut meeting, when she explains why she is confining news of the discussion to paper: “I say it to you for two reasons. The first obviously is to get your thinking on it, the second is to give you some confidence that people are
thinking seriously of escalated resistance.”

A brief return to basics: one of the fundamental responsibilities that comes with loving another is trying to respond to that other’s depressions, the times when hope is nearly exhausted. It may be hard for someone other than a friend to understand the blow it was (though we knew it could happen any day, any minute) for handcuffs to intersect Dan’s life — very few deserve to live so free of handcuffs, very few feed and cherish friendships so attentively, as Dan Berrigan. To every friend, and to a great many who never knew him, the arrest was as hard a blow as news of an injury in one’s family.

The blow fell even more solidly on Phil. But how to explain that? Phil has such a reputation for toughness and independence that it is hard to know how fragile and dependent he too can be. And it is hard to express the gravity of the commitment these two very different brothers had made to each other, except perhaps to quote a few words of Phil to Dan jotted down inside the cover of Phil’s first book, No More Strangers: “To Dan, the first copy, with gratitude that defies my expression since I do not yet know what I owe you, with hope also that Christ’s Will come more to fruit in both of us. And with a brother’s love.” That was in March of 1965.

In brief, Liz was responding to a man who, in a nation of blind citizens, had eyes to see those whom we were burning, whose whole life was an extraordinarily selfless shout that that murdering should stop, and whose brother now was being put into the whale’s belly of prison where the officials would do what they could to muffle one of the other rare voices that had joined in the shout for life. Perhaps the reader can imagine some of this, and allow these several people to come alive for a few minutes, to be something other than legal or political or religious objects whose particular efforts need some columnist-style inspection.

“I want,” Liz said, “to give you some confidence that people are thinking seriously of escalated resistance.”

In the same letter there is still another fragment of similar light. Liz tells Phil that she wasn’t only joking when she told him in the prison corridor, the day of the long hours with the warden, that people were putting their heads together about a nonviolent jail break. “Think it over seriously & we’ll work it out… We can arrange it ‘nonviolently’.” But she goes on to say, “one problem I have with … either you or Dan coming out is that, it says the movement can’t go on without one of you or both. And I’m arrogant enough to think/believe that your being where you are is enough to make the rest of us get off our tails to prove that it can.”

Return address: Fantasyland

Two things clear there: One, that this particular letter’s return address is Fantasyland; there are no nonviolent ways to free a prisoner surrounded by armed guards, and even were non-pacifists to give it a try, no one could say assuredly beforehand, “We can do it.” And if the beginning is heavy with fantasy, should the reader suddenly become credulous a few sentences later when the Connecticut report begins?

But there is a second point as well. Because what Liz has said is, in effect, “Sure we can get you out, why we can even kidnap you (and Kissinger and a whole string of liberals and make a movie for television). But let’s not kidnap you, Phil, let’s show the folks we’re able to go about our life work even with you and Dan behind bars. Why, it will even make us better at it, more serious, more determined!”

Which is to say, once again, I want “to give you some confidence…”

It was Liz’s last letter to Phil care of Boyd.

Now there was just time for Phil to write his own final letter via the same route. Three days before his August 25 transfer to join Dan at Danbury Prison in Connecticut, he entrusted Boyd with the reply, a letter more disturbing than the one he had received from Liz.

‘The violence versus the nonviolence bag”

It is easy to read too much into the details of any of these letters, but there is something striking about this letter’s headline. All the letters had headlines — they were meant to look like essays so that a guard wouldn’t instantly spot them as letters. One was headed, for example “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.” Another, “Principles of Organization.” Still another: “ Reflections on Technological Advancement.” This one was headed, “The Use and Effectiveness of Group Therapy in the Federal Penal System.”

Of course Phil had nothing but contempt for the social adjustment goals wardens have in mind for their prisoners; Phil had no interest in housebreaking anyone. But it is interesting that, at a moment of considerable personal stress, a stress clearly alarming to Liz, that at this moment he should be plucking up references to therapy. Why not something about “Social Factors in Inmate Recidivism”? But the letter’s camouflage speaks of therapy.

Phil began by recalling, in painful detail, the first confrontation with the associate warden, a week after the June 2nd shakedown that had found the letter to Liz tucked into the pages of Newsweek:

“He called me in (with the Captain there) and had the letter, which he had devoured and practically memorized. He didn’t scruple to go over the personal aspects of it with obvious relish, as though to say — ‘So! you got a thing going? just like Martin King, huh?’ He wanted a confession, and I laughed at him and told him he had no evidence (he hadn’t caught [Boyd] with it)… As the cons would say, he is scum — I’ve caught him in at least three flagrant lies… call his bluff and he acts like a wharf rat… [But] the boys at the top, Nixon, Mitchell et al, will make him look like a Knight of St. Gregory in comparison.”

An angry, sarcastic letter revealing much pain as the mood quickly swings from wit to outrage.

There is a sudden peace in his voice as he turns to tell Liz of her own impact at the prison when she, Joe, Neil and Sue had come: “I was justly proud of you all, and the best part of the afternoon was seeing your glowing person.”

After a quick reference to a prisoner strike that would have the effect of delaying his departure to Danbury, he says he received two letters from her via the newly re-opened official channels “in addition to the ‘heavy’ one.… Bless you! What am I to say?”

He is puzzled about what Liz said of a nonviolent jailbreak. He wonders if she simply means some plan to get him back to Lewisburg “after a sojourn with the bruv” at Danbury, an idea he says he is “partial” to. He points out, with super bravado, that he really doesn’t need to be with Dan more than a couple of months and that, after all, their approaches to the movement “are really quite different,” that they have “different views about priorities.”

Then suddenly he understands what she was saying, and responds, “I would come out only if the movement is much more than it is now.” He expresses hope that, one way or another, he’ll get out reasonably soon via official routes, even in six months’ time. He goes so far as to say, in searching for the positive potentials of sticking it out, that prison will be for him a place to “get my head together in an atmosphere where I can get several kinds of education — not just philosophical or ideological. But the communal thing & the Eucharist, and the kind of silence that we’ve had before, and which has taught me so much.”

But again he admits to “confusion” about the various meanings that part of her letter might have. “We can clear up my confusion… when you come to Danbury.”

For a man who generally writes in a very systematic and certain voice, it is already a comparatively chaotic and doubt-filled letter. He goes on to her report of the Connecticut meeting, starting right off with another uncertain jab:

“Just between you and me, I have never been overmuch impressed with Eq. He’s a dear friend very helpful in the last months, lovely guy, good ideologue, but still to produce… (I have this terrible suspicion regarding academics). With few exceptions, the bastards will let others go to the gallows without a serious murmur. They did it in Germany and they’re doing it here. And Eq is from that strain. You see, love, the belief isn’t there… But there are more reservations. I’d be delighted to be wrong. Which is to say, no project can be more solid than its human foundation and, with all respect, I don’t trust Eq, though he’s a nice guy.”

Despite this fundamental objection, he decides to comment on the Kissinger proposal:

“About the plan — the first time opens the door to murder — the Tupamaros are finding that out in Uruguay… When I refer to murder, it is not to prohibit it absolutely (violence against nonviolence bag); it is merely to observe that one has set the precedent, and that later on, when government resistance to this sort of thing stiffens, men will be killed.”

Needless to say, no portion of the correspondence was so dear to the heart of trial prosecutor Lynch than this. It deserves immediate comment, once again remembering circumstances have made public a private correspondence in which a great deal of short-hand was possible.

Liz and Phil knew the values and commitments each other was wedded to in a way true of few others; they knew how huge were the preferences they were putting aside in the hope that their sacrifices might make it possible for a few others not to die by violence; they knew how deep was their shared loathing of violence. None of those things needed to be verbalized again.

Then what does he mean when he says, “The first time opens the door to murder”? How can he say, “When I refer to murder, it is not to prohibit it absolutely (violence versus nonviolence bag)”?

The insight condensed in the several sentences is simple and fundamental — Gandhi knew it by heart. When your nonviolent resistance is no longer amusing to the authorities, when your actions stir to consciousness some of those whose moral sleep the government has been banking on, then punishment will escalate quickly. Christians often wear a symbol of the process around their necks and invariably keep it near their altars: the cross. It says among many other things that the truth may make you free but it will get you into trouble as well, occasionally including deadly trouble. But unlike so much in the world, genuine truth puts only its advocate’s head on the chopping block rather than the heads of bystanders. And genuine truth, despite its frightening cost, is the way of life, the way of fulfillment, the way of resurrection. This is the scariest but most liberating of all insights. And the most crucial. And one that is by no means the monopoly of Christians. (A Zen master from Japan told me once that, in his tradition, the equivalent symbol to the cross is the meditation cushion, upon which one sits with a relentless voluntary discipline that is meant to be, finally, ego shattering; a place where an important, necessary death occurs, that one might finally be capable of life.)

None of this is news to Phil. He wouldn’t be in a cell but safely in a rectory in Baltimore writing letters to the editor of the Sun if he hadn’t squeezed that much news out of the Gospels.

The point for him was, then, are we ready to so escalate resistance that we can deal with these consequences for our own people? Are we yet ready for the cross that would be heaved at us if we reached that deeply into the war process of our society? If we reached that close to the nerve center of the killing in Indochina? Are we ready to face the murder of ourselves, not just the imprisonment?

First there is the answer in principle: We cannot prohibit it absolutely. Which is to say, if we wish to be Christians, then we are by baptism promised to be ready for the cross, because we choose to make that our way. We have to be ready to lay down our lives so that brothers and sisters will not be murdered.

But there is a school of thought (and one senses it to be dominant) in which pacifists say they cannot go that far “because then you are driving the other person to be violent.” Gandhi, of course, would be scandalized with such a pacifism. There were few points he insisted upon so strenuously as the duty of pacifists to bring society’s hidden violence to the surface, where it was vulnerable to treatment; he was similarly insistent that the treatment was the voluntary suffering, up to and including death, that would be the lot of those who choose to make peace.

Phil then refuses to indulge in that kind of shallow “violence against nonviolence bag.” And he does so precisely because of his pacifism, a pacifism which declares that the cross is the inescapable route to resurrection; that voluntary suffering is the way to freedom from suffering. All of which is the central Christian irony, the main idea. Otherwise known, when reduced to a single word, as love.* [for a comment on this section, see postscipt]

‘Brilliant but grandiose”

Having gotten to the first real problem of the idea Liz has sent him, and having announced his fundamental doubts about anything serious being produced by an academic, he moves on to comment on the idea itself:

“More to the point, the project as you outlined it is brilliant but grandiose. I’ve found, with bitter experience, that when people opt for too much, they’re either stupid or egotistical (another red light about friend Eq). Which is to say that grabbing the gentleman will take a force of perhaps 10 of your best people — guarding him, getting communications out, perhaps moving him 2 or 3 times within the week. Now in addition, to grab a prosecution of liberals would take a dozen more, making the network too wide. But even if that were possible, how can it be guaranteed that they would indict him in any sort of real fashion? Then too, the common view is that K is the architect of honorable withdrawal from S.E. Asia, and even some of the liberals believe that. How to get the truth out? i.e., that the economy needs war, and it might as well be there as elsewhere, and that we intend to stay. That might mean a Korean type answer, but then we’d have to hot it up elsewhere. Or go into the dilemma of more serious recession, rising unemployment at home. This is what should be gotten from K. but can the liberals do it?

“Nonetheless, I like the plan and am just trying to weave elements of modesty into it. Why not coordinate it with the one against capital utilities? — You should talk more thoroughly with [Boyd] about this, or with [Neil] or [Joe]. To disrupt [the utilities], and then grab the Brain Child — this would be escalation enough.

“This comes off the top of my head. Why not grab the Brain Child, treat him decently, but tell him nothing of his fate — or tell him his fate hinges on release of political [prisoners] or cessation of air strikes in Laos. Then have batteries of movement people — Brain Child blindfolded — engage him on policy. After he has been taught (the consideration of his safety will make him more and more human in his answers) get it filmed and recorded. One thing should be implanted — that respectable murderers like himself are no longer inviolable (this should be done just before release). And that if he doesn’t work to humanize policy, the likes of him will be killed by less scrupulous people. Finally, that political prisoners are the best guarantee of his sweet skin’s safety, and that he better get them out of jail.

“Taken along these lines, you have both a material and personal confrontation with the war-makers. The trick to pull off is to hit them very, very hard without giving them violence to react to, to justify themselves with.”

Phil sums up by saying that “it can be done and brilliantly” and that Eqbal, despite misgivings,  should be given all encouragement, though with his “imagination under ropes.”

Yet even in this moment of relative euphoria, he gets back to the cost, not in terms of the willingness to pay it so much but simply whether this idea is worth it: “There’d be a massive manhunt — it would mean life. And this is a factor to be considered.”

Without responding to his sudden new doubt, he plunges back to ruminations over the engineering of the idea, how to build the project team, the problems of working with Eq, the possibility of getting Bill Davidon involved.

He then drops the subject and turns to Liz herself, assuring her that the letters she had sent via the censored route were not, as she had said, “dry and dusty.” In fact, “You come through beautifully, if with restraint. And I get all the innuendos and delight in them.”

An extraordinary letter. Given a meditative reading, it unfolds with all the surprises of a paper snowflake made from snipping away at a wedge of paper. As happens in moments of crisis, there are rushes in the letter that show Phil’s faith and mind at its most alert, most inventive, most unafraid, most generous. But there are, as seems also to happen at crisis moments, sudden plunges to a darker zone of consciousness. While the hard jabs at academics in many cases seem justified, one of the  academics who clearly doesn’t warrant them is Eqbal, if for no other reason than his risky association with Dan while underground. It was no symbolic gesture. Then, for the first time in the correspondence, he stumbles back to those exciting moments when he and Joe were in those utility tunnels and which no one, including Phil, has found a way to do that wouldn’t violate Phil’s own rule: act without giving one’s opponent any violence to react to or with which to justify himself with.

It would seem to take no special sensitivity to know the letter was written in the sort of moment of crisis when extremes are being seized, and errors made easily, the kind of moment — in more domestic analogy — when lovers could either be screaming at each other or making love with abandon. For ourselves, they’re not the moments we would want anyone to stare at, but life would be deadly dull without them.

“Hit him in the mouth!”

Liz did as Phil asked up to a point. She made a hand copy of Phil’s response and sent it to Neil and Joe. The two were appalled and burned it. When Joe heard Sr. Jogues and Liz were going to Danbury to see Phil, Joe had only one request to make of Jogues: “Please hit him in the mouth for me.” The words were said without a smile. Jogues understood. It has long been one of her main duties to attach an occasional cinder block to the balloon of Phil’s imagination. She gave Joe a nod that said, “With pleasure.”

Several people have entered into the narrative that have to be spoken about in more than a passing way, if still all too briefly.

There is Jogues Egan, who has a hawk’s eye for what is really going on and being said, and who is a strict believer in keeping one’s feet within reach of the ground. She is a joy to look at: white hair that has a pearl sheen, an alertness in face and posture, a certain quality that is nothing less than regal. Born in James Joyce’s country, she has the gift of storytelling; the same genes make it possible for her to enjoy the distilled spirits of grain — not a rare trait in the Catholic contingent of the resistance community. She is not overly impressed by anyone, so far as I can tell, though there are many people she loves. One of the ways she loves them is by telling the truth and, verbally at least, hitting them in the mouth now and then.

There is Joe Wenderoth, one of the more sturdy-bodied members of the resistance, thick-necked, broad-shouldered, a face that wouldn’t surprise his German forebears, a working man’s hands. Raised in Baltimore, Catholic parents, Catholic friends, Catholic schools. Finally a seminarian and then a priest. One-hundred percent jock in school and afterward. The only problem was the seriousness with which he believed the Gospels. As a young priest he invited a black child into the parish Cub Scout Pack — which was all white up to that time, a fact that was apparent but which he didn’t think about with any worries. “They were all from Christian families,” he explained to me. Within two days, nearly all the Cub Scouts had been withdrawn as if cholera germs were to be injected to one and all at the next meeting. Joe was badly jolted and says he began to see the world with new eyes. Later, inevitably, he encountered his neighbor priest, Phil Berrigan, and found that what Phil said “made sense.” On February 24,1970, he had destroyed draft records in Philadelphia and war-related General Electric documents in D.C.; the group called itself the East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives. It was a name that happened to stick in the memory of J. Edgar Hoover.

There is Neil McLaughlin, Joe’s closest friend, short, lean, articulate but never one to waste words, capable of listening with precision, stubborn and careful — most especially about the Gospels and his priesthood, who prefers films and books and almost anything to sports, who is the kind of balancing polarity to Joe that Dan Berrigan is to Phil. In 1969, as one of the New York Eight, he had joined in destroying a large number of draft records. After that, he served as a resource to groups that were getting together, in retreat fashion to reflect on peacemaking and resistance.

And then there is Eqbal Ahmad, a man a good deal like Dan Berrigan, taking great pleasure in cooking, dining, poetry, conversation, long walks, books and writing; and quite unlike Dan in his belief that violence and nonviolence are ultimately tactical questions, nonviolence being needed in some places (as in the U.S.) and violence in others (as in Algeria at its revolutionary moment or in Vietnam today). A man of medium height, with ebony hair, a Cambridge accent, eyes like Jean Paul Satre, an elasticity of body and mind. Born where Bangladesh now is, he woke one day as a child to witness his father’s murder in retaliation for attempted land reforms. He had been a Proctor Scholar of North African Studies at Princeton, done brilliantly, had studied at first hand the Algerian Revolution as it was establishing its victory, later joined the Cornell faculty where Dan and he became close friends. Like Jogues, he is a marvelous story teller, and similarly precise. He knows well the wisdom of that saying, “More flies are caught with honey than with vinegar.” The word most often used for him is “charming” and those who say that are right, and in a serious way. He speaks with such calm, such wit, such tidiness and thoroughness of thought, that it takes months to imagine disagreeing with him, even when he’s not around.

Others present who had awareness of the discussion Liz reported were resistance activists Paul Mayer and Bill Davidon, both of whom were later — like Jogues — named as co-conspirators in the Harrisburg indictments, but not actually indicted, and Ann Davidon and Julie Diamond Ahmad, whose existence was ignored in the indictments.

Destroying a letter

There is no need yet to mention three who knew nothing of the Connecticut discussion: Tony and Mary Cain Scoblick, and Ted Glick; though they would eventually be indicted as members of the conspiracy, neither Mary nor Tony knew who Kissinger was until after the first indictment, and Ted had only a sketchy idea of the man’s existence and role in the government. In 1970, Kissinger had only a tiny fraction of his present reputation. Mary had asked the FBI men. “Kissinger Who?” Tony likes to joke, “Don’t forget, Henry! We made you a star!”

Nor had any of the three any idea there were utility tunnels under Washington. Their continuing preoccupation was draft files and the building up of small resistance communities, not “escalated” tactics.

But of those who were present, none would recognize much relationship between Liz’s account of the discussion and what actually had happened.
There had been an excellent meal and no shortage of drinkable spirits with which to wash it down. There was, certainly, more motive to be present then to clink glasses, as all were friends of Dan’s and had helped in his four-month explorations of the underground. There was a concern to find out how the project of preserving Dan’s freedom had finally folded. Had anyone been careless? Had anyone any ideas? Liz said nothing of her letter to Phil, or his reply echoing the news of Stringfellow’s spot on Dan’s itinerary. The guessing got nowhere and was abandoned, as there were more pressing questions at hand: Was Dan’s capture final, or could the tides be again reversed? Was there any possibilities of freeing Phil while he was en route to Danbury? What else was possible? More action around draft boards? Or something new?

It took little time (Liz’s report to Phil to the contrary) to conclude that a pacifist jailbreak was, as Eq put it, “ridiculous.” Nor did another round of draft-board action seem an adequate response to this new event, though it had some support, including Liz’s.

The word “kidnap” was never used in the discussion. Eq spoke of a “citizen’s arrest.” The phrase had haunted him since he had read a Village Voice report of a speech by Dave McReynolds (a staff member of the War Resisters League). The idea had also been mentioned at the April 21 rally in St. Gregory’s Church, the night Eq spoke in Phil’s place after the FBI arrests.

In the Connecticut meeting Eq brought up the idea, speculating on the practicalities of citizens arresting war criminals. He proposed, if an arrest were made, it would have to be done without a simultaneous public announcement, and that it might involve a subsequent meeting of the apprehended official with anti-war scholars and activists who would then release a statement on war crimes and propose that his release be contingent on the end of U.S. B-52 bomb raids on North Vietnam.

“Most serious objections were raised,” Eq recalls. “What would one do if there were resistance? Did this not imply the threat of violence? I took the position that philosophically that was not important. What would be important would be releasing the officials unharmed, and doing so at a press conference. That fact would dramatize our care for human life and contrast it with the carelessness toward human life of the United States government. Of course I knew the United States would not for a moment consider stopping its bombing operations. It was similarly obvious that it would be a disaster to anti-war work should the official be harmed in any way.”

Despite such assurances, Jogues was shocked, and Ann Davidon thought it completely unacceptable as a pacifist tactic. Others thought the idea deserved further discussion, but eventually agreed that, while the theory was fascinating, the reality was far too risky, especially as it was likely any high government official would have bodyguards. At this point Eq mentioned Kissinger: “Yes, it is very risky — unless one goes for a man like Kissinger. He’s a bachelor. He likes girls. There are times he wouldn’t want bodyguards around. And as a professor he wouldn’t want police around his academic friends. We could invite him to a dinner with anti-war intellectuals and then, in place of dessert, serve him a notice of arrest!” (Eq laughed with the memory, despite the tidal waves the evening had brought on and the complete ruin it made of his writing and academic work.)

Agreement on the idea was out of the question. Talk finally turned to other notions. The one and only consequence of that night’s discussion — Liz and Phil’s exchange of letters — wasn’t known of by most of those who were present until the following spring, when a second indictment against the Harrisburg defendants published a portion of the exchange.

“The problem was,” Eq explained later, “as we all essentially agreed, that once you begin asking very hard questions about making a citizen’s arrest of a man like Dr. Kissinger, you come to the inescapable conclusion that you cannot accomplish your goal without some force or coercion, and that even if by some miracle you could, then he would not talk. And if he doesn’t talk, what the hell are you going to do with him?” Eq laughed, as if recalling a time in his life when he imagined he might catch dinosaurs in large paper bags.

What completely killed the idea for Liz was the note she received from Boyd shortly afterward. He expressed his own enthusiasm for the proposal and volunteered to get her a gun. “I read the letter and felt sick,” Liz recalls. She destroyed Boyd’s note almost immediately. The idea was done with.

J. Edgar Hoover as Paul Revere

The next few months included a succession of important events. On August 25 Phil moved to Danbury Prison (which, according to the Justice Department, is actually a “correctional institution”).

On August 29, Boyd asked Liz, via phone, to set up a meeting for him with Eq; Liz was polite, said she would pass on the invitation, but in fact never mentioned it to Eq; events had combined, between Phil’s move and Boyd’s gun letter, to make him both unnecessary and fearful in Liz’s eyes.

On the night of September 7, using leads from Boyd, members of the Flower City Conspiracy were arrested while destroying draft files and army intelligence records in Rochester. Among those arrested was Ted Glick, later to be added to the Harrisburg indictment.

Several days later, Liz had an evening meal with Neil, Joe and Eq in which she expressed her rejection of the citizen’s arrest proposal; Neil and Joe strongly concurred, and Eq joined in the decision to abandon the idea a completely. Though Joe and Neil had seen a copy of Phil’s letter, it wasn’t mentioned and Eq still was unaware of the correspondence that Boyd had ferried in and out of Lewisburg; Eq would have found such an exchange an intolerable breach of common sense. At the trial he recalled a saying of the Algerian revolution: “When you send something to a comrade in prison, send oranges!”

The week of the 14th, despite contrary proddings from Phil, Liz resumed teaching art history at her order’s college in Tarrytown, N.Y. There were conversations with various resisters as well as work relating to the bail needs of those arrested in Rochester.

On the 24th, though reluctant about further contact with Boyd, Liz kept a date in Lewisburg, attending a colloquy along with theologian Dr. Rosemary Radford Ruether, then of Howard University, now of Harvard, and Fr. Phil Linden, a member of the East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives. She stayed overnight; the following evening, with several students, there was conversation about such “escalated actions,” Rosemary Ruether recalled, “as shutting down factories producing chemical weapons.” But she remembers Liz vehemently rejecting any action that in any way “might threaten human life.” Fortunately Boyd wasn’t present for the exchange, or there would have been more charges in the indictment.

On the 26th, with some effort, Liz managed to avoid Boyd until 10:30 a.m.; Boyd had looked furiously for her and seemed irritated when he finally found her. They shared a late breakfast with Boyd conversing about what sort of car he should buy when he got out. He wondered about doing a research project on prisons. Finally he got to his official duties: “Where are things at with the Kissinger project? What can I do to help?” Liz said she didn’t know and didn’t feel like talking about it. At 11 a.m., with a sigh of relief and in hopes of never seeing Boyd again, Liz went on to a meeting with a Vietnamese writer, Tran Van Dinh.

On September 28, while meeting with a group of resisters who were thinking about a draft board action in New Jersey, a young priest proposed a political citizen’s arrest. Liz immediately and vigorously opposed the idea, and it was dropped.

On October 6, Jogues and Liz visited with Phil at Danbury; Liz wanted to share with him her enthusiasm for the Peoples Peace Treaty project; might it be possible to make a tape from prison in support of the treaty? A negative decision.

On October 31, the day Ted Glick and Sara Forth were married, some of the resisters found time after the wedding to talk about a shift away from draft board actions and more toward corporations and general educational work.

Early in November Eq had occasion to discourage Ted Glick and another member of the Flower City Conspiracy from going underground.

On November 18, a U.S. Marshal served Liz with a subpoena to appear before a grand jury investigating the Delaware draft board actions.

On the 20th, Liz appeared before the grand jury but refused to do more than identify herself.

On November 27, J. Edgar Hoover made a rare appearance before a Senate subcommittee to support a request for an enlarged FBI budget to finance hiring 1000 new special agents. He spoke of the stepped-up terrorist activities of the Weathermen and of Bernadine Dohrn’s addition to the FBI’s list of the “Ten Most Wanted Fugitives.” No headlines there. But he continued:

“Willingness to employ any type of terrorist tactic is becoming increasingly apparent among extremist elements. One example has recently come to light involving an incipient plot on the part of an anarchist group on the east coast, the so-called ‘East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives.’

This is a militant group self-described as being composed of Catholic priests and nuns, teachers students and former students who have manifested opposition to the war in Vietnam by acts of violence against Government agencies and private corporations engaged in work relating to U.S. participation in the Vietnam conflict.

“The principal leaders of this group are Philip and Daniel Berrigan, Catholic priests who are currently incarcerated in the Federal Correctional Institution at Danbury, Connecticut, for their participation in the destruction of Selective Service Records in Baltimore, Maryland, in 1968.

“This group plans to blow up underground electrical conduits and steam pipes serving the Washington, D.C. area in order to disrupt Federal Government operations. The plotters are also concocting a scheme to kidnap a highly placed Government official. The name of a White House staff member has been mentioned as a possible victim. If successful, the plotters would demand an end to United States bombing operations in Southeast Asia and the release of all political prisoners as ransom. Intensive investigation is being conducted concerning this matter.”

Jack Nelson and Ronald Ostrow, investigative reporters for the Los Angeles Times and the authors of The FBI and the Berrigans, have since discovered that Hoover made his statement over objections from his aides, who saw his remarks as jeopardizing an ongoing investigation. There seemed a crusader’s gleam in the aged policeman’s eyes, as if some child’s dream had come true of going back in time and being Paul Revere. But with a twist. “The Berrigans are coming! The Berrigans are coming!”

Go ahead — indict us!”

Liz was driving home from a Thanksgiving visit at her sister’s home in Maryland when she heard the news flash of the Hoover statement. “I was stunned — I was utterly stunned.” She was nearing Baltimore at the time of the news announcement and so drove directly to Neil and Joe’s house, which the two priests were in the process of painting that day. The phone had already been ringing with the news, and the two remember being completely calm about it, even amused. “Where did he ever get the idea the East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives is still around! And about Dan!” They had no notion at all of the correspondence Phil and Liz had exchanged, except for the copy of the one letter they had seen from Phil and the earlier “purple paper.” They knew about Boyd but trusted him. In any event there was no plot to kidnap anyone or blow up tunnels. It seemed clear that whatever Hoover knew came from hopelessly garbled sources, and that he was peddling headlines, not working for indictments. They kept at their painting.

They were puzzled by Liz’s obvious shock. For her part, she recalls them sharing in the shock. The visit was brief. Liz went on to New York. On November 30, she re-read and destroyed Phil’s letter commenting on the Kissinger idea. It still hadn’t occurred to her that Boyd was an agent.

Nor had it occurred to Phil. With Dan he issued a statement, via attorneys, that ridiculed the charges:

“We are happy to agree [with Mr. Hoover] that … a conspiracy of conscience does exist; in a far more extensive form than Mr. Hoover recognizes. There is a West Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives, a Middle Atlantic and a Southern Conspiracy to Save Lives. There is, in fact, a Worldwide Conspiracy to Save Lives… Mr. Hoover, however, is overgenerous. At Danbury we have neither the facilities nor personnel to conduct such an enterprise. Nor do we have access to government funds. We have already been tried and condemned by Mr. Hoover’s remarks, and we should be given an equal opportunity to answer his charges. He ought, in view of the seriousness of the allegations he made, either prosecute us or publicly retract the charges he has made.”

Members of the East Coast Conspiracy to Save Lives made various statements correcting Hoover for his astonishingly erroneous charges against them. “We here claim,” a group statement added on the matter of Hoover’s idea of the Berrigans being resistance generals, “that while we are deeply respectful of the Berrigans, they are not our leaders.”

Congressman William R. Anderson, having already read some of Dan and Phil’s writings, came up to visit them in Danbury. Afterward he wrote a letter to Hoover that he released to the press:

“If there is any substance in your allegations … it is your duty to arraign [these people] before a federal grand jury… If on the other hand, there is no substance … we should expect an explanation, if not an outright retraction.”

Nelson and Ostrow found that Hoover was furious with the various challenges that were made. Doubtless the goading from Anderson was particularly astonishing — Anderson had been the commander of the submarine Nautilus when it passed under the North Pole; he was a respected hero. Hoover wrote Anderson, chiding him for releasing his letter to the press. “The Director” scribbled more blue-ink notations in the margins of reports: “expedite… pull out all stops… push this hard.”

What to do about Boyd?

It was Neil who first decided Boyd was an agent. He has no explanation for the insight. It was “a powerful intuition” that hit him while he was driving from New York December 18, to demonstrate at the Justice Department protesting Hoover’s Senate Statement in November. Boyd had been paroled the day before, a date presumably so as not to miss a demonstration that would bring together those whom he referred to as “the cream of the Catholic left.” (With Boyd as he drove to Washington, it was learned at the trial, were ten FBI agents.)

“It was becoming more and more clear to me,” Neil recalled, “that it had to be Boyd. So I went over to Washington, where I knew a lot of people would be after the Justice Department demonstration, and I aired out the theory that Douglas had been telling the FBI everything that he knew — or that he thought he knew.

“But the main part of the discussion was what does a group like ours do about an informer. One of the Jesuits mentioned what other groups have done — ranging from killing them to confronting them; but not even the confrontation models were really nonviolent. Some of the people, who really didn’t know Boyd, were a bit unsure that this was really true. ‘How could anybody be in our midst,’ they seemed to be saying, ‘and not be transformed?’”

Neil’s voice was briefly sarcastic. He went on: “It was a powerful meeting. Boyd Douglas was now out. He was a real person. He had had contacts with many of the people there, and perhaps would have future contacts with everyone else there, somehow or other. We knew we’d have to find some way to deal with him.

“The conclusion was not that we would confront him and then send him off. We would be receptive to him — but never be open with him about details of what they were doing or who they were working with or where they were. That night it was just a question of him staying with some nuns in Washington — that was no problem. Then somehow or other someone would contact him and communicate to him that people were not into a whole lot of things that he might think they were.

“Some of the main contributors to this approach were the Quakers present, people who felt that it would be an awful thing if we were wrong and Boyd weren’t an informer, but that we had to operate on our best instincts.

“The whole time this meeting was going on, you know, Boyd was frantically calling, trying to find out what was going on, and where everybody was!”

The main consequence of the meeting, so far as Joe and Neil were concerned, was a letter to Boyd:

“We were sorry we were unable to see you when you were in town, as you know things were very confused. But how are you and how does it feel to be able to travel around? Where will you be for Christmas? Didn’t hear much about the Washington demonstration, but we gather that it didn’t have much Impact. It seems to us that what had most impact was the [December 7 draft board action in New Jersey, the Hoover Vacuum Conspiracy, so named to cause Hoover some extra holiday cheer]. Although we were not involved with that action and didn’t know of it until it was over (it seems the news media tells us everything), it was the best response to J. Edgar Hoover’s accusation.

“The whole Hoover incident has done much to strengthen the hundreds of people who are involved in the Conspiracy of Conscience against the war and violence. We have been able to get widespread publicity in order to explain who we are and that we stand for nonviolence and a more human condition throughout the world. As you know, the plot mentioned by Hoover could never seriously be considered by any of our people as something that would be a way to further our message of nonviolent change. Yet even as an idea it would have to be rejected as impossible since it had no guarantee that injury or loss of human rights of people would be prevented. Knowing several of our people as you do, I ‘m sure you realize all of this, but nonetheless the publicity of the whole alleged plot has enabled all our people to reject such a tactic as being opposed to our philosophy and style of life. We should have made this explicit to you.

“At any rate we are grateful for the opportunity to explain to so very many people what we are about and to gain their support and sympathy, even if some of it is only in the form of resenting J. Edgar Hoover and the FBI for using such a violent and low tactic. The response from people has been tremendous. There is no greater revolutionary force than repression. We have known where our weakness is for some time now and we have attempted to approach it in our usual nonviolent way since we believe that every human being is important and worthy of receiving our kindness and our message in the hope for change… we are not only speaking out against the violence of the U.S. but also the violence within the movement… Thanks for listening. We hope that your new found physical freedom will help you as a person to become more and more liberated from the oppression and violence that surround us all.”

Joe Wenderoth had written the letter longhand. At the end of the last page there was the addition, in Neil’s hand, of the word, “peace.”

“Well, we’ve got them now!”

Mary Cain Scoblick had been sick that day, and was under a pile of blankets when Tony arrived home from a day of cab driving; the two lived in a narrow, two-story house with a treacherous alley in back and very poor neighbors on all sides. They had been renting the house since their marriage June 27, when scores of FBI agents had arrived for the wedding hoping that Dan Berrigan might be on hand to bless the sacrament. (Guns erupted from shoulder holsters when a balloon popped).

Mary Cain Scoblick: slim, with wide eyes, and long red hair, an extraordinarily rich vocabulary. She had been born in Baltimore, been educated by the Sisters of Notre Dame de Namur, and then joined them. She loved to read and think and had been encouraged in both. Later, having excelled in French studies, she became the first member of her congregation to be granted a Fulbright Fellowship — but she was appalled at the thought of teaching French for the rest of her life and refused it. Later she worked at a Kennedy supported school her community had founded for retarded children (I remember best her telling me of the morning ritual of hugging all the kids so there would be no doubt in anyone’s mind that he or she was still loved). Then there was a period living a relatively privileged communal life teaching relatively privileged kids in the midst of a desperately poor black D.C. neighborhood. Civil rights and then peace evolved into preoccupations. Early in 1970 she joined in destroying draft records as one of the Boston Eight. She continued to be active in resistance communities as a friend and resource person but, in order to marry, moved our of her Baltimore convent.

She married Tony Scoblick, another of the Boston Eight, a man who two years before his marriage had been ordained a priest by archconservative Archbishop Patrick O’Boyle. Like Phil Berrigan, Tony was a Josephite, a society within the American Catholic Church that concentrates its largely white presence within the black community.

Tony is a hard man to describe. He’s a magnificently playful story-teller. He does splendid imitations. There are those who thought of him as the court jester during the Harrisburg trial. But I remember him best in his pensive moments, when there is a transparent vulnerability in his face. Perhaps some of this can be seen, of all places, in a letter he wrote to Pope Paul:

“I, Anthony Scoblick, a priest of the Baltimore Diocese, hereby petition for a dispensation from all the obligations of Sacred Orders including celibacy. I make this request after serious and mature deliberation. If the law of celibacy were changed I would [wish to continue as a priest] as I do believe that the Church could do wonderful things.”

(Tony recalls the dates of his 1940 birth in Archbald, Pennsylvania, and of his studies in college and seminary, his ordination, his subsequent assignments as a priest.)

“I am leaving mainly because I met someone whom I love and wish to marry. My decision not to stay on as a priest in my [Josephite] Society came from a number of conflicts. The major one was I acted in Boston, Mass., and destroyed draft files… [possessed by] inner city draft boards which draft our poor people to kill other poor people in an unjust and genocidal war in Asia. The [Josephite] Society wanted to change me from where I was living because they did not agree with my actions and threatened to have me thrown out if I did not cooperate.

“I met Mary Cain during the Boston Action and came to respect and love her very much. I really wouldn’t like to leave the priesthood because I know that what I nave done is very important for people to know about and understand and certainly wouldn’t like to spoil good work by walking out on the Church. We both realize that we may not be as active in the Church by our decision and are willing to accept the consequences of it, I do hope that there will be a time when we will be able to participate more fully in church life in the married state and meantime we will try as best we can to continue to live faithful Christian lives.

“We both intend to live lives of poverty in complete dedication to the poor… We intend to work within the peace movement and spend our lives in trying to bring peace and Christianity to our Country.”

No Vatican dispensation was granted; Mary and Tony, to the initial disappointment of their parents, were married in a Catholic ceremony but in a borrowed Lutheran Church. As Tony had indicated to the pope, they devoted themselves to peace work: such efforts as the draft board raids in Delaware. Within the resistance community the two had the highest reputations for ingenuity, care and common sense — and for human perspective. The money to keep going came partly from Tony’s cab driving and partly from their mutual ability to spot valuable rubbish — those things in cellars, attics and garages which the owners are glad to get rid of but which, if you know where to take them, are worth cash.

So it had been going until January 12, the day Mary was sick in bed. It was a few minutes after 6 p.m. and Tony had just come home. There were several knocks on the door, and Tony went down to see who was there. He didn’t yell back to Mary to say who it was, and the sounds weren’t reassuring. Mary went into the front room. She didn’t need a robe — the chill in the house was such that she was already wearing slacks and a sweater. “I remember being grateful I didn’t have a robe on — it just makes you seem more vulnerable.”

Tony was sitting in a chair and there were two FBI-dressed men; he looked, she said, tired and bewildered. “They had made him sit down. They wanted to make me sit down too, but I was not about to sit down. I had read books about that! I did! They try to get you to sit down — and then they stand up and you’re supposed to get this really inferior, powerless feeling. So I wouldn’t sit down. They were all bigger than I was anyway! Then I asked them what this was all about, but before they answered, they went to the back door to let another man into the house. No one with common sense would open the door to that alley after dark, much less station a person there! I asked again what this was all about and they said, ‘Conspiracy against the federal government.’ I said, ‘Where’s your warrant.’ They said, ‘We don’t need one — there’s a bench warrant in Harrisburg.’ I didn’t even know where Harrisburg was! One of us asked to see their identification. I have no idea what I was looking at. I couldn’t tell you what was on the cards. I went and stood under the light. I wasn’t reading anything, I don’t know what their names were. But I stood there looking at the cards! Show some control, Mary! I didn’t want them to just get away with not having a warrant — but there was no way to stop them. They were just going to take him. And I kept wondering, ‘Why aren’t you taking me? Tony has done nothing I haven’t done?’ Tony told me later he was wondering the same thing, but we didn’t dare say anything because then maybe they would take me!

“I asked them to call the U.S. Attorney. I had heard that was the thing to do. But there was no way to make them do anything. They just said, ‘You can call him.’ They tried to be professional, but were uncertain of their ground and fidgety. I was afraid to push their nerves too far.

“Then they decided to leave. He had already been handcuffed when I came into the room — and they wouldn’t take them off even to let him put his coat on. And it was winter outside! I put his coat around his shoulders. I also emptied all his pockets.

“We were talking when they made him leave — and just as they made him go, he looked at me and said, ‘Well, Mary, we’ve got ‘em now!’ And then he said, ‘You know what to do!’ And we kissed goodbye.” Mary and I stopped for laughter but she said they had kept straight faces that day, “Then off he went, calling out to people on the street, ‘Hi gang!’”

A visit from the Cardinal

With the house suddenly empty, Mary called Neil and Joe. They were home and she told them what happened — they said come over. It was a two-minute walk. Their Volkswagen microbus was out in front, but they didn’t answer the door.

“We had a key so I went inside. But nobody seemed to be there. Their dinner was on the stove. But the stove was turned off. I kept hoping that maybe their water boiler had burst again and that maybe they were in the cellar — or they were going to be there somewhere. I went all through the house. I didn’t call them. I just went to each room and looked. And they weren’t there. Nobody was there.”

Talking about it months afterward, she remembered a detail: Neil and Joe had found a small dark grey cat in the alley in back of the Scoblicks’ house and Joe had taken it home. It was a sickly animal and never learned to use its rear legs well. “When I got to the house and walked up the steps, the cat was jumping up onto their red curtains and clawing at them. It was like he had gone berserk.

“I found out later that the cat — Danbury — had gotten out of the house when they were arresting Joe and Neil and Joe had made one of the FBI men go and get the cat and bring him back! All these strange things that happened to the poor cat! And Joe in handcuffs, concerned about the cat…”

It took several hours, following several false leads, before she found the three in the police lockup. Mary arrived with several friends. “All three of them already had visitors! And we had to wait! The Cardinal [Sheehan] was there, and the guard on duty was very impressed. I couldn’t understand how the Cardinal came before me, but he did. The sergeant on duty was very impressed — the Cardinal was there! The guard told me he had straightened his collar. But I wasn’t about to straighten my collar — I wasn’t at all impressed. I was just so depressed. Especially when I learned the diocesan lawyer was in there. I didn’t know him but presumed he’d fight to keep them in there.”

In fact both the Cardinal and his lawyer, Francis X. Gallagher, fought to get the men out.

“Frank was all smiles,” Joe recalls. “Hello! How are you?”

“Fine! Everything’s fine! Nothing to worry about.” Tony was imitating Gallagher’s voice. “Terrific! Just don’t answer any questions.”

“We kept saying, ‘What shall we do, what shall we do? How do we get out of this? And he said,” Tony went on, “There’s no problem, there’s no problem with this,’” Tony explained this was good news because the FBI agents had assured him that he was “going away for the rest of his life” and Tony said he had been finding the idea of that “hard to get used to.”

Lawrence Cardinal Sheehan left a less verbal impression than Frank Gallagher. The Cardinal asked how they were feeling. He was greatly concerned because they wanted cigarettes but didn’t have any — a priest accompanying him was sent out to get cigarettes. Then there was a search for matches when the cigarettes arrived. The Cardinal didn’t question them. It was clear he was pleased with his lawyer’s desire to volunteer his legal services. (In subsequent days, as the bail issue was argued in court, the Cardinal said he would be responsible for the subsequent appearances of these three; even so, bail was still insisted on.)

For his visit to the prison that night, Cardinal Sheehan received a number of strongly critical letters and phone calls. He confined his response to a quotation from the Gospel according to St. Matthew: “I was in prison and you visited me.”

“The president of what company?”

Eq’s arrest, synchronized almost to the minute with the Baltimore arrests, was carried out with speed and efficiency within the Adlai Stevenson Institute in Chicago where Eq was then a Fellow. The conservatively suited pair of FBI agents entered Eq’s office and were on their way out a half minute later, their handcuffed captive hardly having time to yell back, “Call Julie! Tell her they’ve arrested me!” The astonished secretary blinked at the scene and yelled back, “Who arrested you?” “The FBI has arrested me!”

If Eq’s sense of humor flagged at all, it revived quickly at the police station. Part of a television news team was already there, but only the technicians. “The guy is here, the guy is here! Where is Bill Plath.” The anchor man hadn’t arrived. Finally one news team was ready and announced to the sergeant, “We want to talk to him.” A finger was pointed at Eq. “Can we talk to him?” The police officer responded, “Well, I have no objection. It’s up to him if he wants to talk to you.” “Can we talk to you?” they asked Eq. “Of course! Let them in.” The police officer beamed, yelling out to an assistant, “Open the door! Open the door!” Simultaneously, the cop started tidying his tie and combing his hair, repeating the order twice more, “Open the door, open the door!” But as he stood by Eq, “snuggling up to me,” waiting for the cameras to begin multiplying the events for Chicago (perhaps national) television, the news show anchor man told the apprentice star sternly, “You’re not supposed to be part of that!” The poor policeman’s face dropped like a soufflé in the subway.

For four hours Eq had had a cell to himself when a tall man arrived. Eq enjoyed describing him: “He had a long mod black-striped fur coat, very wide tie, long stiff collars, bell-bottom trousers, pointed Italian shoes — black. He takes a cigarette box out, a gold lighter. And I am sitting there in a corner, fascinated by this performance. Finally I ask, ‘What are you in for, brother?’ He says, ‘Driving without license.’ Then he turns to me and says, ‘What are you in for?’ I say, ‘They say I was going to kidnap the president’s adviser.’ He looks at me and says, ‘What company he work for?’ I said, ‘No company, man, the president of America! Mr. Nixon’s adviser.’” At this the cellmate decided he had been lucky enough to be locked in with a man with a sense of humor — and he began to laugh. “You fuckin’ joker, you’re puttin’ me on! You fuckin’ joker!” The man’s body doubled over with rolls of laughter that ignored the jail bars.

“We have the package”

That same day Liz, Jogues Egan and Bill Cunningham (a Jesuit priest who had been one of the Catonsville Nine lawyers) were coming out of lawyer Morton Staris’ offices in Newark, New Jersey. Jogues had been ordered to appear before a grand jury in Harrisburg and there were a number of legal matters that required clarification. As the three left the office building, Liz noticed two cars that “looked like FBI cars and with FBI in them.” Ignoring the grey-suited observers, the three went over to their car in the parking lot, Bill and Jogues getting in immediately. Three men approached. “Sister Liz,” one of them said, “you’re under arrest for an indictment handed down by a federal grand jury in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, this afternoon.”

The FBI had more of a catch then they realized: Liz had in her hands at that moment the entire folder of correspondence with Phil. “I had them in my hand — I had been carrying it with me very nearly 24 hours a day! I was more upset about having this file in my hands at that point than I was being arrested.
“Bill and Jogues, who were in the car, thought at first these men were parking attendants and that I was trying to leave without paying the parking fee! But they quickly caught on that it was something and Bill started getting out of the car. One of the FBI men said, ‘Is that your lawyer?’ and I said, ‘Bill? Oh yes! Of course!’ “Bill took over. He said, ‘Do you have a warrant?’ They said, ‘No,’ and explained there was a bench warrant in Harrisburg.

“While all this was going on, I opened up the car and started to put the folder of correspondence inside. One of the agents said, ‘What are you doing?’ I said, ‘Leaving my things in the back seat.’ He said, ‘Oh no, that comes with you!’ And I said — to myself — Oh no it doesn’t.’

Jogues came around the car. She recognized one of the agents and said, ‘Mr. Reilly, we meet again — and so soon.’ Mr. Reilly was one of the men who had served the subpoena to Jogues.

“Then Bill asked them, ‘Do you have a copy of ‘ the indictment?’ They said, ‘No.’ He said, ‘What are the charges?’ One of them said, ‘Oh, there are about twenty of them.’ Another pulled out a notebook and read off seven points. Bill responded, ‘Well, that’s seven.’ But they weren’t interested in debate.

“They said, ‘Okay, let’s go.’ With which I gave Bill the keys to the car. Then I reached into my purse to get the registration. The FBI men said, ‘What are you doing?’ I said, ‘I’m giving him the registration to the car.’ The agent said, ‘Oh he doesn’t need that — he can explain it.’ I said, ‘Thank you, but I’ll give him the registration.’

“So I gave him the registration.

“Jogues looked like she was in the midst of tears, so I gave her a big hug and said, ‘Don’t worry.’

“Then I did the same with Bill — and handed him the file!”

Liz smiled beautifully with the memory, her eyes full of light.

“They didn’t try to take it away from him. I don’t know whether they knew it had passed hands or not.”

Seven cars of agents were in and around the parking lot, two or three agents to a car: nearly twenty agents to arrest Sister Elizabeth McAlister!

“As we were walking to the car, one of them said to me, ‘You’ve done a lot of traveling today, Sister.’ And I looked at him and said, ‘And I’ve had company all the way, huh?’ They didn’t answer. So I got in the back seat with two of them and there were two more in the front. They took my purse and asked what I had in my pockets. I said, ‘Four tissues and…’ I counted up the change. ‘and a dollar thirty seven.’ They kept referring to me as Sister Liz, so about the fifth time that they had called me that, I said to them, ‘Please. My name is Elizabeth. My friends call me Liz.’

“He pretended to be hurt, but it was all so pretentious I could have hit him. He had a grin in his face from one ear to the other, and it remained with him. It was a little hard to take. His name was Mr. Riley. He was one of the men who had arrested Phil at St. Gregory’s. He picked up the radio microphone and called in to their center, ‘We’ve got the package and we’re coming in.’ That’s what he said! It’s not TV stuff — they really do it!”

“Reconciling myself to life imprisonment”

Phil Berrigan didn’t need to be arrested; arrest had begun in that rectory closet in St. Gregory’s April 21st. The first cold draft of another trial came November 27 when the prison grapevine carried the news of Hoover’s accusation before the Senate subcommittee.

There had been the vague warning in news Liz had brought along on visits of intensified federal surveillance, but she had thought it had to do with the Delaware draft raids.

Neither Dan nor Phil had given a passing thought to old letters. “Dan and I had discussed events at Lewisburg, just as we had discussed his four months underground. I had told him about Douglas, and our hopes for him. We went over the main lines of a citizen’s arrest, and the tunnel proposal… We thought of both as explorations — hopeful and necessary ones, but mere explorations.

Then came the news of Hoover’s charges. ‘“As I recall it,” Phil wrote me later, “the evening was cold and snowy — like our hearts. For purpose of security, we walked in the handball courts to discuss Hoover’s bombshell. The best reasons we could find for his statement were the FBI’s incapacity to prosecute the recent draft board raids, Dan’s impudent and effective underground, and Hoover’s sagging reputation… I dared not conclude, at that point, that Douglas had betrayed us.

“A ponderous gloom invaded us. I remember fighting to reconcile myself to the idea of life imprisonment, especially when I learned that the government had Douglas under contract, and possession of the letters as well. My experience, however, served me well — I had been boxed in before by our manicured despots, to no lasting ill effect. I knew what they could try; but I also suspected what they couldn’t accomplish against resolute nonviolence.

“It might have taken a week to get reconciled to the worst. But lest this appear too casual or too off hand — I must confess to a recurrent question — what will God ask one to do? How many prison years will be required? Jail years marked by resistance to penal corruption — and therefore solitary, fasts, possible shipment to other institutions.

“Others apparently were not asked to do that much or they had rejected doing anything at all. So the reasoning — and temptation — went. In the end, one banishes them, trying to go on.

“I remember thinking too — with astonishment — ’Wow! they’ve finally got me!’ If they had ever know what some of us had done — it would be all up. But now they know. And there’s nothing quite like their anger and vengefulness…

“Finally, I thought of the others. Thanks to me they were now in deep trouble. However I might excuse myself; however they might excuse me; however people might rally to our defense, the fact is, I had been guilty of imprudences and shallow judgment asking for concern and services that few would have the arrogance to expect — information on the movement, requests for advice and speculation, etc., etc. I had no rational, or justifiable right to risk myself, let alone them.”

Mary and Ted

The first Harrisburg indictment allowed for maximum sentences of life in prison. But because there never was an agreement to undertake a kidnapping (there was not even agreement on a citizen’s arrest) and because there was no agreement to impede the heating of Washington offices (though one of Boyd’s most glittering accomplishments was to get a set of Joe’s fingerprints on the cover of an ROTC explosives manual, an event as challenging as getting Dorothy Day’s fingerprints on an issue of Playboy), there was finally a degree of enthusiasm about the trial. There was no conspiracy, and it wouldn’t be so huge a feat to prove that even to the most suspicious set of jurors.

Attorneys in the Justice Department weren’t a centimeter behind the defendants in catching a whiff of the future. There was a shuffling of assignment that put William Lynch in charge of the prosecution and finally a second indictment was brought. It threatened only five-year sentences to most defendants, but easier conviction.

“I was really disappointed when they dropped the first indictment,” Eq said one night, after the trial was finished.

“We were tried on the second indictment, but as far as the public was concerned, it was still a trial of conspiracy to kidnap Kissinger.

“In the second they indicted us on a generalized conspiracy to commit offenses against the United States of America, and then in that generalized indictment, they specified several things. First, six draft board raids. Then they threw in the kidnapping and the tunnel business.

“According to the conspiracy laws, they did not have to prove that we had done all the things that were listed, but any one of them — including any one of the draft board actions! If they could do that, they could convict us. It was a very smart thing to do on their part. The public image of the kidnapping charge was maintained while legally they could convict us without the kidnapping.

“It was after that second indictment that I gave my middle finger to Lynch — and he never forgave me for that.”

There were other changes in the second indictment. Most striking, Dan Berrigan was out of it altogether. In November Hoover had said Dan was, in effect, co-Godfather of the anti-war mafia. In January, he was reduced to a supporting role — simply listed as one of a number of mysterious people listed as co-conspirators but who were in no legal jeopardy. In April, with the second indictment, Dan’s name evaporated completely.

There was the inclusion of sections of the Liz and Phil letters on the citizen’s arrest notion, an explosive departure from legal precedent but one that clearly paid off politically: while the government had grasped that there had never been the plot the first indictment and Hoover had bellowed into the public ear, by releasing these chips of the letters, it was made to seem that the government had actually known what it was taking about, and that the defendants earlier protestations of innocence were either lies or at least fell short of honesty.
Finally, there was the addition of two new defendants, Ted Glick and Mary Scoblick.

Ted Glick was in prison at the time, already one of the victims of Boyd’s efforts. Ted had been in the Flower City Conspiracy. He had grown into the resistance from a highly committed Protestant family background, finally dropping out of Grinnell College. For years prior to what he called “the change” — change resulting in his leaving college and occasioned by contact with blacks, the reading of Gandhi and Martin Luther King, as well as with direct contact with a member of the Milwaukee 14 draft group) he had been enthusiastically involved in “the art and disciplines of wrestling.”

Here is a letter Ted wrote to his wife the day of the news:

“Dearest one —

“My mother’s birthday — and as a present her son is indicted — that just occurred to me — that it’s Mom’s birthday. Such are the times in which we live.

“I heard about the charges at 1:30. Chip had heard it on the radio, and he called me to tell me about it. A couple of minutes later I was called to the warden’s office to be told the same… All I’ve gotten from other inmates is either sympathy or questions about the charge… this is good in one sense — it a period of quite a few discussions about the nature of the government and has brought to the surface things not before expressed by others.

“About me — I ‘m fine of course. After initial shock, and then a period of pulling myself together, I now feel — well, interested in learning more, in making contact with people, in exploring the possibility of defending myself — the practical aspects of it ail. I was glad to hear tonight on the news that the kidnapping charge has been reduced from life to 5 years — although I see absolutely no way that there can be any evidence at all since, well, you know my innocence as well as me. Anyway, it’s better to know the most I can get is many years rather than life. Enough of that talk. The important thing is affecting people, not so much that legal nonsense — which isn’t completely true either, but you know what I mean.

“I don’t understand it all… Am I really that dangerous to the government…?
Other than these things, today I didn’t do much. Read a little, wrote a couple of poems… and played volleyball after dinner…

“I’ll finish up now — don’t worry more than is normal about me. My biggest worry is you, and my mother — that you not be too deeply shaken by this turn of events. I have faith that you won’t… I love you, I love you.”

A great deal of Ted is present there, including things that would later drive a few co-defendants and several lawyers up the wall: his determination to speak for himself in the courtroom; his amazing, sometimes unnerving equilibrium in moments of crisis; his quiet, utterly stubborn determination to make resistance the first priority of his life, and to maintain all relationships in terms of that priority. Yet all that in a gentle way. He has a soft, unhurried voice. He writes poems.

As for Mary Cain Scoblick, she entered this rendition of the Harrisburg tale earlier on, the night of her walk from one empty house to another.

She and Tony had been in Harrisburg as the new indictment was pending; Tony was engaged in a fast outside the Federal Courthouse, wearing a blanket and woolen cap against the cold, sleeping nearby in his bizarre, mostly handmade truck at night. His fast and vigil was in support of those who were risking jail by refusing to answer questions before the grand jury.
Mary was outside the courthouse with Tony that Friday when a large contingent of reporters came out of the building.

“They acted,” Mary recalled, “Like no newspapermen I’d ever seen — they just stood around. Of course I didn’t really care. I didn’t know there was anything special happening. Finally one of them told Tony that there was a new indictment — and that I was included.

“They were extremely apologetic and much abashed at being in this position, of bringing us this news! They really resented being the instruments of such information. I think they told Tony first because they just didn’t want to tell me everything at once.

“Then Tony called me and they showed us a copy of the indictment. And I saw our names set off in the center. Tony kissed me and the picture went around the country.

“I didn’t even know if it was precisely the same charge, or if we faced the same prison possibilities.

“Then the reporters said, ‘Now don’t you say anything about the indictment! Not one word!’ And this was their general agreement. They agreed that they weren’t going to ask me anything about that, and that I shouldn’t say anything. They were so good. I just couldn’t believe it.

“One of them did ask me, ‘Would you like to make just a few comments about how you feel?’ So I said if I was to be arrested, I didn’t expect anyone to think I should be required to have to pay any bail — because here I was, standing on the steps of the federal courthouse.

“Then I went up to the doorman and attempted to identify myself so I could go in and get a copy of the indictment. I told the reporters that it didn’t seem to me to be the behavior of a person who was going to flee. And in fact I never paid any bail. But the clerk had no copies left. I couldn’t even buy one. So I went to the U.S. Attorney’s office.

“Finally I went to the clerk’s office. And there were about a dozen reporters there. And there was Mr. Lynch, who seemed to be having a great time. He was leaning casually on a desk. I never saw him relaxed after that day.

“And he acknowledged me. He started out very jolly, saying, ‘Oh well! Here’s Mary…’ And then his voice kind of slid down a couple of octaves and died with a mutter of ‘Scoblick’ — because he saw the look on my face.

“Because I was furious, I was just furious. I was furious that he would be there talking to reporters when he knew where I was — I had been in that building for two weeks sitting on the floor with the people who were being called to the grand jury. And he knew Tony was outside fasting. He passed by him every day. Just a few minutes effort could have found me. They could have told me what had happened in a dignified way.

“Then I had the memory very quickly of how we had been put in a surprise position with the first indictment. And now this. Telling the press and then us.

“So I had a few things to say to Mr. Lynch. I said ‘You could at least have done me the courtesy of informing me of my indictment before you had your press conference.’ Then he made a mistake. He said, ‘I didn’t know where you were.’ He could have said, ‘That’s not the procedure.’ But he was very rushed and didn’t think. I said, ‘I’ve been in the building for two weeks. There are plenty of people in the building who could have found me easily.’ So then he just tried to keep me quiet and get me out. Then I said, ‘I haven’t even been able to buy a copy of my indictment.’ And he said, ‘You shouldn’t even be discussing this without your lawyer.’ And I said, ‘You know perfectly well that I’m discussing your behavior. I know what I can discuss and what I can’t discuss. And I’m discussing your conduct. And then I left, and I didn’t say goodbye.”

Postscript

A year after Mary’s dressing down of Prosecutor Lynch, the trial was ending with only two jurors convinced that any of those on trial were guilty of conspiracy to kidnap Kissinger or bomb heating tunnels.

Within 18 months, the government had quietly filed for a dismissal of charges:
There were convictions. Phil and Liz were found guilty of sending unauthorized letters. (Their appeal is still in progress.)

The better part of a million dollars had been raised to pay for the defense and for the organizing projects that surrounded the trial.

Some defense efforts went into support of the draft resisters who had been arrested in the federal building in Buffalo, and there was help given to the Camden 28.

There was a national pilgrimage to Harrisburg that brought many thousands to the city for Holy Week.

Defendants and staff had gone on the road much of the time. Daniel Ellsberg and Anthony Russo, who had made the Pentagon Papers public, had become involved. A supporting statement from Cesar Chavez was on the principal defense committee poster. Some Episcopal bishops came and wore their liturgical vestments for a peace observance in the streets of Harrisburg.

Such events, and the trial that had occasioned them, became well known.

It would be good and helpful to talk about the unknown events of the inner workings of the defense. The defendants, their lawyers, and co-workers had suffered through a staggering obstacle course — such questions as whether Bill Kunstler should be one of the’ lawyers, as Dan and Phil Berrigan very much wanted, but a place wasn’t found for Bill.

There were such unlikely (and as yet unreported) events as the cross examination of former Attorney General Ramsey Clark by Eqbal Ahmad when Ramsey first volunteered his services to the defense; Eq wanted answers about Ramsey’s involvement in the Johnson administration, his department’s prosecution of Dr. Spock, his failure to speak out against the war while a cabinet member; Ramsey offered no excuses — with humility that astonished the defendants, he simply said he had erred — and later repeated himself at public meetings.

There were the comic events, such as the FBI investigation of the Green Carnation Conspiracy. On St. Patrick’s Day both the defendants and jurors had worn identical green carnations to which a cheerless Justice Department responded by interviewing all of Harrisburg’s florists in an effort to prove jury tampering.

There were the grave difficulties the defendants had with each other, though hardly a rare thing in conspiracy trials, this group, managed to overcome the legion of opportunities they had for losing their functional unity.

There were severe strains between defendants and the defense committee staff, but these were also resolved.

As much as all these events deserve some detailed reporting, their telling will have to wait. For my own part, I lay this burden down with relief. Describing the genesis of the trial is enough.

Perhaps its telling can even strengthen the resolve of a few readers to reexamine and to reimagine their lives. Whether or not a cease fire takes hold in Indochina, the work of peacemaking remains as urgent as ever — in fact more so, as the reduction of overt American violence will certainly result in further shrinkage of the number of persons regularly working against violence; that shrinkage will make more important the work and resolve of those who remain. For the cultural assumptions and national priorities, even the private life-styles, that brought on the war seem little changed. No deep lesson seems to have been learned.

Then perhaps the efforts of the Harrisburg people can be read as something other than historical notes of a bygone era. Perhaps their questions and their searching — and their lessons — can be recognized as still important.

— Jim Forest

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Jim Forest has written a great deal on the subject of resistance, often in the pages of WIN. He was a member of the Milwaukee 14, which destroyed draft files in 1968. Jim is currently working on the problem of political prisoners in South Vietnam.
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* Postscript written in 2012:

Much that I wrote in the WIN article 39 years ago holds up quite well, but I find myself turning into a spin doctor in the section that deals with Phil Berrigan’s letter to Liz in which he comments on the idea of a citizens’ arrest of Henry Kissinger: “About the plan — the first time opens the door to murder — the Tupamaros are finding that out in Uruguay… When I refer to murder, it is not to prohibit it absolutely (violence against nonviolence bag); it is merely to observe that one has set the precedent, and that later on, when government resistance to this sort of thing stiffens, men will be killed.”

Looking back, it seems to me that Phil means exactly what he said — that of its nature such an action risks the occurrence of homicidal violence but that taking that risk might be necessary.

If I could go back in time, I would better have pointed out that Phil was not immune from the anger and desperation that led a small number of other war resisters and would-be revolutionaries into the bomb-making Weather Underground. Phil had only recently toyed seriously with the possibility of using explosives in heating tunnels that served federal office buildings in Washington.

I recall Joe Wenderoth, who went into the tunnels with Phil, telling me how terrified he was of the direction Phil was going at the time and how powerless he felt to oppose Phil. “To say I was relieved when the FBI arrested Phil in that Manhattan rectory is to put it mildly,” Joe told me. “His arrest put an end to the tunnels project.”

I am reminded of Dorothy Day’s worry that the tactics Phil Berrigan helped develop were on the borderline of nonviolence and could have the effect of encouraging others to cross that border. “Bombings are the next step,” she commented, “and when it comes to bombs, you can’t control them, no matter what your intentions, you can’t be sure that there isn’t a late worker or a cleaning worker around.”

Imprisonment can sometimes be a blessing — a time to get off the conveyor belt one has been riding, a time to rethink basic issues, a time for contemplation and prayer. In the years that followed, though Phil committed many acts of civil disobedience and spent a great deal more time in prison, there was no further thought given to using bombs or undertaking actions that could result in anyone being harmed.

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